KIE : The story soo far...

Going into the 2nd Quarter

2011-04-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

This week saw my last lesson of the Semester. First quarter of 2001's just gone like that.

How fast time really flies.

Looking back, how much loss I have ? But on the other hand, how much did I gain ? Afterall, it's been a semester that was met with emotional devastation, caused by a yet-again heartbreak right at the beginning. There's many a times when I lost my motivation due to all these feelings inside. Yet at least, I was able to put all these heartbreaking feelings aside and put on hours to study for all these semester tests.

Cause I know, I must not make the same old mistakes and those same regrets over again in this phase of school life.

I am glad I am still able to achieve something out in terms of my studies despite all these devastations caused by a vicious relationship cycle.

Though the MAIN battle is yet to come. It's starting this coming end of April.

Feelings might affect me, but not my studies.

While I hope you will achieve victories in your exams too.

老实讲

2011-02-17T22:50:00.001+08:00

爱你却从不讲幸福的致命伤
从此我只能够在部落格上
路过你快乐悲伤

你说你想飞翔所以我不阻挡
希望你能够在他的肩膀上
找到那爱的信仰

我承认有些话当时没老实讲
那么坏人就让我来当
我了解有些话现在没老实讲
明天我将失去了胆量
当你成为别人的新娘

我承认有些话当时若老实讲
现在就不会两败俱伤
其实爱你的心早已濒临疯狂
连我自己也无法抵抗
再也还原不了的时光

Dear mum

2011-02-14T14:01:00.002+08:00

Dear mum,

It's been more than a hundred days since you left the world.

Sometimes I feel like looking at your portrait at home and telling you all the shits that happened since you're gone. Perhaps, I should have shared with you all the shits that happened in my life throughout these years when you were around, even if you were disabled physically and perhaps somehow mentally.

Within that first 100 days since you were gone, I wanted to make a brilliant start in my life. I would like to achieve actual proofs in my studies, I would like to breakthrough in my relationship life. There were the things that you wanted to see in your pasttime but failed to see when you were around. In the end, it's doesn't even matter. No matter how much effort I tried, how much prayers I put in, they still can't find a way in my life.

Today is Valentine's Day. Once again, I had to stare blank and feeling disheartened on this day.
Two months ago, fate brings this person closer to my life, only to see her getting attached with someone she knew better at the end of the day. I should be happy for her. That's a thing a man should do.

But I have to question myself.

Why do I always have to be at the wrong end of a relationship ?

I am in mid-20s yet I am still stuck in this vicious relationship cycle.

Mum,

Seriously, I had enough of all this. I took faith for close to 7 years but what did I get in the end ?

Minor actual proofs but consistent failures to breakthrough in the major ones ?

I am really tired.

Tomorrow will be a day that I must really move on. But who can guarantee right now that I will not have to face all these shits anymore ?

At the end of the day...

2011-02-10T00:15:00.002+08:00

She never left any wishes.

Though, I am really appreciated and grateful for each and every friend, be it those old friends or new friends who are made in school, for their simple, yet sincere and warm birthday messages.

Perhaps I should not expect so much... Afterall, a man should not expect even the simplest return from someone whom he always kept in his mind.

Fate determines who enters into our lives. The heart determines who stays.

It's another year living.

2011-02-09T20:39:00.002+08:00

Coincidentally, it's the 7th day of the Lunar New Year. The day where people's doing the traditional "Lo Hei" and it's traditionally the day where everyone celebrates each birthday.

A few friends said that it's "double joy" for me to have my birthday falling on this day. However, this year, I had to welcome another year older with a much more bittersweet feelings after all the same old vicious cycles that had happened not too long ago. There are present times that I thought what can have been, what will have been if she's around and plays a major part in my life. But then right now, all these are mere thoughts that will never be happen. Like what I mentioned earlier, she had the rights to choose and choices are deserved to be respected. That's a fact that I need to accept.

Perhaps, I have to accept the fact that I have such a vicious relationship karma. The faith that had to be screwed deeply by the act of hard fate.

Exactly 5 days later will be another day that I need to dealt with.

24, the year of Tiger or 2010 was a year that deserved to forget after it seemed so promising yet failed to deliver once more. A year that I had seem a loss of a loved one and all these numerous major disappointing setbacks that overwrote the joy and happiness and smaller achievements that occured...

Reaching the mid 20s and now birthday wishes have to be so straight forward after all these consistent failures not just in relationships, but also aspects like studies and personal growth. It seems that time has always been unforgiving and I can only make sure (once more) that resolutions must be fulfilled to erase all these disappointments of the past.

A million thanks to each and everyone who remembers me, via all forms of social communication networks. Birthday wishes are there to be appreciated and I am grateful.

Chinese New Year

2011-02-04T23:30:00.003+08:00

It's 2nd day of the Chinese New Year and once again, the maternal side of my family tree had the annual CNY gathering today.

However, for the first time, the gathering was without my mum and my grandaunt. They were no longer around. Despite all these, it's best to keep these family ties and bonds going. I really enjoy getting in touch with these maternal relatives and updating with each other. Somehow, they are really amazing people. I guess there's a lot more I can learn and emulate from them. I had a good catch-ups with Yansen. As cousins for exactly close to 25 years, I guess we should meet up and hang out more often.

I wish someone is there with me to see all these amazing uncles, aunts, cousins, nephew and nieces of mine.

It could have been...

Last day for the second time

2011-01-31T23:47:00.005+08:00

Today was my last day for the second time at PGPR. In fact, the past January was quite a packed one, as I had to juggle both school lessons and work together, though the good thing was that I was given time off to attend my lessons.

This time round though, waving good bye to my same old place was a simple one, especially after all the things that had happened for these past few months since the start of holidays.

I don't really wanna elaborate all the things that had really happened... All those details of somewhat bittersweet memories that had left behind. Fate may have brought us to a greater understandings through this working stint during the holidays, but never brought you to play an even greater part in my life. Perhaps everything happens for a reason. That's the sentence that may inspire people to move on, yet always remain an awful fact that can hurt people deeply at the start.

I can only blame myself for not having the right amount of good fortune to be with you at the very end, an always vicious cycle of 有缘无份... And these no matter how much prayers I had put, and those simple yet sincere things that I did to tell you how much I really care, to give you the right impression that I can be your right one. The fact is, at the beginning, fate of love was not at my side afterall.

You are not at fault at all, you always have the rights to make your choices, and choices are deserved to be respected. I will always be happy for you no matter how painful my heart may feel. Thanks for all these short yet significant memories that you provided in my life, those joy of working and getting along together and getting to bring a friendship to a greater understandings. And that's despite the fact that you may have left work earlier to prepare for the opening of the new semester, and we had never really interacted in our school activities, ever since you are officially with the person that you thought he's the right one for you.

Don't worry, I will definitely move on like I always did in the past... Though I am really tired of all these one-sided relationships vicious cycles that had been happening in me since young. Sometimes now, I wonder...... Who can now guarantee that I will find someone like you, or perhaps better than you ? Who can now guarantee that I will never have to go through the same old shit again ?

The festive month of Chinese New Year, turning a year older and Valentine Day should be a happier one... I could have my family and friends around me... But who can really kill off my emptiness inside ?

It's not a bad thing to be single... But ain't you sick of going through all these one-sided relationshits ? All you just want is to find the right partner and go through the joy and challenges of a relationship, like any other friends around you do.

If I can choose, I will rather go through the struggles of a relationships, be it quarrels or even breakups, than going through the same old vicious one-sided cycles that I thought I had learnt, but I felt I had always never learnt.

没关系

2011-01-22T15:19:00.003+08:00

"这不是你的问题是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一枪我没关系

爱情里面总有一个比较傻
怪就怪我放不下
痛苦给我幸福留给你和他.."

Welcoming a hopefully much better 2011

2011-01-01T03:32:00.004+08:00

It's great to end a last day of an extremely disappointing 2010 with the company of beloved family members and friends. The first 2 months of the year may seem to look harsh, yet I will definitely move on and get over. It takes some time.

Nonetheless, there will be much unsettled business in 2011. What's most important is whether I can overcome all those personal karma of mine and create my own path of happiness. What's most important is whether I can transform all those resolutions and wishes into reality by the end of it. Perhaps, past painful setbacks indeed make us stronger, a stronger will to breakthrough own's vicious cycles.

Staring at the past quarter of a century, I must win.

2010

2010-12-28T14:13:00.004+08:00

I normally will write the review of the year at the very last day of the year, but that's no point in writing that way. Especially when your year had promised so much, yet ended up nothing.

I could vividly remember how much resolutions and hopes I had put on for this year at the very end of 2009.

I could vividly remember how much I had prayed for and fought for throughout the year.

In the end, it doesn't even matter.

December 2010 just simply made December 2009 look more sweeter.

Certainly, there were some good times in the year... Such as involving in SYM and YOG, spending the best last part of working life before going back to school and rebuilding friendships that are lost in 2009.

I am grateful with all these... But they are never enough. No matter how much human revolution I had put in, bigger resolutions just failed to achieve at the very end.

Especially came after the fact that I lost my mum on 10/10/2010, I thought I can redeem something, be it studies, relationships or whatever for her. It's not just for her, it's also for myself, for everyone. Everyone, be it my father, my relatives, my friends, has been watching my growth, has been looking forward to see me scoring bigger victories in the year.

And considering the fact that I failed to score colourful results in my studies, failed to breakthrough in my relationships during her lifetime...

All I want to is to end the year on a positive note, after losing someone so close in your life. It's just so simple.

After a positive-looking and much happier November, the last month of 2010 was simply a joke, a cruel and awful joke. When everyone was celebrating their victories, in their faith and their personal lives, I have to face my own unhappiness and disappointments once again. And this despite the fact that I had put in abundant of prayers to make things right, and the right actions that I have done, making breakthroughs to get involve in things.

But they are never be enough, not always be enough.

Exam results did not reach my expectations when they were released at the beginning of December.

Looking back how I recover from the loss of a close kin which just took place just exactly 2 weeks before the exams...

Looking back how intensive the revisions were made alongside with fellow Uni friends in the libraries and Starbucks, and alone late in the night...

Looking back how much confidence I had attempted in the exam scripts even in the killer Marketing Principles...

Looking back how satisfied I am when I scored a Distinction in the Marketing project, Something I never really expected...

How I thought I can score to show the greatest actual proof in life so far, but they were just simply short of my expectations.

What I just wanna do is to show actual proof to my dad, who had been supporting me soo much for my education.

What I just wanna do is to show actual proofs to my cousin who took his O Levels this year, who is lacking in faith.

What I just wanna do is to show actual proofs to everyone around me... some might think I am underachieving. I am indeed underachieving.

Relationships wise, the vicious cycle of karma just came around and bite on me once more at this period of my life. You will never know how deep your karma is. I can't blame no one. I can only blame myself, for not having the destiny come right on my way and not accumulating those required good fortune in finding the right person. I thought she's the right person, someone who seems to click so well with you and seems suitable for you... But it's just merely a case of "so near yet so far". Once again, it's never meant to be.

She just simply got someone in mind right at the start. Everything seemed to be properly arranged in her life before I could do anything. Fate arranges for her to enter my new chapter of life, creates opportunities for me to know her with a better understanding, but there's not enough good fortune to be with her at the very end. I thought I can do something to give myself a chance, in the end things just never meant to be. I just hope she will be absolutely happy with the right person. I can only blame myself for not having the right destiny to know her even better and be with her.

All the unhappiness just came at the very last month of the year. Life can be such a joke. It can make you build hopes at the beginning of the year, enjoying some best days throughout and not bringing you to your resolutions and fulfill your hopes at the very end. As time goes by but you seem to be not achieving anything great and you are going to reach a quarter of the century, you can always say you have enough of all these shits, like you always do. And it's not that I have never try this time round.

But what's the point ?

England and Liverpool can have their worst year in memory, but that doesn't mean their supporter have to suffer the same way too.

Fuck 2010. I will definitely move on. It will take some times. Perhaps, I should not expect too much for 2011. The more we expect, the more we get disheartened and disappointed when things don't come in our way.

But how are we suppose to fight and breakthrough if we don't have expectations ?

Reunion

2010-12-19T00:57:00.002+08:00

I am grateful at how things have eventually made a turnaround after more than one year.

It's really grateful and appreciated to see how old friendships can be rebuilt gradually.

Yet, at this very moment, I am met with yet another challenge in life. It's one biggest challenge since I entered University.

I can't elaborate much. I just hope things can turn out well... Even if premonitions may not be going my way right now.

Read again

2010-12-10T16:20:00.003+08:00

I read this blog again and realise how stagnant my life is.

It seems that things are always the same, year after year.

It's not that I had never try hard.

The fact is, I had done whatever I can.

Perhaps, it's not always being the right time.

Perhaps, it's always the case of lacking the act of good fortune.

Second half of the year had seen more disappointments and unhappiness than joy.

The very last month.

I still gonna fight on despite having the slimmest of chances.

I just can't let happiness slipped away... This time round.

After some 4 months in exile

2010-12-08T16:53:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I am writing my thoughts during these office hours... Perhaps time really passes soo slowly now.

It's been 4 months since I started writing again.

One semester of my new school life's gone just like that. At least it's looked better than before though... But I felt I could have done more.

Mum passed away on 10102010, just 2 weeks before the exams. We had been mentally prepared somehow, but it's been a sudden happening. I wish I can mention more about her some day.

Now I am back at PGP again during the holidays. Money is running out... And perhaps, time is running out. Speaking of it... Once again, we are staring at the end of the year, yet I am asking myself once again... How much resolutions set at the beginning of January 2010 have I actually achieved ? I can't hide the fact that I am somehow disappointed in my debut semester results, despite the fact that I had my most intensive revision in my life. Many things in life look soo stagnant and perhaps, bleak though.

Christmas is coming soon. Christmas is about hopes. But can hopes turn into reality eventually ?

National Day

2010-08-09T13:10:00.003+08:00

I missed performing in National Day Parade with fellow SSA youths...

And for this year's one-in-a-lifetime Youth Olympics Games, I chose to do volunteering as an NOC assistant rather than performing in the opening ceremony. Well, it will be a wonderful experience playing my part as a volunteer in this global event. And yes, fresh struggles are there as I gotta juggle between studies and volunteering. 加油！

I sincerely hope next year's NDP item by Singapore Soka Association will be put up by the Youth Division. The biggest wish for me is to have the good fortune to invite new friends (non members) to participate together with me.

Not just one... But many.

Farewell.

2010-07-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

Farewell to my first full-time job since ORDed...

Farewell to the long journey bus 151 ride... Though I gonna take the same bus service on a shorter route...

I definitely hate bidding farewell to a environment that's been there for long... Not long yet not short though... for a 16 months. I definitely hate saying goodbyes to those who are there working along, encouraging me along, and training me along for my human revolution for all these months. I always sincerely wish all these friendships that are forged since ORDed are always there, intact... even if they are no longer in the same environment as mine. And yes, I will definitely wanna make time for future catch-ups. (Despite the fact that I will be heading for a new challenge back as a full-time undergraduate, a challenge of redemption to achieve absolute victories in studies and meeting new good people.)

And I will always remember all the things that had happened for the past 16 months... Those highs and lows in my life. They had made me grow.

Good bye PGPR, but friendships never end...

While a fresh new chapter of life awaits...

A share of mixed feelings

2010-07-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

It's already mid-July and World Cup had just completed exactly a week ago.

England may have disappointed me once again. Just a bunch of overrated, over-confident, half-hearted lads who could have chosen a easier route by not conceding a freak goal against the Americans, playing whole-heartedly as a team and beat Algeria and scored more than just a goal against Slovenia... and avoided a youthful Germany who played with soo much unity.

However, Spain had shown me that underachievers will eventually shine and make their breakthrough one day. Of course, I definitely wanna emulate Spain's winning ways, making breakthrough after breakthrough in life, and break all those vicious karmas that had plagued me for long.

Meanwhile, my days at PGPR are numbered as World Cup came to an end. The truth is, I really can't bear to leave my colleagues after more than 1 year of working life. This era of working life had seen my ups and downs... Those days of self-realisations and regrets of my education path, those disappointments of a 10 year friendship that was lost (It was exactly one year ago...), those highs of SYM involvement... They all happened during my working life at PGPR.

But it's time to move on... Afterall, I have planned my renewal of my study path some time ago.

Yet, I will always remember those friendships that are forged at this workplace and hope all these will continue to prolong.

How are you, my (lost, old) friends ?

2010-06-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

I wish you all's been doing well.

I guess you all are really doing well.

I guess I am doing fine, as long as I am able to face the challenges ahead with these new-found optimism. Afterall, we are born to enjoy lives.

It's been almost a year now. I guess soo much things had changed. But perhaps, everything happens for a reason.

If only lost friendships can be resolved through dialogues and taking initiatives. If only ice can be broken some day, some how.

England

2010-06-19T12:35:00.002+08:00

I may express my support to this underachieving team, but my life must definitely not emulate their results in football.

What's the point of watching English Premier League and seeing the likes of Rooney, Lampard and Gerrard dazzling around when they don't even play wholeheartedly at a bigger stage of football call the World Cup? Just because your clubs pay you all big bucks, that's why you are able to dazzle and score goals after goals in your own domestic league? The Algerians played with their hearts out despite being a group of unknowns.

Just one sentence for you my Three Lions to round up this short post:

Half-heartedness led to underachievements.

You can't blame your underachievements in football at the end of the day. At the first place, you don't even fight for the ball with hunger and desire.

Finally !

2010-06-19T01:56:00.003+08:00

It's been amazing that the very last post of this blog was dated at the very last day of March. That was at the very end of SYM... How time flies.

It's been more than 2 months now. Life's more or less the same... Challenging while I eager to create something in each and every day of my life, and that's despite the current obsession of FIFA World Cup at the very current moment. Somehow I feel that I am willing to miss alot of English Premier League games, but not even most of the group stage matches of the World Cup.

I may enjoy the coziness of staying at home and watch many of the games... But I really love the company of friends watching football together, be it Soka comrades, poly friends, secondary school friends or colleagues. It's the time where friendships can continue to bond and grow at the same time.

Once again, my favourite team is England, though there are few other favourites such as Spain, South Korea and Argentina. Yet, my no.1 beloved team in the World Cup is still England. Perhaps, I love supporting underachievers, since I am also an underachiever especially in studies and relationships. I don't have too much expectations for the Three Lions though, just like how I expect them to be winners in the last World Cup 4 years ago. This time round, at least they should qualify for the semi-finals, just like how they did exactly 20 years ago.

Speaking of studies, I really need to look forward and prepare well for my new chapter of my school life starting in August. Afterall, it's been something which I have been soul-searching, thinking, looking forward and must really breakthrough in the following few years to come. The fact is... I am seeking the last redemption in seeking positive results and absolute victories in my studies.

For now, I must really enjoy and create each and every value in my working life while watching the World Cup as an working adult.

三月

2010-03-31T18:11:00.009+08:00

我有准准一个月的时间没有写部落格了。这个月来，我为SYM的演出而忙碌，但这些辛苦是特别值得的。

回想起当初去SYC参加音乐剧的试镜，那时是大概7月到8月之间。当时的我，经历一段人生的低潮期。我不想多说当时所发生的一切，我想我已经在这部落格上分享过。当时的我，处在人生的地狱界，沉溺在痛苦之中。然而，这一切都在这段数个月的排练期间渐渐地转变。

这数个月以来，面对的挑战与难关可不少，面对的失落也不少，但比起当初的我，我的生命境涯在这段期间渐渐地提高起来。我想，我更有决心，勇气以及较客观的态度去面对这些问题，更有决意去改变我的生命，去追逐我的理想。

这数个月以来，面对不如意的事不少，但经过愉快的事也挺多。这些在SYM排练的期间的最辛福的事，我将永远记得。

如今，面对生活的挑战与难题都还在，但我真的决意要在剩余的2010年取得人生一次又一次的突破，一次又一次的胜利。

特别感谢观看我演出的朋友，谢谢你们抽空老远来淡滨尼看这场音乐剧。我也很有福运的认识这群与我一起奋战演出的会友，希望这些友谊能继续维持下去。

这场音乐剧，是我参加SSA创价学会的活动以来毕生最难忘的。这场音乐剧不是个结束，而是个我人生新的一页的开始。大家一起加油吧！一起取得一次又一次的胜利！

End of black (Fe)berry

2010-02-28T22:41:00.004+08:00

It could have been a joyous and festive month for some obvious reasons. Afterall, it was the month when I was another year older and a month of catching up with many distant relatives and collecting additional income in red packets and social gambling. Yet, some negative surprises just simply evolve out and trying to stop me not just from being in a positive mood; But rather, trying to demoralize me from striving for the future and progressing forward.

I don't wish to elaborate soo much. I guess I have said too much. I just wanna throw away all these thoughts of disappointments and staying more focus to progress forward.

I finally kicked a ball yesterday. It's been almost a year since I played football. Well, I finally saw few of these Secondary School friends since last December. We did not talk much though. Overall, I had quite a fine game. I just hope to play more football this year, even if I may not play a game for the upcoming March, since I will be burning my weekends for Soka Youth Musical.

Speaking of SYM, it's been a good past few months going for trainings and practising my role in the musical, even if it is just a simple role as a Sedan chair carrier for Toda Sensei. At the beginning, I thought I was just there to carry the sedan chair and that's all. In the end, I did more than just that. I will be part of the singing crew in the scene of Toda's passing as well as performing fan dance in the final scenes of the musical. It's been quite a good fortune getting these opportunities to perform in the musical. Meanwhile, I get to know more people through this musical and I will really like to work together well with them to give the best out of every chinese version of the musical.

Afterall, my weekends for the entire March will be burned for a much greater cause and a greater value.

This March must record my first breakthroughs and victories for this year.

祝福

2010-02-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

For all these unnamed people as mentioned previously in this blog:

2007/08:
http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2008/01/how-are-you-now.html

2009:
http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2009/12/review-2009-part-i.html

I wish them absolute happiness.

Not being emo, but I really had enough.

2010-02-23T00:30:00.006+08:00

I can't put myself to sleep before 12am once again... Perhaps all these recent outcomes had really been trying to demoralising me. One by one, one by one, one by one...

Those who I used to have those affections on, those who had hurt me soo much after such one-sided relationships turned sour...... had gone attached one by one, at the very same period of time. Well, I should be happy for them, while my confidence in pursuing of love had looked lost.

Dear friends, I am not trying to be emo. I am not being desperate. But how does it feel if you are single all along, not having a serious relationship soo far in your lifetime yet getting hurt soo much in all those several one-sided relationships, and then see some of them you used to have affections for getting attached, one by one in the same period of time? I simply had enough of all these vicious (one-sided) relationships cycles happening in my life for all these years. Just when these ex-crushes found their right ones, I am here, still single without an actual relationship at 24, still underachieving, still here, typing all these fucking same old frustrations again.

I am not being desperate, and I should not be angered or frustrated when they did not even give me a chance to progress even in friendships in the past. But think about it... All these hurtful experiences had me losing in my confidence... Confidence in terms of pursuing of love.

I wish I could swap all these hurtful one-sided experiences for better results in my studies, a place in NUS/NTU perhaps. I really wished I could have divert more attentions in my studies rather than those (early) one-sided relationships... Perhaps I wont feel soo much level of hurt, I wont lose soo much self-confidence, and I could have met better people in a school life that I really desired right now.

All the recent outcomes (Good news, new found happiness for them perhaps) seem like devilish functions that are trying to hinder me from progressing forward, stopping me from doing things that I really need to do. But I don't wish to be defeated once again. I am really sick of it. I really need to do my human revolution to really press on. There's many other things that I can look forward to, to strive on besides love.

Meanwhile, I really dont wanna see myself in the sufferings of one-sided relationships again and again.

"我在等一个人, 在等我的永恒, 告诉我爱不单行别害怕..."

A Special Million Thanks to......

2010-02-10T23:33:00.005+08:00

Calvin, Miss Chua, Raymond aka my football kaki in Woodlands, Yao Min, Raymond aka my pri sch and NSPD mate, Aidan, Joshua, Jinwen, Candice, Kerwin, Janice, Jack, Joon Kiat, Queenie, Kah How, Meiying, Peijie, Victor, Sylvester, Zhenghsin, Qiaolin, Jocelyn, Sodohoya, Yvonne, Carista, Shi Ying, Gary, Mei Kuen, Alan, Hock Seng, Jiyang, Joan, Edlyn, Shiya, Jaymie, Stella, Miss Pei, Evangeline, Yeevoon, Dejun, Weiming, Wei Yong, Benjamin, Qijie, Eng Peng, Francis, Uncle, Beron, Winnie, Aaron, Charles, Michell, Yiting, Vijay, Yixiong, Sharon, Darrell, Sikang, Emmanuel, Samantha, Gabriel, Angela, Perry, Jiazhao, Catherine, Mei Wan, Kai Yang, Kevin, Elleen, Kai Jie, Phyuthinn, Darran, Shawn and Zhi Jie.

Thanks for all your birthday wishes......

Plus a new friend by the name of Optimus Prime...

I definitely wanna further polish up myself and do my human revolution, and to create breakthroughs of victories at a soon-to-be-mid-20s-age of 24, especially in my studies in the later half of the year.

There's many other things that are also needed to make them RIGHT though.

Yet another full year of my life is about to pass...

2010-02-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day as a 23 year old. I am about to be in mid-twenties real real soon...

But well, after such a eventful and self-realising age of 23, there are lots of things to have them done, and there are lots of things to make them RIGHT. Afterall, I felt I had somehow wasted my early youth away, most notably in my studies, and of course, many other stuffs.

At the age of 24 and in the year 2010, I really wanna change all these things around and create a real revolution in my life this time round.

The journey back home

2010-01-28T23:14:00.003+08:00

It's been donkey months since I last took a bus ride of service 151 from the Hougang Central direction back home to Toa Payoh. At last, I managed to take this ride after attending a district planning meeting at Lawrence's house tonight. Well for your information, I had always been a commuter of this particular bus service from my poly days, via NS, even until now since I started my work at NUS Prince George's Park. Perhaps, I might continue to take the very same ride home if I eventually go to SIM to pursue my degree in the very very near future.

Through this particular journey back home, those recent years memories just came to my mind. As the bus drove past SCDF HQ, I remembered those scenes of my NS days. Those days as doing overnight duty as ADO, those memorable rides of taking 151 with fellow NSPD mates, those lunch napping sessions in the Microfilm room and those la-kopi sessions at teabreaks.

The surroundings around the HQ had somehow changed a little. The other fact was, there were many changes in my life too since ORD.

Change in terms of my daily routine...
Change in terms of my direction...
Change in terms of my future plans...
Change in terms of my self-realisation...
Change in terms of my circle of friends... New friends might have have entered my life after NS, yet some friends have somehow disappeared from my life in the meantime.

I should have made my future plans well during NS. I failed to do soo. I could have made my self-realisation earlier rather than slightly later.

But I hope it's not too late now though.

Singapore, 1st World Country; 3rd World in terms of Sports Telecast ???

2010-01-25T23:54:00.002+08:00

I was only about 4 months old when the 1986 World Cup was held in Mexico. Back then, the very-then SBC (Now Mediacorp) showed almost all the matches I guessed, including the one featuring the "hands of god" and "the best goal in history" by Diego Maradona.

When I was only 4 and started my first pre-school year, 1990 World Cup was held in Italy when the whole world saw Paul Gascoigne in tears during the classic semi-final rivalry between England and West Germany. I believed my father did catch some matches on Free-to-air SBC.

When I was only primary 2, I remembered I was awaken up by my father as he was catching the final between Brazil and Italy in the morning on the very same free-to-air channel. Unfortunately, one of my favourite hero cum fellow SGI member, Roberto Baggio, missed the spot-kick which gave the Brazilians their 4th trophy despite being the best player in the tournament.

When I was primary 6 and it was PSLE year, it was the last time the World Cup was shown exclusively on the very same free-to-air channel. It was one of the best world cup which featured 32 teams for the first time, as well as Beckham's sending off and Zidane's double headers in the final.

When I was in Sec 4 and preparing for my O-Levels, it was the first time I was unable to watch all the matches on TV as I did not subscribe to Cable TV yet. However, I did manage to catch quite a couple of them on the neighbouring free-to-air channel as well as Channel 5's offering all matches from the Quarter finals round onwards.

When I was in Poly year 3 and doing my attachment at Micron, it was the first time I subscribed the World Cup TV coverage on the then one and only Starhub Cable TV. I did manage to wake up in the early hours and caught the matches. I remembered once I hardly got some sleep as my poly lads came to my house and stayed overnight to watch all the actions on TV while I had to report to work attachment the very next day. I was able to stay awake during my working hours though.

Now... 2010 World Cup is fast approaching in South Africa and yet me and fellow die-hard football fans in Singapore are wondering whether are we able to watch all these once-every-4-years action or not. Many of our neighbouring countries like Thailand, Indonesia, Vietnam and China will be going to screen all these matches to their citizens LIVE on their free-to-air TV stations.

How about us ??? Worrying about not able to watch football this June just because our very two dearest telco cum pay TV companies are unable to meet the telecast pricing demands requested by FIFA ??? No thanks to the unhealthy "bidding wars" between these two companies for the EPL rights from next season onwards, making others think that, "You are able to fork out such amount for English football, therefore you can also fork out that amount for this biggest football event in the world."

And yes, this season's English Premier League might be the last season I will be watching on TV.

One simple wish of mine is to be able to watch FIFA World Cup comfortably at home this coming June and early July before I officially start my full-time studies.

That's so simple.

Upset

2010-01-21T09:41:00.002+08:00

I don't mean to write my complaint of my life...

And I don't wish to write such unhappiness at the beginning of the year.

But at the end of the day, I do feel sour and feeling left out when my family's not being invited to one of my cousin's birthday celebrations. That honestly speaks of my family ties with my extended family.

Back to the days from toddler to pre-school, I enjoyed my best early childhood with these maternal cousins. But that slowly went downhill, especially after my dear mum got seriously sick when I was at a preschool age of 5ive. I am not here to blame my mum, but it's a fact. Family relationships just dwindle and we only met once a year..............................during Chinese New Year.

Yes, I don't have the best of my family life where the rest of my peers have after the age of 5, while I suffer numerous setbacks from my studies to my love life. And seriously as I grow up, I envy the family bond as shown in Moonlight Resonance. (家好月圆)

Now, I have another reason why I definitely must show actual proofs by achieving my desired resolutions in 2010.

爱不单行

2010-01-16T12:28:00.006+08:00

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人懂怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定在一起的那个人
很多人都像我一个人过生活

爱只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也(没)被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可输的吗?
为何我还相信它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到爱情那个枷锁

爱只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也(没)被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可输的吗?
为何我还相信它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信它

Year of Tiger for Tigers (Not the one with the word 'Woods' behind.)

2010-01-12T22:37:00.002+08:00

Extracted from the email sent by WK...Year of Tiger for the tigers !

The Tiger Magnetic, passionate and grand! When the Tiger does anything, it's noticed! Indecisiveness and stubbornness can mar the sparkle of the Tiger personality. On the one hand generous, on the other hand a little mean, it's sometimes hard to know where one stands with the Tiger. Flexible, honest and truly entertaining, one has a friend for life with a Tiger.

Forecast for 2010:

Being the Tiger's own year, 2010 holds great promise for those born under this sign, with exciting developments happening for them both personally and professionally. Some Tigers may be feeling disappointed and disheartened after 2009 and it will be important to leave the past behind and concentrate on the future, which is looking so bright! Financially, everything improves this year for those born under this sign and money-making thoughts and ideas should be fully explored and investigated. With the fast pace of this year for all signs, the Tiger needs to take extra care in planning and thinking all projects through - no rushing headlong into schemes during 2010! Tigers looking for romance will possibly see a friendship suddenly develop into something more personal with exciting consequences. August, December and January will see a very active and entertaining social calendar, but all of 2010 will see fun activities for the Tiger. The Spring months, March to May, will bring encouraging and interesting job opportunities, but the Tiger will still have to make sure he puts himself forward and gets noticed at work.

Interesting Tiger Facts

Zodiac Stone: Sapphire
Special Flower: Violet
Best Hours: 3-5 am
Season: Winter
Horoscope
Colors: Green, Blue, Yellow

The very first post of the new decade

2010-01-01T13:51:00.002+08:00

Hello 2010!

Happy birthday to this blog ! You are a 2 year old kid now...

It's been a good start to the new year after going for New Year Prayer meeting at Senja Soka Centre this morning. Like what I have mentioned previously, I am out to create victories in my life and create happiness in the new decade to come. Of course, words are easier to say than done and I must really create absolute positive results and making wonders in my life.

There's many more resolutions to come for this year than before. However I shall mention some of them now, while few of them I shall keep them undisclosed.

- Study hard and create excellent results in my studies (Be it whether my ground will be at NIE or SIM-RMIT)

Yesh... These shall be my no.1 priority of the year. The past decade had seen myself underachieving soo much that I only realise how much time I have wasted and how many possibilities of "What-if" could have been. This time round, I must redeem myself and be the best student in my next level of higher education learning.

- Continue to contribute in Soka activities, get more members to go for activities and perform well in SYM and play my volunteering part well in YOG.

- Get a driving license in 2010

- Gain my weight to 75kg

- Improve my vocal in singing

- Improve my skin-complexion, improve my hair growth

- More personal self-grooming

- More character-building, do my human revolution

- Create more values in my working life (Before I start school) and garner more working experiences and have good working relationships with colleagues

- To prolong current friendships that I have and creating more closer and understanding friendships

- To create a better family life

- To make more good friends in 2010 !

Yes, the quest of creating absolute victories in 2010 has started...

Review 2009: Part II

2009-12-31T01:01:00.011+08:00

"说一声加油一切更美好, 所有的悲伤请往边靠...曾经流过的泪湿了伤口就让阳光晒干而褪...这一种加油人人都需要, 手牵手我们一起赛跑, 说好不见不散每分每秒守候你到老..."

"给我力量陪我闯荡也许我们都不讲, 把爱留在我的心上超越了太多梦想...时光匆忙不曾遗忘,随时可以回头看那些时光你在身旁给我的温暖..."

Dear Blog once again,

While there were serious setbacks that left me to ponder and made my reflections this year, there are indeed some positive highlights that drive me to move on further, and build on further in the very new year.

And yeah, this shall be the 150th post and the very last post I have written for 2009.

Afterall, this post is dedicated to all the resolutions that I have indeed achieved, and of course to the friends who's been there to give me some lights of hope, some encouragements, some useful life advices and some positive highlights that motivate me to strive on and build on for the future.

I may not have hit 70kg as I suggested and it was really pretty close, I gave myself a very bold challenge by taking part in the Standard Chartered Marathon this year and yes, it's a full marathon. Through those gruelling 6.5 hours, I managed to complete the route which I had never expected myself to complete. At the end of the day, a sense of achievement was there.

And still, I continue to hit the gym even though the number of times may be lesser this year and I am no longer a member of California Fitness.

After those first 2.5 months of searching and challenging through my prayers, I managed to land a finance-related job at one of the hostels at NUS. It was quite a good fortune as it was a normal office-hour weekday job that enabled me to go out for Gakkai activities and of course, expanding my social circle in the working environment.

It was indeed a good fortune to know these perm colleagues as well as the temp colleagues of mine and although I might see the darkest times of my life during my working life, I do enjoy working along with them. But well, forgive me if I did being emo in those initial days and of course, there's alot of human revolution for me to do and create more values in this working life.

Words might be cheap, and I must really pray as well as taking the necessary actions for the best things to happen !

Besides my dear colleagues, the bond with ITACSD continue to grow stronger, same goes to fellow comrades from Sengkang Zone. I am truly grateful that fellow comrades like to name a few... KD, Weijian, Stella and Benjamin are there not only to give encouragements and supports with each other, but also sharing those times of crapz and joys lol. While there were farewells from Shihan(Now he's back...) and Jocelyn for their overseas studies, friendships never died down with the efforts to make long distance contacts over the past months.

Faith-wise, I chant very harder for the wisdom, actions and good fortune to attain victories in my life as well as for prayers to be answered like what I am currently doing now. Despite my somehow poor life condition in many months of the year, I continue to go for SSA activities and contribute for notably both ITAC-SD and Sengkang Zone. And yes, I can't wait to go back to Hougang to contribute my efforts for the revived Discussion meetings starting next month. It's been such a long time exile for district meetings due to the outbreak of H1N1 in the year.

And of course, I managed to get-to-know a few Japanese friends through the Student Division-SUJ exchange early this year, I shall send my regards to them once again since it's been months that I last contacted them via email. Meanwhile, the group C5 of NDP 2008 continued to have gatherings like the very recent Christmas. Thanks Lina and WK for making the efforts to keep the friendships made during NDP 2008 going !

Speaking of my polymates, I did mention before that for the entire 2008, I hardly seen them. But this time round, I was able to do quite a number of catch-ups with them. And of course, the drinking drinking nite at Ziliang's wedding.

Worth to mention that I do appreciate the friendships with some of the NS mates even though it's been a year since ORD. They are nice lads whom you can share many of the things with and they are willing to lend their listening ears. And of course, Samm, one of the close friends from those BRTC days. Though he's gone to US to pursue his studies on his beloved cooking, he's one of the few guys who's direct enough to point out my flaws and gives out necessary means of advices in order for me to grow, to breakthrough and to be more AWESOME.

Meanwhile, there are few Secondary School guys whom I still in contact with. At least we's been taking initiatives to catch-up with each others and showing support through online, though it's been such a long time since we manage to meet up.

Despite some major setbacks that struck me in this very past year, these friendships played an important role in my life this year. In the new year to come, let's prolong all these friendships and led them to greater understandings and greater bonds; It's always been a part of my resolutions every year that I must keep good friendships to their very best. Of course, in our each and every daily life, let's strive on ahead and produce individual victories in our own lives. We definitely will have our each individual victory report to share at the end of the year.(Just to let you all know I am also going to meet ex colleagues who were also attachment students during my industrial attachment at Micron almost 4 years ago. It was surprising but I am very grateful that few of them have initiated it and I am looking forward to make alot of catch-ups with them.)

Besides friendships and work and my personal fitness, I also been saving as much money as I can in order to save for the future, especially for my school life starting in somewhere middle of next year. With a stable income at the current moment, I ought to save as much as I can. And well, there's other things which I try to do for this year but little efforts were made... Such as taking care of my SSA members and arranging more homevisits, as well as learning driving. In the new year, I definitely must keep myself occupied and create more values!

And yes, there are SSA Youth Musical(SYM) and ambassador role for the Youth Olympics Games to look forward to... and of course, school.

Bye Bye 2009 ! Hello 2010 !

Review 2009: Part I

2009-12-29T11:35:00.005+08:00

"放手说真的不难...心碎, 该怎么计算?"

Dear Blog,

I know I had been retelling my story, my unhappiness for at least 6 months or soo. But this shall be the very last time that I have to recall my troubles since it's at the very end of 2009 and it's a time that I make a self-reflection and move on from here.

Right from the beginning of the year, I felt I was at the very best with the closest clique of Sec Sch friends; Friendships had prolonged and becoming closer especially during the NS days... and I did remember how I blogged and felt blessed about it almost exactly one year ago. (http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2008/12/2nd-last-day-of-year.html)

Yes, back then friendships with them were at the very best, and eventually some few of us went Hong Kong together at my very birthday month. This was the very first time going such an further overseas trip with friends besides going to Malaysia. While these 10 years of friendships were such in good terms, feelings started to grow for one of them in the group. At this point of time, I don't wish to mention any names. She might hate me more than she is now.

Ok... Perhaps afterall, we were at two different class of life, but I did regard her as a good friend in my social circle. I could still remember it was on the burning weekend of mass check-in at PGP during May, that she shared her problems and unhappiness over something she had encountered, and I tried my utmost best to encounter her and showed her my support, even though at that point of time, I might have limited words to cheer her up. Other than that particular incident, we had been chatting over online, catching up with each other even though we did not meet up for those few months since the HK trip.

However, things were not meant to be when I was having my troubles in my studies. I shall not elaborate what happened in my studies life as for now (I will mention it later.) but that's the point of time, that my emotions started to boil and I started to hate myself and feeling regret for being underachieving in my studies over the years. I began to feel inferior and getting myself out of place from this group of friends, and that's the bloody devilish function that told me that I need more concern from this female friend of mine.

In some occasions, I felt that I was being neglected by this closest clique of mine; It just seemed that's not much for me to share with them, and that's not much for them to talk to me. I started to feel that friendships started to feel distant apart, especially hers. I started to think "why we are not hanging out much often like we do after the trip?"... Afterall, we were quite KTV kakis during those heydays in 2008. Sorry, I just really can't control my emotions and feelings and yes, that's no need a particular reason for you to fall in love with someone. I was totally wrong, totally wrong.

Those wrongs eventually evolved when I decided to email her and spoke of my feelings in the online letter. Yes, I should have appreciated the things she replied to me... But I did not. Afterall, my deadly thinking was that: "I know I not gonna to be with you, but I want to be your best friend, a platonic best male friend."

I failed to take things easily. Eventually, there were times that it seemed I "confronted" her rather than having a good chat online. Those very few times really pissed her off, and I tried to engage a dialogue with her via phone. She declined it and claimed that she had made it clear. Well, afterwhich I decided to let things cooled down but things continued to deteriorate no thanks to my wrong moves in handling this situation.

Why do I say they are wrong moves? Well, at the boiling point of my troubles, I had mentioned and shared this particular problem with few friends in the clique, but the thing was... It seems I had mentioned the wrong things to the wrong people. In an indirect way, I had further pissed her more as she was getting distracted and annoyed by this self-inflicted karma of mine.

The worst thing came when someone from the very same school and yet not close to us, uttering nonsense on her facebook profile. Yes, just a few sentence of words were deadly enough for me to be ostracized from her cyberworld. I admitted that I felt like dying when such deadly scenes occurred.

While the storm and the cold war after that continued to resume for the very 2nd half of the year, my relationships with other fellow peeps of the group just went on and deteriorate and drifted apart, due to all these issues. Perhaps, even though we were friends for such a long time, the fact was that there were little understandings in these friendships and while I did carry much hopes in rebuilding friendships at the very end of the year, the word "Rebuilding" failed to materialise as once again, I felt I was getting out of place and getting left out in the cold. Though physically I was there, but I was just a face in the group. A face where no one really wanna knows and catches up more.

Looking back in this last year of the decade, my inner devilish weakness had came back to haunt me, soo much soo that there were too much destructions in friendships. Sometimes I really hate myself for not doing much human revolution, but what's the point of feeling soo much regrets and thinking of soo many possibilities of "What-ifs" when things had already happened ???

I really learned alot through this lesson and once again, I must say...

I definitely don't want such shitty things to happen again and I must strive on and fight for my happiness, my personal victories.

Dear friends, you might feel pissed once again if you all happen to read all this. But this was one of the biggest lessons which I had learned this year and after this, I definitely not want to mention it over and over again. Surely, I am moving on like what I am started doing now, and I will learn to be more optimistic and less emotional like I used to be. I won't expect how's our friendships will be like in the future; If there's enough good fortune and if there's fate, we definitely will be open to meet up and share our life stories in the future. And one last sentence...

Enjoy the Bangkok trip next year. I knew I might not be able to join you all.

Speaking of my studies path this year, it was a matter of self-realisation. Right at the start, I thought I could give myself another chance in pursuing ACCA, but I was wrong. With the very fact that I felt soo many regrets in my education path at a damn age of 23 and soo many never ending implications of "What-ifs" in mind. Probably, I could have made the best decision straight after my poly years and not felt soo wasted over my 2 years of NS where the luxury of doing part-time studies became such a waste of time and money.

Certainly, 2010 is the year when I must make my redemption in my studies, be it whether my path will be at SIM or NIE. I had enough of my wasted years and all these underachievements must be part of the motivations that spur me into achieving the greatness this time round.

I know this post of review is too long winded but all these unhappiness that occurred must be the reminders for the future. Histories must not be repeated over and over again while there's a long path of life for me to move on, and strive on, and win on.

Top 10: Movies and TV Dramas of 2009

2009-12-28T21:55:00.006+08:00

The last installment of my top 10 series, while I am not really a movie-lover, Hong Kong TVB dramas dominated the entire drama list.

Movies

5) Star Trek

Surprise entry to my list. While I am more towards the franchise of Star Wars, the latest movie of the Star Trek franchise which seemed like a remake, had a good storyline plot with exciting and dynamic fighting scenes.

4) Red Cliff Part 2 (赤壁2)

The 2nd part of the movie which hit the screens in the early months of the year. It was where the main battle of Red Cliff took place... The movie which had the all star cast of Takeshi Kaneshiro, Tony Leung and Lin-Chiling never disappoint us though.

3) X-Men Origins: Wolverine

The prequel which told the story of Wolverine. It was one of the must-watch shows besides Transformers.

2) (500) Days of Summer

Another surprise entry in my list... I went to catch this movie with fellow ITAC peeps after our Friday's TGIF session. It told the story about a guy's relationship with a girl named Summer, the process of being together, getting hurt after the break, getting the disappointments after the girl had engaged and then the process of moving on. It was quite a meaningful show for guys like me.

1) Transformers 2: Revenge of the fallen

The movie of the year... What's more can I say?

Television Dramas: A year of watching too many TVB dramas...

5) Heart of Greed (溏心风暴）

The show had 2 reruns in Singapore on Channel 55 and Channel 8 respectively and still, it was worth a mention in the list. The no.1 drama in Hong Kong in 2007 while its sequel was the top in 2008...

4) Your class or mine (尖子攻略）

A drama about a youth football club trying to reach the top football division in Hong Kong while their best players vying to work hard and score for their O-Levels equivalent. While its theme was football, it reflected alot about the importance of education, something I had self-realised alot for the year. Worth to mention that this 2008 production's featuring Sheren Tang(邓萃雯), the best actress in the HK television industry for this year.

3) A journey called life (金石良缘)

A very meaningful drama, and it's one of the factors which inspired me to take part in a marathon at the very end of the year. It's about not giving up hopes in life despite how much adversities and unhappiness we may encounter.

2) E.U. (学警狙擊）

The only 2009's drama that's on my list (Too bad, I seldom rent the latest TVB dramas.)

While it's the 3rd installment of the police series (Previous being The Academy(学警雄心) and On the first beat(学警出更)), the show brought a certain Laughing Gor to fame. Michael Tse(谢天华), whose was first known as a sidekick in the Gu Wah Zai series, finally got his name after some long years as a supporting actor, even though Laughing Gor was a supporting role. In fact, through the show, Laughing Gor made too many sacrifices, especially his youthful years, to become an undercover for the police to nab the triad.

Will you dare to make such sacrifices in order to do something good ?

1) Moonlight Resonance (溏心风暴之家好月园)

Yesh... I am late but it's definitely the best show I had watched this year. The sequel to Heart of Greed though it had a much different storyline with the same cast. It told a story how a mother who was dumped by her husband some 12 years ago, managed to bring united together her children and won her husband back through her sincerity and actions, while the villianess who was the 3rd party to the marriage, tried her scheming ways to break the family up.

Worth to mention that the sub-theme song for the show, sang by Raymond Lam, was in my top 10 list for the songs of the year.

PS: There were many solid shows in Hong Kong in 2009, most notably Rosy Business(巾幗梟雄) and Beyond The Realm of Conscience(宮心計), too bad I never took time to watch. I shall catch them in the new year to come.

Top 10: Songs of 2009

2009-12-26T14:53:00.002+08:00

Once again, it's been another good year of learning, listening and singing some great new songs. Meanwhile, it's also a year of touching more into Cantopop. Here's my top 10 of the year...

10) 辛福不灭(Happiness not destroyed) by 罗志祥(Show Luo)

Worth a mention about this song. One of the sub-theme songs for 2008's Taiwanese basketball drama "Hotshot"(篮球火). As the words in the song suggested, it's about loving someone and wishing her happiness despite she's with someone else. Quite a meaningful song with great melody. Love is about giving and wishing the person's happiness, despite not the one for her.

"Cause I believe那幸福不灭的定律, 你的手心不一定要由我握紧; 就像恒星总会有发光的原因... Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜, 也值得我放弃..."

9) 别怪她(Don't blame her) by 吴卓羲(Ron Ng)

It's a old song, especially when it's the sub song for 2005's TVB blockbuster "Revolving Doors of Vengeance" (酒店风云). I fall for this song once again when the drama started its rerun once again. (And it's on rerun once more at this hour on Channel 55), It's always the song besides the oldies "一生不变" for the pair in the serial, acted by Ron Ng and one of my favourite HK actress, Ella Koon(官恩娜).

8) 如果我便成回忆(When I become a memory) by Tank

Tank is back with this nice song... This year was the year when I had became a memory in some people's hearts...... but I shall gonna create more memories with the rest of the friends in the new year to come and beyond...

7) 失落沙洲(Missing desert) by 徐佳莹(Lala Hsu)

Part of the chorus was posted here not too long ago... Marvellous vocal by Lala Hsu while it seems hard to sing on KTV. Another song which accompanied my time in these closing months of the year.

6) 爱不疚(Love with no regrets) by 林峰(Raymond Lam)

Sub theme song for TVB's blockbuster "Moonlight Resonance"(家好月圆); It's another song about letting go.

"这种恋爱太罕有, 不须真正拥有...成全衷心祝福然后就放手..."

5) 带我走(Take me away) by 杨丞琳(Rainie Yang)

It's the best ever song soo far by Rainie Yang... I love the lyrics too.

4) 寂寞，好了(Loneliness, is cured) by 蔡旻佑(Evan Yo)

From Evan Yo's 3rd album, it's another song which best described things that happened this year, I definitely wanna move on.

"一个人你害怕吗细数过漫天星光说好永远不分开多假多假......多假让记忆长出翅膀飞翔, 心放空了, 寂寞好了..."

3) 搞笑(Funny) by Alan Luo

A song best known for its number of kissing scene in its Music Video between Alan Luo and Alice Tzeng (曾恺玹). It's been a good song with its MV plot... Once more, the song somehow speaks of my love life until now.

"我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳; 边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好; 当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了; 还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麽熬; 这麽多年早就习惯有你的撒娇我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道你好不好..."

2) 妥协(Compromise) by 蔡依林(Jolin Tsai)

After Pretence(假装) in 2006 and One person(一个人) in 2007, my no.1 female artiste came back with a new album and a latest sobby love song this year. And yes, history's been repeating and I am really tired.

"爱到妥协, 到头来还是无解...绑着你不让你飞, 历史不断重演我好累..."

1) 爱在记忆中找你(Love in the memory searching for you) by Raymond Lam

My review has stated in the previous post for the top 10 songs for the decade(http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2009/12/top-10-my-favourite-songs-of-decade.html), it's definitely my song of the year, especially after the things that has struck an impact in the life. Meanwhile, I can share that I did perform this song during the cultural night for ITAC institution meeting.

"前事最怕有人提起, 就算怎么伸尽手臂, 我们亦有一些距离..."

Top 10: My grown up christmas list

2009-12-24T14:36:00.005+08:00

Not in any particular order...

1) Redeem myself in my studies next year.

I definitely wanna do well with flying colours when I go back school in the 2nd half of the year, especially after such a decade of underachievements and disappointments.

2) Create friendships, Build friendships, (Continue to) Grow Friendships (and not lose friendships.)

3) Liverpool to win Europa League and FA Cup next year. AC Milan to win Champions League and Italian Serie A next year. England to win World Cup next year. (And to be able to enjoy watching World Cup next year.)

4) To catch F1 Singapore Grand Prix LIVE... And yes, Michael Schumacher will be here.

"I'll be back."

5) To have the opportunities to travel around... Be it Hong Kong, Bangkok or Taipei.

6) Financial Freedom !

7) Personal self-grooming... Get more nice clothings !

8) Be more opportunistic... Be more hardworking... Be more friendly... Take more initiatives...

9) World Peace & economics to become better and better... Family & friends to be happy and healthy.

10) The special one. (Alright, I definitely wanna overcome this vicious relationship karma of mine by polishing myself up.)

Top 10: Memorable football matches I had watched for the past decade

2009-12-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

The past decade produced many legends, as well as many up-and-coming superstars such as Messi, Cristiano Ronaldo and Kaka. Not to mention football matches in my viewing memories...

10) Singapore 1 Manchester United 8 (Friendly 2001)

Although a pre-Raddy Avramovic half-hearted Singapore team was humiliated totally and Manchester United was not my beloved team, it was worth a mention in the list as it was the first football match I had attended which featured a top European club. By the way, Liverpool also played a friendly here in the same summer yet its price was a little steep for a then Sec 3 student like me. The student price for the Man U match ticket back then was just S$10 (Excluding Sistic charge)... I can't remember who were the scorers for United back then but I knew Beckham and the major signing back then, Ruud Van Nistelrooy did enter the scoresheet. Meanwhile, we were in raptures as Indra Sahdan equalized for the Lions before they gobbled 7 more goals.

9) Juventus 3 Real Madrid 1 (UEFA Champions League 2002/03 Semi-Finals 2nd leg)

I hoped Real Madrid got knocked out and my wish got granted. Back then, the Spanish Giants had started building their very first batch of Galacticos with the likes of Zidane, Figo and the newly signed Ronaldo (Yeah...The fat one, not the current benglish one), as Florentino Perez planned for a massive European domination having won the European title the previous season. Real was leading 2-1 going into the 2nd leg match, but Trezeguet and Del Piero netted for the Turin side in the first half before Pavel Nedved finished them off with a wondering goal in the 2nd half. During the process, Buffon also stopped a spotkick from Figo while Nedved got a yellow card which ruled him out of the final. While Zidane did manage to pull one back against his former club, it was not enough as Juventus would set up a highly anticipating yet boring all-Italian final with AC Milan.

8) Singapore 0 Liverpool 5 (Friendly 2009)

It was the latest match in the list and do view this link for my review.

http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2009/07/youll-never-walk-alone.html

7) AC Milan 3 Manchester United 0 (UEFA Champions League 2006/07 Semi-Finals 2nd leg)

United got a narrow 3-2 in the 1st leg at Old Trafford. However, they were simply outplayed at San Siro in the very repeat of the 2004/05 clash. Goals from Kaka, Seedorf and Gilardino sealed the win and Milan would face Liverpool in the repeat of the 2005 classic. And yes, Milan will be facing United once again next year in the 2nd round clash.

Welcome back, Becks. And please help the Rosseneri to yet another win once again.

6) Germany 1 England 5 (2002 FIFA World Cup Qualifiers, 2001)

Disappointment as England failed to win a major trophy in the past decade, but this classic against their arch rivals was definitely their very best in the decade. The Germans took the lead at Munich, but England bounced back and wiped them off with a then young and fit Michael Owen's hattrick. It was also mentioned that the English scorers were from Liverpool. Stevie G and Heskey were also on the scoresheet. While Gerrard would go on to become the respectable and favourable captain of the Reds, a very injury-prone Owen would move from the Galacticos, to the Geordies, and then to the bitter rivals, Manchester United, and Heskey would move on to smaller clubs and yet played an important role to his teams.

Meanwhile, with this scoreline, England would qualify for the World Cup Finals in Asia automatically without facing yet another playoff round.

5) France 1 Italy 1 (Italy won 5-3 on penalties kick. -- 2006 FIFA World Cup Final)

It was not the best World Cup final... Yet it would always be remembered for Zidane's headbutt on Materazzi in his very last football match as a player.

Not really the hottest favourites for the title, yet the Italians went all the way to victory though they may be in some controversial circumstances, such as their 2nd round match against the Australians. Meanwhile, they did have a wonderful performance as they beat the German hosts by 2 g0als. With the reclaimed 4th world title, they brought smiles back to Italian football in a year where it was plagued by a match-fixing scandal.

4) Liverpool 1 AC Milan 2 (UEFA Champions League 2007 Final)

Once again, 2 of my beloved European teams faced off each other in the final at Athens. Filippo Inzaghi, a then 34 year old veteran striker -- offside king as some fans have named -- opportunist in terms of scoring goals -- a footballer who's a certified accountant, netted both for Milan and there's no comeback this time round for the Reds. Dirk Kuyt scored late in the game.

Meanwhile, I was proud that both teams were in the final once again. It won't be happen again this time though as Liverpool was out from the group stage.

3) Singapore 2 Indonesia 1 (ASEAN Football Championship Final 2nd leg)

Then known as Tiger Cup, I was at the National Stadium in a sea of red to witness the national team's first international title victory at home soil. The lions had captured a 3-1 win in Jakarta and hopes were getting high. Victory was sealed when Indra Sahdan and Agu Casmir netted in the first half, while the atmosphere was indeed marvellous.

Here, we had hardly see such a scene since the Lions pulled out from the neighbouring domestic competitions.

2) Manchester United 1 Liverpool 4 (English Premier League 2008/09 season)

It was indeed the sweetest victory against the bitter rivals. Though last season was the case of "winning the battle, yet lose the war."

Who will expect the Reds to beat United at Old Trafford, not 1 goal, 2 goal, but 4 goals ?

I do remember who were the scorers for Liverpool that night.

Torres...

Gerrard...

Even Aurelio and Dossena...

1) Liverpool 3 AC Milan 3 (Liverpool won 3-2 on penalties - UEFA Champions League 2004/05 Final)

It was indeed the most classic match in the history of European football. And of course, 2 of my beloved teams created such classic.

A match that inspired everyone not to give up but to believe that we can overcome any defying odds.

A match which I would view it on youtube now and then.

3-0 down in the 1st half. The Reds were in dejected mood on the pitch, while the fans continued to sing and believe...

In a space of about 8 minutes, Liverpool pulled 3 goals back from Gerrard, Smicer and Alonso... While defending well enough from the threats of Shenvchenko and Kaka. Dudek's imitation of Globelaar's act in 1984 final was well enough to seal a 3-2 victory on spot kicks.

The European trophy's finally back to Anfield after 21 long years.

Top 5: "What-If" moments of the decade

2009-12-23T11:41:00.005+08:00

5) What if I was given a Pes B status instead of Pes C during my pre-NS medical check up ?

Due to my skin condition, I was given a PES C status and enlisted into SCDF for my National Service.

Had I not declared my medical condition, would I be undergoing my BMT training at Pulau Tekong or Home Team Academy rather than BRTC @ Jalan Bahar ? Or if I were still under SCDF, would I have posted to ERS instead ? Would I have posted to NSPD, meeting some nice friends yet also meeting some losers who built their happiness on others' pains ? Would the birthday incident be prevented 2 years ago ? Would I have awaken from my physical weakness and strived hard to pass my IPPT and eventually promoted to a SGT rank ? Would I start gyming along the way ? Would I go to a vocation which had a office hour timing and allowed me to go for part-time studies ? Would I have made such a mistake of choices in terms of my studies ?

4) What if I have took A-Levels as a private candidate during my 2 years of NS ?

This question is related to pointer no. 5. As my poly GPA score really sucks, I could only be eligible for private degree studies in Singapore. But what if I had given myself more options to myself when I learned that I was able to go for night classes during NS? What if I have took up a bold challenge by taking A-Levels subjects in order to get myself into local universities such as NUS, NTU or SMU ? Something I have never attempted before ?

Had I strive extremely hard and attempted A-Levels, would I have achieved good results that were good enough for me to enter a desired course in the local universities ? Would I be studying at NUS now rather than working at NUS now ? Would I be sharing the same hall room with one of my best poly friends, Choon Yan at NTU and enjoying the best school life over there ? Would I be feeling regretful about my studies this year, soo much soo that my emotions had taken over me and caused some 10 year friendships to an end ?

3) What if I could have done my human revolution in terms of handling my emotions of liking someone?

For the past ten years, I had only one-sided relationships, while many of these had ended up in a sorry state. Part of the reasons attributed to my control of feelings, where I could not handle my feelings and being over sensitive when it came to my love life. Unfortunately, history repeated once again this year.

If I could have been myself, would I still be in good friendships terms with these female friends over these years? Would this friend of mine be my KTV kakis at this hour? Would my friendships with this Secondary School clique still in as least talking terms or even better? Would I have been achieving bigger things in my life, such as studies? Would I have finally found that special one ?

2) What if I did not take up faith in 2003 and take part in SSA activities ?

This year was my 6th year practising Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism and my 5th year since enshrining the Gohonzon. Despite there were unhappy things around, I did manage to improve myself bit by bit through practising as well as getting to know many friends along the way. And yes... There were good fortunes flowing in my life since taking up faith.

Indeed, Taking up faith and getting myself involved in Soka activities did change my life. Had I not practising Buddhism and starting chanting for my happiness and victories, would I have push myself forward rather than staying in pessimism, especially what had happened in this year? Would I have made my self-realisation on my studies and in fact my life? Would I be more open up and taking initiatives to widen my social circle? Would I have get to know and forge friendships with fellow Gakkai comrades from Hougang Zone to Sengkang Zone, from NPSD to ITACSD? Would I have taken part in 3 National Day Parades, contributing to the national celebration of the country and widen my social circle ? Would I have taken up volunteering role for the Youth Olympics next year with SSA?

The list of questions just go on...

These memories in recent years... Would I have them if I did not take up faith at the 1st place?

1) What if I had gone more mature, study harder and do much better in my O-Levels ?

Like the 2nd point, the implications of this are never-ending. If I could have grown up and think of my future carefully rather than putting myself more focus in some one-sided relationship, would I had scored better in my prelims and spent my first 3 months in a junior college rather than working some part-time retail jobs during that period? Would I have gone to a junior college and enlisted into NS earlier than before in 2005? Or would I have gone to a polytechnic but taking a better course which I truly loved? Would I have got to know my polymates in this lifetime? Would I have found the right person in a JC or a better course in polytechnic? Would I have achieved greater results in A-Levels or in polytechnic en route to a local university? Would these Secondary School friends think more highly of me? Would I still take up faith in the years after taking O-Levels?

Top 10: My favourite songs of the decade (2000 - 2009)

2009-12-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

As we welcome the next decade, here's my list of my yearly favourite songs of the first decade of the new millennium.

2000 - This I promise you by *N-Sync

The very heydays of the boyband era, in a time when I tend to listen to english pop more than chinese pop... And this song will always be one of my wedding songs.

2001 - All or Nothing by O-Town

Remember this reality TV programme "Making the band" ? This boyband emerged from this show but unfortunately, All or Nothing was being their one hit wonder. O-Town disbanded after their 2nd album in 2003, however this one particular hit did play on my mp3 player at times.

2002 - 安静(Silence) by 周杰伦(Jay Chou)

From the early days of this talented and versatile Asian superstar's career, it was at the time that I started to listen to chinese music, thanks to him. While it was that year that I started to listen many of his songs, this particular KTV chart topper was the most favourite among his songs back then.

2003 - 只有我(Only me) by Energy

It was my darkest year of the decade and this song truly accompanied my life. Even until now when I had new fresh of struggles, this song is one song which I will hit on my player. By the way, this particular song was one of the last for a 5-member Energy. Toro left the band the very same year.

2004 - May I love you by 张智成(Z Chen)

Typical chart-topper in KTVs... This song had always somehow related to my feelings, my life.

"Love you love you... May I love you, tell me what to do?"

2005 - 枫(Maple) by Jay Chou

Its MV was the first part of a storyline. (The second part of the story was the MV of 刘耕宏's 彩虹天堂) Another one in the KTV picklist back then when I started go singing more often...

2006 - 北极星的眼泪(Tears of the polaris) by 张栋梁(Nicholas Teo)

One of the all-time hits in my charts... Another song which accompanied my later days in a somehow-disappointing 2006. Well, this song well suited to the current friendship issues I have now.

"明天或许来不及变, 但曾经走过的昨天越来越远... 北极星的眼泪说不出的想念, 原来我们活在两个世界..."

2007 - 一个人(One person) by 蔡依林(Jolin Tsai)

One good hit by Jolin Tsai, while there are quite a number of nice songs such as Mistakes after mistakes（错了再错）, I don't know how to sing(我不会唱歌) and I am not compatible(我不配) by Nicholas Teo, Show Luo Zhi Xiang and Jay Chou respectively...

2008 - 小丑鱼(Little clown fish) by 罗志祥(Show Luo)

This was a old song considering it was being released in 2004 rather than 2008, yet it's another song that spells my times in the pursue of love. This song portraits the struggles of a guy when he's trying to hold on his feelings for a girl, while continuing to build the friendships.

"lady lady one more try, 再试着了解我的爱...发不出声音的感慨, 选择做朋友的无奈..."

2009 - 爱在记忆中找你(Love in the memory searching for you) by 林峰(Raymond Lam)

Yes...another outdated song considering it was released in 2007 as the sub theme song of TVB drama's The drive of life(岁月风云), it was the only cantonese song in the top 10 list. While because of this song that I started to listen more from Raymond Lam as well as other Hong Kong artistes, it definitely portraits yet another relationship/friendship struggles in my life this year. Of course, this issue was the biggest mistakes I had learnt this year... Something which things will never be the same again.

"前事最怕有人提起, 就算怎么伸尽手臂, 我们亦有一些距离..."

The first week without them

2009-12-13T10:28:00.002+08:00

Moving on is a process that is easier to be said than done. It is even harder when the ones whom you had fallen out with were the closest friends of all. Nevertheless, I gotta be less emo and looking forward to more things in my life. Afterall, emotions played a huge factor that resulted in those silly damages in these long friendships.

What is meant to be, it will mean to be. Everything happens for a reason.

I completed my first marathon in my lifetime in 6.5 hours. It's a kind of self-achievement and kinda surprise to complete it as there's not much trainings leading to the marathon. Definitely, I will rally more people in joining me for marathons, be it Standard Chartered or Adidas Sundown.

Work's been fulfilling, challenging and great after the start of the mass-checkout period. All along, I have great company with my fellow colleagues, plus the return of the few temp staffs. However, I have been making silly mistakes in my work these days and need to more organize in my workload as always. Well, I definitely wanna create values at PGP before I resume my studies next year.

I started to exert myself into gakkai activities even more this week. I went for Lynette's dad's funeral last Tuesday. Upon hearing her dad's testimonial on how he struggled and fought his illness bravely in his lifetime, I realised that comparing to his fight against his illness, my problems is absolutely nothing! Went for TGIF meeting with ITAC last Friday, i have been missing the TGIF meetings though. We engaged in a dialogue for an interesting topic, as well as making plans of outings in the near future. Meanwhile, yesterday I went for my first training for the Soka Youth Musical. Although my role was just a minor role carrying the sedan chair for Toda Sensei, I feel proud to be part of the cast. Of course, a minor role also plays an important part in the musical.

Finally, I managed to catch with few of my pri sch mates, Qiaolin and Chuanxiong, for a KTV session over the weekdays. Although there were only 3 of us, it was quite a enjoyable session, although my singing form on that day really sucks. I wish there are more of us coming for such simple gatherings in the future. During the KTV session, I was being informed via phone with regards to the first Youth Olympics volunteers briefing for SSA members. I am really looking forward to be volunteering at the inaugural YOG, contributing to the hostings by the nation as well as meeting people from fellow volunteers to the young athletes throughout the world. My temp colleagues are joining YOG with their schools too.

I arranged for a dinner with Choonyan and Waihong after my SYM training. Along the way while waiting for the guys, I bumped into the poly girls, Dejun, SK, Zhilan and Linda, and decided to have the dinner together. It was quite value for money to have the steamboat session at Crystal Jade at Plaza Singapura, while it's been quite a good catch-up as it's been quite some time since I last saw the girls.

I have been listening to 失落沙洲 by 徐佳莹. This song, like other recent songs that I have been hearing, somehow explains my present feelings and present situation.

"我不是一定要你回来, 只是当又一个人看海; 回头才发现你不在, 留下我迂回的徘徊; 不是一定要你回来, 只是当又把回忆翻开; 除了你之外的空白, 还有谁能来教我爱..."

2009...A hardest lesson learnt.

2009-12-08T09:28:00.002+08:00

I should have been mentally prepared that they will lambast back on me the moment I broke my personal feelings out to them.

I should have been mentally prepared that they will definitely ostracized me the moment I broke my personal feelings out to them.

At the start, it was all my fault... for not controlling my emotions and for being over-sensitive once again.

And now... 6 months had gone and when there's not enough understandings between me and them, it's time to move on.

Moving on is something which is easier said than done. Furthermore, the more these people are closer to me, the harder the process of moving on will take. But up to this point, I am desperate, desperate need to.

2009 is not really a bad year though, yet there's a hardest lesson learnt. I have enough of myself commiting mistakes in friendships over and over again. Right now, I need a completely new life, something that I must work on. I will like to establish close and strong friendships with other present friends and any other new friends which I may meet in the next phase of my life, and I must NEVER commit the same mistakes again.

Kieran Chia Yiheng, you must overcome all these karma ONCE and for all, please do your human revolution each day, push harder to achieve your goals (especially your studies) and show ACTUAL PROOF to those who have doubted and misunderstand you !!!

There's no point for me to be emotional anymore.

Does that spell the end of a decade ?

2009-12-05T14:38:00.003+08:00

I wish I do not expect things to turn better.

At the end of the day, there's nothing for me to talk about, there's nothing for me to share about. Despite the fact that how much I had overcome in my life for the past half year, how much plans I have to move forward ahead in the new year...

I am just feeling more and more out of place in this clique. They just failed to seek any further understandings from me perhaps. The distances of friendships just had already been drifted apart continue to stay stagnant and perhaps continue to go wide apart. I am just a face in the group perhaps.

Dear friends of 10 years, I am not complaining. I guess... I fail to overcome myself in front of you all. When things don't turn out what I expect, what I hope for.... deep down I was disappointed. Perhaps I should be disappointed in myself, disappointed with the fact that my emotions had ruined some friendships that had gone on better and better in recent years.

And last evening once again, I had failed to break the ice with a friend whom I should have only thought of friendships and nothing else in the recent past.

Thanks for everything, especially those recent memories, those singing session, those manjong session, those makan session and the overseas trip not too long ago.

http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2008/12/2008thanks-for-memories.html

I don't know when will I ever see you all again. As for my decision to defer my studies to July, I will definitely make plans for myself and create values in life in the coming 1st half of the new year, besides continue to work at PGP to earn more income.

If I ever see you all again, will you all see the difference in me ? A new set of struggles may come ahead in my life, but I definitely wanna make a difference for myself, becoming a better person each day and attaining victories after victories in my life.

January 2010 or July 2010 ?

2009-11-27T17:17:00.004+08:00

I had received my enrollment offer into RMIT University - Business Management at SIM for the January 2010 intake. Yet currently, I was stucked in a dilemma of whether I should proceed to accept the offer or delaying my studies to the July 2010 intake instead. These days, certain factors have been surfaced which made me considering that I should delay my studies by 6 months instead. Here's the advantaging factors of both choices:

January 2010 Intake

The age factor

Next year I will be turning 24 and by the time I complete my 3 year studies, I will be going to be around 26-27.

Social life factor

Yes, it's true that I can't wait to make new classmates and establishing new friendships in my next level of higher education, especially after those self-inflicted conflicts with my some of Secondary School friends this year which I felt at this current moment, the future to these friendships still look soo bleak. While I do cherish my friendships with my fellow SSA comrades, NS mates, polymates and PGP colleagues, those memories of going KTV and playing manjong with these Secondary School friends had been a great loss.

July 2010 Intake

The Money and job factor

Though it could be a delay of 6 months, but that doesn't mean I will be doing nothing in the days coming ahead. I should be continuing to work at PGP to save up the money and lighten up the family's financial burden for my studies. Furthermore, I was only converted to a permanent staff starting from October and it may not be nice to leave the job in December though the reasons for leaving will be leaving for studies. It might seem to be a delay of 6 months but think this way:

Additional 6 months of fixed income + garnering more working experience

The NIE factor

Of course, I will be able to give myself another try into applying into NIE again. The mass intake for NIE will be in the earlier half of the year and furthermore, the next EPT test to meet the NIE requirements will only start from January onwards. This is another chance for me to take the test and get myself into NIE, another option for me other than taking a degree at SIM.

Other options of courses at SIM

Most of the courses in SIM will only be commercing in the July/August period. Under RMIT University, courses such as Marketing and Econs are only available for the July intake for non-business diploma students like me. What's more, UOL degrees only commerced in July every year. Though I have chose to take up Business Management with specialisation in Marketing, I might have the options to take up the fully Marketing one instead, which is cheaper and time-consuming according to the website.

Well, if you are a 23 year old male who has the wishes to take up a full-time degree, and in such a situation like me,

What will you choose ? January or July ?

It's November

2009-11-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

It's kind of recharging my batteries by going for a Halloween weekend at Genting.

Now it's time for me to charge myself forward more ahead... It's November and only 2 months left for this year.

Darran asked me whether have I improved this year, I told him I don't think I have improved. In fact, it's been a year of self-realisation, and that self-realisation comes too late. Though everyone said that it's not too late to know how much it has gone wrong my education path had been, I felt I should have realise all these at the age of 16, the crucial age of taking O-Levels, rather than at a maturing age of 23, when until now then I realise that I should have strived harder to undergo my higher education at a local university like NTU/NUS.

Yeah, this year's my regrets and emotions over my failed education path had affected soo much soo that it led me to destructions of some friendships, no thanks to my emotions and my inferiority.

2010's gonna be a struggle, financial struggles perhaps. But it has to be a year of redemption, where I fucking need to breakthrough and score victories in my studies this time round, as well as continuing to rebuild friendships... Friendships that should have been...

Time to push myself to chant at least 1 hour of fighting daimoku each day from this month onwards. I definitely must show actual proofs and achieve deserving happiness.

No Matter What

2009-10-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

I had started to listen Boyzone songs once again... Those days of teenage pop, those days of boyband era, had accompanied me through my (upper) Primary and Secondary school days.

Just like other then-popular boybands like Backstreet Boys, N-Sync and Westlife, Boyzone gave us quite a number of classic love songs, like "Love me for a reason", "Baby can I hope you", "No Matter What"...While the main vocal of the band, Ronan Keating, had curved out a much successful solo career after the initial split of the band, the boyband had been making a comeback and held much highly-successful comeback concerts in UK and Ireland since last year. Unfortunately, one of its members had passed away suddenly just yesterday.

Stephen Gately, though somehow a controversial figure due to his sexuality, was the 2nd main vocal of the band and with an amazing voice, despite not having a successful solo career just like Ronan. I was shocked to hear of the news of his death through Yahoo! News and once again, yet another celebrity had left the world this year.

Nevertheless, he and Boyzone had contributed a kind of pop culture in the 1990s and early 2000s, and their songs will always been remembered and be heard, just like the ones of MJ.

R.I.P Stephen Gately.

Announcement

2009-10-03T20:48:00.003+08:00

Well, I have created a 2nd blog and therefore, some of the recent posts have been moved as these are the posts that are related to the theme of the blog.

Note: This current blog will still be in use.

防盗锁

2009-09-30T22:10:00.001+08:00

说穿了不是什么大事情
说穿了不过自己去看电影
说穿了只是睡醒看不到你
你放心离去我不要紧

为什么莫名有种矛盾的情绪
给了你祝福又盼望你回心转意
他给的幸福你从笑容就能说明
我还凭什么关心怎么你不抗拒

感情没有防盗锁爱走不到尽头
不后悔付出过各自回家的路试着不再难过
变得成熟是我能安慰自己唯一的收获
就离开我别回过头
不要用从前看以后

我猜是我的错爱怎么被偷走
那只是个感受如果离开是爱你最后的承诺
多年以后偶尔记得那疯狂不成熟的我
不说穿了不要结果

不伪装了我的难过

最后的风度

2009-09-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

没有人介入所有人觉得你该满足
我把心血全都付出你为何想要哭
为你作主让你受到我的保护
可是你像受苦到底是谁难以相处
我给你幸福你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题反而让我把你看个清楚
你怕束缚我的爱没能把你驯服
你没有退路那倒不如爽快结束

就让你见识我的风度你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷反正我很想跳舞
我最喜欢挑战孤独我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我我不在乎

你觉得痛苦我倒不愿意为爱受苦
只有这样我才做到对你的背叛宽恕
想你幸福想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误我不认输我忍得住

就让你见识我的风度你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷反正我很想跳舞
我最喜欢挑战孤独我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我没有空在乎
就让你见识我的风度
我忍痛温柔的祝福
你会一生都记住
我要你铭心刻骨
我最喜欢挑战孤独我也爱放下了包袱
没有谁没难度我最怕哭
爱要爱得投入却不在乎

You'll Never Walk Alone.

2009-07-30T10:05:00.004+08:00

Put my current crisis aside...

Last Sunday was the very first time that I was able to catch a glimpse of the Reds. It was the first time in 8 years that Liverpool visited the Lion City. (Unfortunately, I did not attend the match 8 years ago due to my then-financial-difficulty as a Sec 3 student, while the Reds back then triumphed the then-weaker-and-fewer-foreign-talent Singapore team 2-0, including a goal from now-a-MAN-U-player Michael Owen)

On this day, the wanna-to-be-demolished-and-yet-the-official-last-match-was-2-years-ago Kallang National Stadium was declared as the Kop. It was a day where everyone dressed in Red, with Carlsberg on their shirt(With few have Candy/Crown Paints on their shirts instead), and Adidas/Reebok as the brand. Though everyone was in Red, we were rooting for the away team instead and thus our patriotism for our own country was questioned.

At the end of the 90 minutes, Liverpool trounced the Lions by 5 goals, with a brace from their youngster Kristian Nemeth, as well as their first teamers like Albert Riera, Fernando Torres and came-back-from-loan-and-willing-to-fight-for-a-first-team-place Andriy Voronin. This time, the Reds played more seriously compared to 8 years ago, while I never expect the Lions to lose such a humiliating scoreline, given that Liverpool had played our dear ASEAN rivals, Thailand, to a 1-1 draw in their first match of the tour, while our neighbouring Malaysia lost Man U by respectable scorelines in 2 matches.

While Liverpool showed us that they can be a championship material and challenges Manchester United to the very end, it's just disappointing to see Singapore, packed with quite a number of foreign talents and capturing two consecutive Southeast-Asian titles after the match 8 years ago, gave such a poor display in the second half.

Show us that you all can play football and make these fans like us who love our beloved English clubs more support you too.

TDYWA7th : Everyone deserves a second chance.

Breakdown

2009-07-24T13:16:00.002+08:00

I have always never learn.

I have always been a bad chess player, always making the wrong move, too many wrong moves soo much soo that I can't find myself to bounce back.

And just when I thought I can move on and let time heals, some bit*h just added some salts into the wounds...

I have already enough of soo much unhappiness for the past 2 months or soo... from my studies to my relationships with friends...

And now I don't know how am I going to say sorry to her... sincerely. The nail had finally pinned on the coffin...once again.

And I don't know how's the future should go... I just hate to see my life being in a running track, with vicious karmas running round and round again.

这次，全世界是真的...停了电。

Ice Cream

2009-07-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now, whos to say, well be ok
We will make it through the night
Dont wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice reamI
dont want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I dont know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Burning Daimoku

2009-07-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

I never felt chanting such burning prayers of daimoku for such a long time. Perhaps, this is the desperate daimoku I really need... to lift myself up and change things for the better.

I try to keep myself busy besides work. Well, I have been assigned to work alongside Minling and the new IICs, John and May Ann, for the upcoming institution meeting in September. It's gonna be like an orientation though for the new SD members who will start their new semesters in August/September. It's gonna be a big production like what John said as the meeting will involve both indoors and outdoors and it's full of fun activities. I hope I can really do my best for this as well as the near-coming YMD/MD Formation Day.

While, I will put my life... in chanting my absolute prayers for her happiness, and well, everyone's happiness.

I shall chant all these burning daimoku as if there's my last moments.

Sorry.

2009-07-12T20:40:00.002+08:00

I don't deserve to say that to someone, and I can't forgive myself.

And now...I am facing yet uncertainty of friendships...Even if things are mended slowly, things may not be the same again. Whether this friendship will be closer than before, or more distant than before, I don't know...Though deep inside I hope for the best to come, and I always do.

I wish I will never think soo much...never.

反话

2009-07-11T15:03:00.002+08:00

问我多年前失的门匙避免说出牵挂
路过她门前被谁碰见手执一扎花
问我可记得动心过伤心过再没半点牵挂
若说起某些合照想说没有声音已哑

*如从未遇上她我记不起曾热恋她
别了她也懒得说别话
和她无淩晨无童话
没伸手拥抱从未忆起她
如从未遇上她要我将这句重复吗
就算假谁来问我只好欺诈
营造骗人反话去抵销我念挂(从来没有她)

没法子回头讲起从前就笑说不牵挂
路过她门前被谁碰见讲不出笑话
问我可记得动心过伤心过有没有都潇洒
若说起某些合照想说没有声音已哑

CHORUS*

埋藏著当天心痛情绪一早真空
能忘掉结局也相同每日淡忘她

没记忆送过多少蔷薇给她
没见识错觉她漂亮吧
从今无零晨无童话亦不懂拥抱无力再招架
从来未遇过她要我将这句重复吗
就算假谁来问我只好欺诈
无奈骗人反话却骗不过念挂

Some words to say...

2009-07-04T23:55:00.003+08:00

Things have not been looking bright for me these days, as shown in my previous posts. Mid-year crisis perhaps? When one devilish function comes and attacks you, the others follow suit. These days, my emotions had taken control totally on me, there were times I am able to smile, able to say some lame jokes, but deep inside unhappiness has been occupying my heart, my life-force has not been great... perhaps I have been thinking too much...really regretting too much.

Well, all these personal struggles I guess I don't wish to bury them in my heart... guess through blogging I really wanna pour them out...

Studies

After all these while of regrets and frustrations for not making the right decisions in studies, for not putting the primary focus on my education...etc, I have decided to move on and giving myself options in how my education path should go.

Going SIM next year ? Very likely... and it's most probably to be RMIT. Well, I am considering Business Management though. Full-Time OR Part-Time? Depends on how's my financial stability...but I wish I can take Full-Time.

While my application to NIE fell through, there's no harm giving another try again before I made my final decision in my studies in August.

Family

My mum's in hospital again for a small head operation. While the operation was a success, she's not been mentally conscious, her mental health's just seemed to be deteriorating. Guess I really need more patience and understanding in the future. There are times that I really have enough for her illnesses for the past 18 years or so, she's been suffering alot while the family's been suffering alot. But this is a family karma that for me to overcome bravely.

Friends

Do friends really come and go ? I don't know. Sometimes it's a little disappointed to see some friends who seem to be more closer to you than before, back to the same level of friendships again. And just when you thought you's been getting to know them better through gatherings and online conversations, the level of understandings and friendships are actually being stagnant. This is how I feel these past weeks or soo concerning this one particular clique of friends.

Meanwhile... such gatherings and online conversations have been getting lesser than before...

While all along even from last year, I have started to develop feelings for one of them from this particular clique...it's time to admit that I like her. But the distance of friendship just seems to drift apart once I started to develop feelings for her... Perhaps I been thinking too much. Why am I feeling THAT way again ??? Once again, it seems she's just yet another person whom I should not develop feelings for... I wish I had never fall for her at the first place, and all this while I have shown my weaknesses of emotions to her. It just sounds like those same old story of mine...

I don't know she will ever read all this here or not...But nevertheless, I think it's best for me to move on and stop putting too much thoughts on her... no matter whether this friendship will progress like before OR drifting apart as it seems now.

Perhaps through focusing for more other serious challenges ahead and continuing to polishing my life, the good fortune for the right time, right person may come...

Career

After working 3 months at NUS, there are high chances that I am going to convert to a permanent staff, while I am trying to build a closer bond and forging strong friendships with my colleagues. Meanwhile, I am striving to cope well and control my emotions during my work during these challenging times of mine. The temp staffs had left their jobs to prepare for their university lives, quite alot of fond memories spent with them and it's a little 舍不得 to bid farewell to them, but I hope these newly made friendships made in my job can continue to keep in touch.

These are all my personal updates of mine. I just really need to be optimistic, and bring back the strong life force which I used to have last year...

Another Test of time...Another Test of faith...Another Test of human revolution... There's many other things to decide whether is a "year of youth and victory" OR a "year of youth and defeat" in the 2nd half of the year to come...

Kieran's Year of Youth and DEFEAT ???

2009-06-19T00:11:00.004+08:00

I wish I will never feel that way... but it's seems successive failures had forced me to feel that soo...

Or rather... the curse of "Once every 3 years will be a fucked up year"...

2003... Expecting the a brand new refreshing life of poly life but things were never meant to be...

2006... Expecting to round up the last of poly life with victories but successive UNhappiness from all sides of my life came by...

And now 2009...

Just when I thought I can pick up the positive notes, picking up those shattered pieces of life mounted by years of regrets and wrongful decisions, and start giving myself options on how to move on with life, most notably my education path, failure just came and made me lost out, most terribly, most humiliating, most embarrassing in a sport which I could have...at least, kept up my own standard level.

I could have played much, much, much better today. But things were never meant to be... and I deserved to keep up my own playing level like what I had used to do last year ! But why am I playing like how I played 5-6 years ago ??? Especially when I made much improvements in that sport ??? Especially when I need some self-confidence and pride back after those dark periods of feeling regrets and making the wrong decisions as well as feeling those inferiority???

Is karma trying to come back and bite my life, pushing me back to where I begin, like how it used to do on me ? Especially when I had a wonderful year before ?

I feel I deserved to be happy, creating values and victories in my life, just like anyone else out there.

现在怎样才能真正重拾我的自信心？？？

It supposed to be...

2009-06-07T23:06:00.003+08:00

A fun-loving weekends since the (ill-fated) exams... going for Doris and Zheng Hsin's birthdays...going for SD Rufu run... going for 3 steps forward meeting... but things are not meant to be.

Never mind for others who had enjoyed themselves. But the inner inferiority and disappointments that had accumulated over that 7 years had let me DOWN... at the end of the day, 出门或不出门没差别...

I am grateful to fellow SSA comrades who had been showing concerns to me over these past few days since the exams...I am sorry to show everyone that black face of mine... I just can't elevate my life condition to participate with you all in all these joyous and fun occasions...

Sometimes I wish I can work more harder in my O levels and enter into a JC or a much better course in poly...

Sometimes I wish I can set my decision soo firm and work towards my goal when I was 16...

Sometimes I wish I can put studies infront rather than emoing over some one-sided relationship shit...

Sometimes i wish such negative (study, relationship and family) karma will not accumulate without being realised over 7 years...

Sometimes I wish I can turn back time... I really wish a scientist can invent time-machine for people like me to make amends...

But NO POINT OF WHAT-IFS and that's no bloody shit called Time-Machine !!!

Yes, everything happens for a reason... but such theory has been too costly for me !

I can't blame the likes of As and Ss who I used to like but no chance comes out of it...

I can't blame the way I was brought up...

I can't blame destiny and luck...

I have only myself to blame...

I HAVE ENOUGH !!!

Aftermath

2009-06-05T19:26:00.004+08:00

From the moment the incompleted F3 paper due to the lack of time has ended, it seems that my pursuit of ACCA is over...

Or perhaps it spells the end of the old Chia Yiheng.

It just summarized all my karmas for my past lifetime.

Don't speak of my family karma that plagued me since 5... don't speak of my disappointment in PSLE... what I can say now is I could have planned my future much more wisely and much more determined at the age of 16...at the age of 17...at the age of 21.

Soo many "What-if" but what can I say ?

I can only say WRONG decisions of my educational path... WRONG focus in my life. I have paid the price for my laziness, my stupidity, my desperateness, my emoness, my childishness and my lack of ambition...in the end, nothing comes at both end...in my studies and my love life.

Dear friends, you can criticise me for being that DOWN... you can accuse me for not looking forward to the future... I know that's no use looking back and wondering... but HOW NOT TO when when soo many wrong decisions are made and they prove that costly ???

Soo what if I have worked soo hard for that SGT rank during NS but in the end NS is just a fucking waste of time and I continue to lose my respects from the peers ???

I may criticise how shit is Newcastle United in English football...but at the end of the day, I am nothing better than them...in terms of my personal achievements and victories.

Now what next...??? Pursuing a future in teaching chinese ? Signing on with the police force ? I just have to think seriously...

But right now, I have only myself to blame...and I don't deserve to love anyone......including her.

Never-ending

2009-05-18T21:38:00.005+08:00

If my life is like a football club, it's gotta be Newcastle United rather than my beloved Liverpool.

Just like that team fighting for relegation from the EPL at this moment, I just feel soo underachieving and the stupidity in me had won over me. How many wrong decisions do I have to make before I can see tremendous actual proofs in my life ???

I am just being foolish, making too much, way too much poor decisions in terms of my studies since 'O' Levels. And it's not just studies after all... Soo many decisions, whether big or small, most of them have been the wrong choices. Right now, I am just being frustrated, disappointed and underachieving. 7 fucking years of youth is seemed to be wasted...Nothing has changed...Nothing.

Soo what if it seems life has been happier than before ? Too many wrong decisions had brought nothing... not a single significant victory. I really had enough. And I don't think I had even done any single human revolution..... Up to this point, I don't think I am able to forge close bonds with most of the people around me.

It just seems that I was born to this world as a clown, as an invisible man.

To let people laugh. To let people ignore. That's all.

And to end this low-life condition post...

18 years of family karma...
11 years of relationship aka love karma...
7 years of study karma...

Anything else ?

Call me Karma King if you want.

ColorGenics

2009-05-12T19:32:00.004+08:00

It's just sounds soo true.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/showprofile.asp?id=1/4/5/3/7/6/0/2/&name=Chia%20Yiheng

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.
You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

全世界都停电

2009-05-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

The song which best describes my current state of life.

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭
为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我 让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电
全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电
全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点

爱在记忆中找你

2009-05-06T00:15:00.001+08:00

我对你这一生哪个可比
我与你差一些永远一起
邂逅时间场地似连场好戏
要自何页说起wow ho

爱太重深呼吸欠缺空气
爱太美轻轻的却载不起
爱情来到时候似明媚天气
它走了突然骤变雪落雨飞

如果可以恨你全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离

你太远该怎么说对不起
你太近一转身却已高飞
快乐也许太短似场流星雨
一眨眼就如幻觉怕又记起

我情愿我狠心憎你

我还在记忆中找你

An overdued diary

2009-04-22T10:02:00.013+08:00

For this piece of diary, I should have written it on the very last day of February, or maybe at the beginning of March. In the end, when I scrolled through my archives just now, I realised that I didn't! Therefore, I decided to write this piece of overdued diary.

What have I missing writting in this blog ?

Well, it's the 25th SD Anniversary held at Senja Soka Centre on 28th February. Besides being involved in the choir performing 2 songs at 2 shows on that day, I was glad to be involved in the exchange dinner once again with the 3rd batch of students from Soka University of Japan. While I missed the 2nd batch exchange due to my holidays in Hong Kong, I was able to be a part of the exchange together with the 1st batch and the 3rd batch. (The exchange dinner with the 1st batch of SUJ students happened to fall on Valentine's Day, see http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2009/02/good-bye-my-friend.html)

This time around after both concerts for the Anniversary shows ended, we were introduced to 2 YWD students whom would be attached to my group(ITAC) for the exchange dinner. They are Megumi and Yoshiko, both 1st year students studying Economics in English. While everyone was hungry by the time we set off, we took them to have a taste of local food for dinner at Bukit Timah Hawker Centre. While both girls chose to eat something with rice, I offered to let them try mixed economical rice(杂菜饭) and I was teased by the rest of the group for being soo "nice" to them and since I offered them such simple treats.

They were special guests from Japan and it's their first ever overseas trip out of Japan, and therefore it's best to give them a dinner treat as a local host.

Once again, like the first exchange on V-Day, we shared conversations of cultures between Singapore and Japan while we enjoyed the dinner throughout the session. And then, we moved off to take a bus back to their hotel to send them back. It was quite a memorable night as we talked alot throughout the entire trip and sang along on a near-empty top level of the double double bus.

As usual, photo-takings were done at the lobby of the hotel before the bunk of us bidding farewell to our newly-made Japanese friends.

Now, nearly 2 months had passed while I had just installed Skype in order to have a online verbal conversations with one of the friends, Megumi. We had been exchanging emails and updating our lives to each other prior to that. (And please guys...don't get the wrong idea.)

Meanwhile, I hope I can visit Japan, very likely in 2010, not only to have fun there visiting attractions, eating their delicacies, visiting the soka centres over there, and also meeting my Japanese friends over there.

For now, I must work hard and make my resolutions come true.

妥協(Compromise)

2009-04-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍 才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞 历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊开始自己的明天

(PS: Those enlarged and in bold best describes my struggles and karma and all these must NEVER happen again.)

15 April 1989...Remembered

2009-04-15T23:52:00.005+08:00

Liverpool may have been knocked out of the Champions League this morning...but we had been giving our best in the attempt of making a tremendous comeback...even without the central figure, Stevie G. Perhaps everything happens for a reason, now let's put the 100% concentration and effort in winning the long-lost league title.

Both 14th and 15th April had been the saddest days for the Englishmen, due to two major man-made disaster in the history of Great Britain. In April 14 1912, the "impregnable" Titanic, setting sail from Southampton to New York, sank into the Atlantic Ocean after hitting an iceberg, leaving 1500+ lives were lost. To the Liverpool fans, exactly 20 years ago, 96 Liverpool supporters lost their lives in the crushing tragedy which occured in Hillsborough stadium, home of Sheffield Wednesday. It was a FA Cup semi-final clash between Liverpool and Nottingham Forest.

I may only be just 38 months old when the tragedy happened in England, I felt the emotions and grief ever since I started following Liverpool and learned about this tragedy which will never be forgotten in the history of Liverpool, and perhaps the world of football. It should be a joyous occasion where friends, brothers, sisters or even the whole family went to attend a football match, rooting for their beloved clubs with their hearts out......but in the end, 96 lives failed to return home on that very day.(Steven Gerrard's cousin was among the 96 victims in that tragedy.)

Liverpool supporters are always soo special and respected... They care and show support for each others(Liverpool fans will never forget the tragedy at Hillsborough and memorial service is held every year.)...They sing their hearts out...They went through thick and thin with the club...Most importantly, they never ditched the club even if the team failed to win the league title for soo many years. Sometimes I ever wonder... Will the fair-weathered fans of some other big club in UK feel such emotions and loss if such tragedy in Hillsborough fall on them ? Will they continue to show their support if the team went into a downfall ? Perhaps, these younger fans of some other team know nothing about the history of their team...

And this season, I truly believe Liverpool deserves to win the long-awaited league title this coming May. Meanwhile, I am proud to be a fan of the Reds and hope such tragedy will never happen again, never...anywhere.

You'll Never Walk Alone.

Butterfly

2009-04-06T23:29:00.004+08:00

Well...I really love her alot =P. I managed to purchase and (perhaps being the first person to buy at Toa Payoh's Popular) on the very first day of the release of her latest album (and her first since her move to Warner Music), Butterfly(花蝴蝶). Ever since her move to her previous company, Capitol Music, I had been buying each and every of her album release. (Except for her low-profile english album which were covers of the greatest hits of the western pop.)... Her songs had been accompanying me for these past few years...with the highs and the lows. Here are the recaps.

Album Name: Dancing Diva(舞娘)

Date of Release: 12/5/2006

I got this very first album of mine at a CD shop at Bendemeer Mall near my attachment company. It was the time when I was at a very low-life condition, having suffering from a major family incident and feeling very underachieving and disappointed in terms of studies and relationships. That's the low self-esteem I had at that time, despite having the good fortune and opportunity to be one of the 10+ students in the batch to be attached at a company(And it's a MNC) for Industrial Attachment Programme. It was at the very same time where I was in love with a girl(Which I knew during YCF and YGM in 2005 and whom I still refused to name on my blog until now...), while she was attached at that time. At that moment, I just hoped the friendships with her grew...but too bad there's little room for chances.

Favourite Songs in the album: Dancing Diva(舞娘), Pretence(假装... and it eventually spells the situation between me and her the following year...), Prologue(开场白), A wonder in Madrid(马德里不思议)

Album Name: Dancing Forever(唯舞独尊)
Date of Release: 29/9/2006

It's an album which consists of her mini concert DVD, a disc of her few new songs and another disc of remixes. At that point of time, I was in a worst condition of my life, lacking the wisdom and good fortune to find a good vacation job before NS which led me to work in an environment which I disliked at the very first day of work. At the same time, my low-self esteem, disappointments and bitterness continued. I was seriously lacking faith by then. Meanwhile, I don't even have the chance to see her in gakkai activities during that period of time. (Perhaps it's best not to see her in meetings as I had the face of low-life condition and my acne problems were at the very worst.)

Favourite Songs in the album: The cantonese version of 假装, Heard that love has come back(听说爱情回来过), Marry me today(今天你要嫁给我...and I will put this song in my consideration for my wedding.)

Album Name: Agent J(特务J)
Date of Release: 21/9/2007

This album released exactly 3 weeks after that incident. I don't wish to mention what happen...What I can only say now it's yet another vicious end of pursuing of love. Today, I wanna say again is I don't want such things to happen again. Although my social life had been much better especially since that incident, the song 一个人(Alone) had been accompanying me to overcome this vicious karma of mine and slowly get over this one-sided relationship.

It is a beginning of a new chapter of my life, a beginning of newly-refresh determination and strong life-condition for my human revolution and my pursue of happiness...

Favourite Songs in the album: Alone(一个人), Fear-free(怕什么), Metronome(节拍器), Agent J(特务J)

Album Name: Butterfly(花蝴蝶)

Date of Release: 27/3/2009

As I mentioned above, this is her first album since her move to Warner Music. By then I had already ORD from NS and just started my temp job as a finance officer at NUS...It's a breakthrough and good fortune to find this job though as the current economic crisis continues...

Meanwhile, I am heavily involved in gakkai activities than before while I continue to work hard to make breakthroughs in life... a far cry from 2006 when I was in such a shitty condition. Speaking of that, once again I repeat. I don't want (bad) history to repeat again

In this album, I particularly like Compromise(妥协)...It is a "continuation" of her sobby love ballads such the taste of lemon grass(柠檬草的味道), rewind(倒带), sky(天空), pretence(假装), alone(一个人) and list goes on...

Favourite Songs in the album: Compromise(妥协), You hurt my feelings(你快乐我内伤), Butterfly(花蝴蝶), Real Man(大丈夫)

別怪她

2009-03-19T22:40:00.001+08:00

不相信爱我能永久只想到我也曾弃旧
曾经就算痛苦仍捉紧你手
怎相信最后你竟随他愉快远走
如放任仍放任我也知丑
别怪她别怪她别再伤心对吧
从遇见的一刹是捉紧了吗
别怪她别怪她别再敷衍对话
疲累了让我休假
他怎计算也无对手毕竟你我确曾邂逅
如果没有记忆也不必颤抖
怎相信最后你竟随他愉快远走
如放任仍放任难过更伤透
别怪她别怪她别再伤心对吧
从遇见的一刹是捉紧了吗
别怪她别怪她别再敷衍对话
如学会别再想她
(原谅我负了代价)

You'll Never Walk Alone

2009-03-16T10:30:00.003+08:00

I will always remember the scorelines of which fixture of Manchester United vs Liverpool FC since I started watching football, especially those of recent years.

2001...the Reds won at Old Tradford...thanks to a Danny Murphy's freekick.

2003...In one of my darkest years in life, the Red Devils triumphed...4 goals to Nothing.

2004...the Reds won for the very last time...Danny Murphy once again...via a Penalty.

2006...Liverpool lost by a very late goal...after dominating quite much throughout the game.

2008...Liverpool was drubbed 3-0.

2009...It was the sweetest of all. And the very first win away at Manchester United since Danny Murphy's penalty kick in 2004, the first time Liverpool has scored at Old Tradford since that 2004 match. A 4-1 thrashing seems like a karma being eradicated... the victory was soo sweet, even if I was sick that entire week.

You'll Never Walk Alone.

Flashback: An IRC date (2001)

2009-03-02T14:48:00.004+08:00

Remember mIRC??? It stands for Internet Relay Chat... it was a very popular Online chatting application when MSN Messenger was just at its start. Meanwhile during its heydays as the no.1 application for online chatting from 1999 - 2004(?), there were many memorable and infamous episodes which occurred in my life with regards to mIRC.

It was 2001... I could still remember it was at the end of the school, school holidays had started. Back then, my daily lifestyle was using the then-new PC playing games and chatting on IRC, besides numerous outings with my Bendemeer peeps. Back then of course, I had not taken up faith and went for any Soka activities...It was these moments that I started to meet someone unknown on IRC.

I could still remember the chat channel was #teens... a very popular channel for Singapore kids haha... Alright, I shall not mention her name on this post. Let's call her N. On the first night that we met up online, I learned that she's from one of the oldest girls school in Singapore, and to my very surprise, we were from the same primary school ! (Although she's a year younger than me, soo she's from the 1999 graduating batch.)

Well...for next few weeks, we were having numerous conversations online almost every night, at few times we even chatted on phones. And finally, we decided to meet up in town... I could still remember the very date...it was exactly 3 months after the terror attacks in America.

On that blinddate, she tagged another friend of hers along and we went on to catch a Movie at Plaza Singapura. I could still remember what show was. It was Monster Inc... it was my 2nd time watching the show afterall haha. Meanwhile, after her friend went off, we went on to have a lunch at Mac where we had quite a long conversation.

We could have walked over to Orchard MRT station if not for the rain...damn I could have brought an umbrella then. We went on over there to buy her stuffs before bidding off goodbye. Those times were short though.

Eventually, just like Monster Inc which did not have a sequel, I never got to meet her again personally. Well, we ended up chatting less and less online before she eventually disappeared from my life. Apologies as I don't wish to mention what's really happen after that blinddate. It's my lack of wisdom and childishness to blame...(Perhaps this was what always happen when I never start chanting and go for gakkai activities when I was younger...)

Very coincidentally, in my 2nd year that I stepped into Ngee Ann Polytechnic, I came across her in school and she's happened to be a classmate from one of my gakkai friends in NPSD! Well, I could have get to know her again through mutual friends but... fate was not meant to be. Anyway, seems that she did recognise me when I bumped into her in school. Perhaps she's thinking, "This lad looks familiar...?"

Once again, I came across her facebook page through the same gakkai friend. But anyway, I wish her absolute happiness and all the very best in future endeavours.

Travel - Hong Kong

2009-02-28T00:37:00.006+08:00

Many people may prefer Taiwan to Hong Kong, but I prefer HK more to Taiwan. Perhaps I shared the same dialect with people over there...(Well, I still not yet visit Taiwan over there and I would like to in the very near future.)

How I wish I spent more time in Hong Kong. Somehow 4 days is not enough, perhaps one week is better. It's a much much cooling place afterall in this current seasonal period. Once I was back home in Singapore on Sunday night, I felt the heat was back again ! Meanwhile, the air in HK did not seem to be soo well, as you can see in the following picture. It's a kind of pity that I failed to take any nightview of Hong Kong at the peak due to the very hazy condition.

We did alot of shopping in Hongkong. From Mongkok to Causeway Bay, from Causeway Bay to Citygate Outlets at Lantau Island... Well, besides those clothes and accessories and food, I managed to buy few vintage double decker bus models for my personal collection. These classic double deckers sparkled some childhood memories of taking those vintage double decker non-aircon public transports traveling around Singapore. Such things were hard (or I should say never) to be found in Singapore, guess I shall get few more different other models when I went there again.
Meanwhile, the hotel service was really CMI (Cannot make it). I won't comment it much though... the room was really really small and I guessed for a price of 125SGD, I don't think it was that worth the price. However, the location was really good...along the stretch of Nathan Road, while me and Perry's been out for supper, eating junk food like McDonald's . Another thing is...McDonald's were much cheaper than here, though the local delicacies were slightly ex.

See.. the gap between both beds are that "WIDE".

Fancy taking a group picture inside this small and cosy hotel room.

Finally, we never did much places-of-interest visiting in Hong Kong... much shopping though. No Disneyland...No Ocean Park. However, at least we managed to visit Madam Tussad Wax Museum at the Peak. It may cost 150HKD but at least it's worth the price... taking alot of pictures with many "public figures" along the way.

Well, I shall revisit Hong Kong again in the very near future one day. Somehow, I really love travelling as I grow older. Now it's back to job-hunting while I pursue my advancement to happiness and victories.

Good bye, My friend

2009-02-17T23:55:00.003+08:00

When you read this, one of my ITAC comrades, Shihan, had left for Australia to further his studies yesterday morning (16/2). While me and Kaiyang had went to send him off at the airport, we also had a supper farewell for him together with the other ITAC mates, on a V day nite.

With our graceful ywds...
the ymds...

The central figure's coming from a drinking session...

The group picture !

All the best in your studies and enjoy your stay in Australia, my friend !

Well, I also made Japanese friends on V day too. It's the SUJ(Soka University of Japan) exchange...while I spent the afternoon and evening going on the meeting as well as the dinner session at Lau Pa Sat and sight-seeing around the Esplanade together with the fellow SD mates and this group of Japanese friends. It's sad that I was unable to send them off at the airport last night due to my lessons. (It would be two trips to the airport in a day if I was able to make it, meanwhile I made my HK trip this Thursday morning.)

Anyway, I shall keep in contact with them through email...and hope I could blog the photos out soon when I got them from my Jap friends...

Flashback: Never had a dream come true (2001)

2009-02-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

I remember this song today, I remember S Club 7. They are quite a wonderful popband back then when I was in Secondary School. There are a couple of good songs i remember... to the extent that the then very "xiao-mei-mei" Jolin Tsai even made a cover on one of them ("Don't Stop!"). Since then, the era of popbands had died down...almost completely.

When it came to my (past-and-sucky-and-lone-and-one-sided) love life, one sentence from the lyrics to quote:

There's no use looking back or wondering.

Ooh... Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be 'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head (Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

Let's treat it as just another day

2009-02-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

Remember this post I blogged about very exactly 1 year ago ??? (And the very first time I took MC in my 2 year of National Service.)

http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2008/02/speaking-out-from-my-heart.html

Alright... I don't wanna say anything, but at least life is getting better than before as a single. But let's not be complacent afterall, I shall continue to strive everything for the best.

爱我别走

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多因为我一个人

迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目地的走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

爱*转角

我伪装着不露痕迹的
想在你身边静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着

你往前走不回头看了
记忆的笑脸缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着
心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说

一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我就是我的美

心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会怎么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我就是我的美

爱转角遇见了谁是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作废让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远你就是我就是我的美

The No.5ive Club...

2009-02-13T01:09:00.003+08:00

For the past 10 years of English Premier League(Since I was in Sec 1), it has been dominated by the Big 4 (Manchester United, Liverpool, Chelsea and Arsenal) while there are teams eager to break into this monopoly. For this lifespan of the league, four teams(Or I should say five as Aston Villa is the latest one this season) had been trying to challenge the big four...some has succeeded by finishing in the top 4 and enters the lucrative UEFA Champions League, while some has tried but finishing the no.5 and the UEFA Cup spot. Today, I shall review these teams for the past 10 years...Some teams(Or I should say most teams) faded, but some's not.

1) Leeds United (For the past 10 years)
"Golden" period: 1998/99 - 2001/02
Highest Standing: 3rd place (1999/00)
Major Achievements: None... but reached the semi-finals of the Champions League in the 2000/01 season
Where are they now?: Sorry... they are in League One.(The 3rd tier of English football Pyramid)

Once, they boasted a team of youthful talent in the early 2000s, consisting of players like Harry Kewell, Rio Ferdinard, Mark Viduka, Alan Smith, Jonathan Woodgate and Robbie Keane...etc. It's a dream team soo much soo that I used to 'manage' them in Football Manager(then Championship Manager) for the 2001/02 version of the game. They had been challenging the likes of the Big 4 and even reached the semi-finals of the Champions League in the 2001 season, where they succumbed to Valencia in 2 legs.

Unfortunately, their chairman then(Peter Ridsdale) was over ambitious that he bought many footballers, as much as those they trained, some transfer-fees even broke some records (Such as the one of Rio Ferdinard)... that they eventually went into debts. After the 2001/02 season where they could only finish in fifth place, David 'O' Leary was sacked and their players were sold eventually one-by-one due to their financial turmoil.

In 2003-04, they were eventually relegated and then 2006-07 again... which is League One where they are now.

I do like this club besides Liverpool and do hope one day they will bounce back and to where they used to stand.

2) Newcastle United
"Golden" period": 2001/02 - 2003/04
Highest Standing: 3rd place (2002/03)
Major Achievements: None...
Where are they now?: Still in EPL, but a mid-table side.

A very ambitious club since EPL has started...Used to challenge Man U for the title before making some little downfall at the very late 1990s and early 2000s, finishing in mid-table during that period. They emerged again and challenged the Big Four at the 2001/02 season under the guidance of Sir Bobby Robson, with a very effective partnership of Alan Shearer and Craig Bellamy. They went closer in the following season, almost challenging Man U and Arsenal for the title, and pipping Liverpool and Chelsea away from the 3rd spot. However, after finishing 5th in the 2004 season, things were back to square one.

After Sir Bobby was sacked due to poor form in the early season of 2004/05, Newcastle United would eventually changed their manager after their manager, like how a person changes his clothing, from Graeme Souness to Glenn Roeder, from Glenn Roeder to Kevin Keagan and soo on... In the end, their owner was also changed. The fans thought they had a better owner who will bring the team to glory... they are wrong.

Now, the team was soo bad (Even though at least they are now a mid-table side) that their chief striker cum captain, Michael Owen(Who was USED to be the pin-up boy of Liverpool), had lost his place in Fabio Capello's England squad.

zzz...

3) Everton FC
"Golden" period": 2002/03 - Now (Except for 2003/04 and 2005/06 season)
Highest Standing: 4th place (2004/05)
Major Achievements: None...
Where are they now?: Still in EPL, a team who is at least fighting for a UEFA cup spot

Well, after their hey days in the 1980s, they were struggling to be a mid-table team who even had to fight against relegation at times. Until David Moyes, a young Scottish manager came to manage the team, and a great English young talent by the name of Wayne Rooney that they started to emerge.

In Rooney's first season, they came close to secure a UEFA Cup spot, but at least they broke into the top 10 in the standings. They might have struggling a little in the following season and Rooney's departure to Man U in the beginning of 2004/05 season, they will eventually finished above their derby rivals, Liverpool, for the 4th place.(Even without the wonderkid... Meanwhile, Liverpool also got to play in the Champions League for the following season, cause they won that memorable final in 2005 =D)

For the past few seasons, Everton had been giving the Big Four a run of their money and they had been entering the UEFA Cup quite consistently, getting some positive results in the 2nd tier European Competition...and this can be done despite limited resources, and not having some foreign "sugar daddy"

(To be continued on the other two 'No 5' teams...)

勁歌金曲2 情歌王 (Love tells it all !)

2009-02-11T23:32:00.004+08:00

The longest MV I have ever seen...a medley of classic love songs... and yes, Alice Tzeng (曾愷玹) once again's the female lead for this MV !

愛你...不是因為你的美而已...
我越來越愛你...每個眼神觸動我的心

最愛你的是我否則你怎麼讓我否則我怎麼可能赴湯蹈火你說甚麼都做

如果這就是愛在轉身就該勇敢留下來就算受傷就算流淚都是生命裡溫柔灌溉

我要變成童話裡你愛的那個天使張開雙手變成翅膀守護你你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裡

往更多幸福的地方飛去很愛很愛你只有讓你擁有愛情我才安心

我願意為你我願意為你我願意為你忘記我姓名只要你真心拿愛與我回應我甚麼都願意為你
好想好想.好想好想..好想好想..和你在一起

明天我要嫁給你啦明天我要嫁給你啦要不是你問我要不是你勸我
要不是適當的時候你讓我心動

天天都需要你愛我的心思由你猜 I LOVE YOU 我就是要你讓我每天都精彩

開始總是分分鐘都妙不可言誰都以為熱情它永不會減總之那幾年感性贏了理性那一面

baby baby baby babybaby baby是不是擁有以後就會開始要失去?
我給你的越多你卻越想要躲愛已無法回答所有的問題

離開你是傻?是對?是錯?是看破?是軟弱?
這結果是愛是狠或者是甚麼?

最愛你的人是我你怎麼捨得我難過
對你付出了這麼多你卻沒有感動過...

愛我別走如果你說你不愛我不要聽見你真的說出口再給我一點溫柔...

就請妳給我多一點點時間再多一點點問候不要一切都帶走
就請妳給我多一點點空間再多一點點溫柔不要讓我如此難受

原來你甚麼都不想要我不要你的承諾不要你的永遠只要你真真切切愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好貪心也好最怕你把沉默當做對我的回答
原來你甚麼都不想要

你說你想要逃偏偏注定要落腳
情滅了愛熄了剩下空心要不要

傷離別離別雖然在眼前說再見再見不會太遙遠
若有緣有緣就能期待明天
你和我重逢在燦爛的季節

我和你吻別在無人的街讓風痴笑我不能拒絕
我和你吻別在狂亂的夜我的心等著迎接傷悲

能不能讓我陪著妳走即然妳說留不住妳
回去的路有些黑暗擔心讓妳一個人走

就這樣被你征服切斷了所有退路我的心情是堅固我的決定是糊塗

聽...海哭的聲音嘆惜著誰又被傷了心

和你身上的味道我想念你的吻和手指淡淡煙草味道記憶中曾被愛的味道

我懷念的是無話不說

我懷念的是一起作夢

我懷念的是爭吵以後還是想要愛你的衝動

我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌

記得那片星空最緊的右手最暖的胸口

啊！多麼痛的領悟

你曾是我的全部只願你掙脫情的枷鎖

愛的束縛任意追逐別再為愛受苦

都是你的錯在你的眼中總是藏著讓人又愛又憐的朦朧　

都是你的錯你的痴情夢像一個魔咒被你愛過還能為誰蠢動

我們的愛 過了就不再回來 直到現在我還默默的等待

我們的愛我明白已變成你的負擔只是永遠我都放不開最後的溫暖

你把我灌醉 你讓我流淚 扛下了所有罪我拚命挽回

你把我灌醉 你讓我心碎愛得收不回...

哦眼淚眼淚都是我的體會成長的滋味

哦眼淚忍住眼淚不讓你看見我在改變孤單的感覺

你從不曾發現我笑中還有淚

只怕我自己會愛上你不敢讓自己靠的太近

怕我沒甚麼能夠給你愛你也需要很大的勇氣

你是如此的難以忘記浮浮沉沉的在我心裡
改變自己需要多少勇氣翻騰的心情該如何平靜

你總是心太軟心太軟把所有問題都自己扛
相愛總是簡單相處太難不是你的就別再勉強

Forever Love Forever Love我只想用我這一輩子去愛你
從今以後你會是所有幸福的理由
Forever Love
Forever Love
Forever Love

祝我生日快乐

2009-02-09T15:45:00.002+08:00

Thanks everyone for sending those birthday wishes through facebooks, msn, phonecalls and smses...I am really grateful and thankful. =)

Well, the first day of being 23 is just another day. Not much celebrations afterall... I may spend my day just like another day...going gym and night lessons. Well, birthday dinners are not always a MUST afterall... the most important is whether am I able to achieve my birthday wishes before the very next birthday.

As usual, there's a lot of birthday wishes and resolutions in mind. But there are TWO things that always kept in mind. The first one is of course, finding a fulfilling job which enables me to create values and applies to my studies, while the second one... I don't think I wanna reveal it now. Sorry about that.

Anyway, 祝我生日快乐...

And now it's the 2nd Month of the Year...

2009-02-04T21:22:00.006+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming to an end... As usual meeting up the same relatives and catch up with them, collecting many ang baos along the way. Meanwhile, I do manage to meet up with my usual Bendemeer clique and Gakkai comrades, plus my polymates. But I made quite a loss in blackjack...not in Manjong though.

Overall I made a loss in gambling. However...
I may be 赌场失意 this CNY...but this year both 情场 and 职场 must be 得意 !

Well... I am still jobless since ORD, meanwhile these few days been going through some interviews as well as receiving offers from the agency. Hopefully, I can really have the good fortune and the opportunity to start my career, notably in accounting, as it may help me to gain more knowledge and experience while I still pursuing my ACCA. I know securing an accounting job may be a tough one as I was just a diploma holder in Engineering Infomatics, but I believe I can really make it with my sincere prayers, right actions and going for Kosen Rufu activities.

While the job-hunting goes on, the highly anticipated Hong Kong trip with Perry, Lingxian and Ebonne is here... As the booking was done last year around October and November, I been waiting for months haha. Well, it may be the 2nd time I went to Hong Kong, there's alot of places Hong Kong can be explored...Afterall, it was 12 years ago, the same MOO year, that I went there for the first time and I just stayed there for just 1-2 days ??? (The childhood trip consists of HK and Shenzhen and Guangzhou, and back then there's no Disneyland, and they were still using the old Kai Tak Airport.)

Anyway, Hong Kong had changed alot and I really wanna enjoy this 4 day trip. Afterall, ever since that 1st trip, I been only travelling around Malaysia and Indonesia.

Well, as I grow older, I really wanna travel around the world, but I need money haha.

Happy Moo Year Pics

2009-01-28T00:58:00.004+08:00

For the first time I am bringing my camera to catch some pictures for this Chinese New Year. Once again, my cousin, Melissa, booked a room at the Fullerton...same hotel room no......but at a very different timing! It's on a Chinese New Year......

EVE... where I also did some countdown with my maternal relatives...

Here are the pics...

Happy Moo Year !

2009-01-28T00:52:00.002+08:00

This CNY sounds quite boring... Practically no visitings after 3pm during these first 2 days of Chinese New Year. However, this year's Ang Bao collection don't disappoint me afterall... quite fat though... despite a little less than last year...despite of the global financial crisis...

Anyway, it's not over yet. That's gonna to be some gatherings, visitings this coming weekend. Looking forward to meet up with my polymates after over a year of exile(Not seeing them)......

撑腰

2009-01-21T13:02:00.002+08:00

Look at its MV. It may be a party song...but it is a song of "gratitude".

Welcome Back!

2009-01-09T14:41:00.002+08:00

You know what I mean...

100th Post

2009-01-02T12:08:00.004+08:00

I should have post my 100th post aka the first post of the year yesterday on the very first day of the year... no thanks to my feverish sickness which I am still enduring right now.

Meanwhile, since it is the very first post of the year, I shall list out my personal resolutions.

- Make more homevisits to members and contribute my ymds' growths of the year
- Find a job which enables me to create values, out for activities & applies in my studies
- Strive in ACCA & achieve top results (To me... It's a refreshing start...)
- Get my driving license
- Hit 70kg this year and improving my body fitness
- Pass my IPPT as a NSman
- Continue to build a stronger bond with all friends I know & left a great positive impressions to them
- Expand my social life in the new year
- Save more money

Actually here's are some of it... My prayers list infront of my Gohonzon makes up of 1.5 pages !

2008...Thanks For The Memories

2008-12-31T19:57:00.008+08:00

Bendemeer...

ITAC-SD...

NDP'2008 c5...

Sengkang South CFG...

Primary School...

NS...

幸福不灭

2008-12-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

Yet another song to round it all... (Been looking out for this song ever since it plays during the drama Hotshot (篮球火))

Somehow it writes about my feelings of what-had-happen this year...Not soo long ago.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqYdxZbqEW4

没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴你

如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

Oh I believe

Cause I believe那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃...

2nd Last Day Of The Year

2008-12-30T00:23:00.003+08:00

Once again, we are at the very end of a year. Looking back at the very start of the year, how many resolutions have we achieved? How much resolutions have we failed to accomplished ?

Copying and Paste from the "resolution list" posted on the last day of January (http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2008/01/last-day-of-january.html), here's the review:

- My parents to be healthy and happy. Especially my mum...

Alrite, family-wise... My father had the good fortune to change a new company but mum had not been in a healthy-form, especially mental wise... Sad to say that... Will continue to chant for them and for them to take up these faith eventually.

- Revamp my image both internally (Character wise) and externally (Looks, Body & Fitness Building).... Overall I should say... Human Revolution

Been polishing up this life... Quite a "chiongster" at the 1st half of the year, yet a little punctured at the 2nd half of it... I been telling these to everyone when I share about my 2008. Guess I really need to polish up further in order to keep myself advancing and competitve ahead.

Externally wise, I have been going gym, and signing up for membership at California Fitness.

- Continue to exert myself in Soka Activities, especially in my district & ITACSD.

The answer is the same as above. But I have been doing better than before... My amount of daimoku had increased, and more values had been created in activities. And best still, I had been attending every single district discussion meeting, institution meeting and study meeting! Perfect attendance haha!

- Building strongest bonds with all my friends and adding new friends in this social circle

Ever since I had entered ITACSD, I have been forging greater bonds with these new friends...At least I been talking alot more than before...Sames goes to my new chapter, and the lads from M&D crew. Let's work hard for Kosen Rufu together in the new year k ?

The friendships with the gang of 2e1'00 have been stronger...Enjoy being with them. Looking forward for the Hong Kong trip in February and next year will be the 10th year we have known each other. Let's not forget group c5 of NDP 2008... It's been a wonderful 4 months from April to August...

Been doing some catch-ups with Primary School classmates too, thanks to the power fo facebook... But my friendships with Polymates have been disappointing... Can you believe I have NEVER seen them for more than a year ??? Sad to say that but I don't wanna write them off as just another bunch of "Hi-Bye" friends...

Last but not least my NS mates... Been seeing the good and bad for the past one year... Anyway I going to ORD.

- Be a sincere and good listener to everyone when they have problems and try my utmost best to help them

Let's be humble... I don't wanna say how good I am.

- Do well in my ACCA part-time studies... despite it's being a tough course.

Well...I did not do well in ACCA this year, perhaps I have been slackening, even to the extent that whether I should give up. But eventually, today I decided to carry on... but at a new institution by the name of Kaplan. 2009 will be a refreshing start in terms of studies.

- Save more money

My financial condition has tremendously improved...But will still need to save for the future.

- Have the good fortune to meet the right & special one whom I will feel comfortable, blissful and interested with, and she must feel the same way too.

No comments. STILL single...It's been an eventful year for me...but at least I made good friends. Unlike 2007 where there was a disaster. But nevertheless, I must continue to work hard, polishing my life and continue advancing and breakthrough... The good will attract the good.

- Complete my driving license by this year

Been stopping for a year but I will definitely pursue it in 2009.

- Further improving my interest in singing and football

Been going K with my usual KTV kakis but hardly play football these days. But I have been going gym more than that, especially signing up membership with California Fitness. Let's not forget, I have made a breakthrough in my fitness in passing my IPPT!

搞笑

2008-12-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

This shall be the last new song to be added in my "favourites list" for 2008...The title sounds like one hip or funny song but it's not...

And the gorgeous Alice Tzeng (曾愷玹) is in this MV !

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人捞叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通霄
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了
还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊他习惯睡觉的床位
少了一双脚所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了
我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀
还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到
你好不好

Pre-Christmas

2008-12-22T21:12:00.002+08:00

Yet another year has just gone by and now it's christmas again. I had never really celebrated much for those past christmases and I can say those nights of hanging around the streets of Orchard on the eve, playing with those sprays (In which then those construction workers took advantage of, of course with a wrong intention) and squeezing around the crowd were a thing of the past.

There's no value creating in such a manner of getting involved in this festive season.

This Christmas eve, I had a gathering at Peixuan's house with the Bendemeer lads. It is gonna to be a potluck session and of course, Manjong. It's soo wonderful that I had been keeping in good touch with all of them, even though we had left the Secondary School for 6 years, while this year I had hanged out with them much often than before. Definitely, they are not those clique whom are just "Hi..... Bye!!!".

Well... these clique of friends were from my sec 1 and 2 class, and back those days, I was not in really talking terms with the girls though. Soo much things have changed, guess I have been more open-up as I grow. Ask me why I never get in touch with my sec 4 graduating class (Where my poly mates and SSA friends do...), I can only say sadly... the majority is indeed in those "Hi-Bye" category. What I can only remember that my sec 4 class is a class seperated by cliques and I remember how "Miserable" I was on the graduation night.

Despite what I regard these sec 4 classmates as in the "Hi-Bye" category, I do wish to meet them up for catch-ups one day. But will they ever think of meeting up ? Well... perhaps I was remembered as the one for his childishness and stupidity. (Which eventually led to those broken one-sided relationships in my early days.)

Alright... Let's not talk about the past anymore. Come this Christmas, I must really enjoy this gathering and my short getaway to KL with my NS mates on Boxing Day...

Double D Mood

2008-12-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

Disappointed and Disheartened...

That's all I can say. I been trying to organise a mass primary school class gathering since it's been 10 years since everyone have graduated... and how's the attendance for today's session at Mindcafe???

A simply pathetic 5 of us...

I can't blame those who last minute can't make it to the gathering due to sickness or other matters... I felt I was a bad organiser who rely contacts solely on Facebook... And what's the moral of the story ?

Don't rely too much on Facebook when some of them don't even bother to check it out any updates of events over there... Some of them may even block facebook messages from their emails which led to them knowing nothing...

Perhaps there's no shortcuts in contacting people afterall... Handphone contacts and MSN are always the most reliable source of communication...

Today's debacle just saw how bad my communication skills are... It's always been my weaknesses for years. 2009... I must OVERCOME it.

12 days more to 2009...Soo fast a year has passed but how much have I achieve in 2008 ???

2009 will be a more challenging and struggling year to me...I really need to grow and ADVANCE...

爱太痛(Love's too painful)

2008-12-15T23:32:00.003+08:00

Yet another very EMO song written, composed and sang by Kenji Wu(吳克群)... dedicated to all those PAST miseries of mine...

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能睡~

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

吃不能吃睡不能睡...

Finally

2008-12-09T14:28:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time since the last post. In fact, for the past few months, I hardly doing blogging...

Exams's just over with F5 Performance Management being the last paper yesterday.(Sounds weird when yesterday was a public holiday, right?)...I don't wanna talk about my future studies plan right now. However, now it's time for me to plan how to enjoy the next one month till ORD, looking for a job and making efforts to achieve some unfinished resolutions which set early this year.

Speaking of ORD, today was exactly one month away though. My replacement just arrived today, and I got only 6.5 working days left to hand every worktasks to him. Well... many of my 102th intake platoon mates had already started clearing leave... Samm had his last day last Friday, Jeremy and Ahmad will be having theirs this Thur, while I had to wait until next week...

Soo far 2008 had been an eventful year, at least I did enjoy than the previous years... even if times are bad these days. I had been polishing up this life and doing lots of catching ups with friends, making new friends and building stronger bonds with the old ones, while some breakthroughs of self-achievement had been done.

For the next one month, I shall really continue to polish up this life and achieving more victories...

Chia Yiheng, must WIN !!!

Soo hard to sleep...

2008-11-22T02:11:00.002+08:00

I turn on this PC to do some blogging since the McSpicy meal with the Cokelight had made me failed to sleep...

Afterall, I intend to resume my revision again tomorrow...

But I fail to sleep...

Don't know why... the brain in me keeps on functioning, the mind in me keeps on moving and fails to take a rest...

Exams is coming in around 10 days yet my revision progress is soo slow. Perhaps ACCA's not my cup of tea afterall... but how can I say that ??? How can I give up without giving it a fight???

This year has been doing fine for me yet there's a lot of things for me to overcome... and to achieve bigger victories in this life. At this hour, I felt I have slacken alot... I really need to do my human revolution, polishing up this life and put all the devilish functions and all those thoughts which has hindered me out of my life.

是我想太多...太多了...

突然好想你

2008-11-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

I had a very weird dream last night... something which I hope to be happen in the near future although it seems to be hard afterall. Nevertheless, this song is dedicated to this weird dream of mine. (No prize for guessing who I have dreamt of...)

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终于让自己属于我自己
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你你会在哪里
过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那么甜那么美那么相信那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各算的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你你会在哪里
过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决心自己过没有你
却又突然听到你的消息

In Turmoil

2008-11-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

I don't wish to share all these... and I am unclear of what's the situation's like... since the person does not even bother to share with his Next-Of-Kin(s) regarding all these problems that may affect the family.

Seriously speaking, I am quite pissed the way current problems are being handled... and the attitude this main sole-breadwinner has shown.

Now I can only chant this person can really take up faith to challenge this situation, and all these good fortunes that I have accumulated this year must not be TAKEN AWAY, but more should be accumulated instead...

你不是真正的快乐(You are not the true happiness)

2008-11-04T12:25:00.002+08:00

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经决定了你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是妳合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

于是妳含着泪痕飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔着

你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活着

A very nice new song by MayDay about Happiness...

说好的幸福呢 ?

2008-10-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

妳的回話凌亂著　在這個時刻

我想起噴泉旁的白鴿　甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯　我還愛妳呢

而妳斷斷續續唱著歌　假裝沒事了

時間過了　走了　愛情面臨選擇

妳冷了　倦了　我哭了

離開時的不快樂　妳用卡片手寫著

有些愛只給到這真的痛了

怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢

我懂得　不說了　愛淡了　夢遠了

開心與不開心　一一細數著　妳再不捨

那些愛過的感覺都太深刻　我都還記得

妳不等了　說好的　幸福呢

我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了

只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著　要怎麼停呢

Long Time No Blog

2008-10-19T21:36:00.004+08:00

It's been quite a long time since blogging...

Quite a number of things happened after CFG... been meeting up with my Pri and Sec School friends and at the meantime, getting involved in yesterday concluded ITACSD O & G. Still some 12 weeks away from ORD, and exams' coming up this December.

Soo fast 2008's going to an end and now it's the final quarter of the year. How much resolutions have I achieved? Come and think of it, there's quite a number which I have not achieved. Perhaps I have to really make an effort to make victories happen, and in the meantime, chant for the wisdom and good fortune to make all these happen.

I am thinking of organising a big class 6F gathering by the end of the year to commemorate 10 years of graduation from Pei Chun Public School. Initially, I wanna make it in the midst of November, but since that month is going to be the exam month for those who are in Universities, guess I shall organise one after my exams in mid-December. Hope it will going to be a success, and there's quite a number of classmates whom I never met for 10 long years! Despite having some meet-ups with those usual old classmates these years...

Here's some round-ups since I have last blogged...

Dinner with 6F mates (In the picture: Adeline, Qiaolin, Mingfen, Me, JianMing and Jiayi)
KTV Session with the usual kakis (Lingxian and Ebonne) + Perry...
Another (desert) session with 6F mates, this time plus Canice and Kailun.
Singing 9 hours of KTV on that very day...(6Fmates in the afternoon... the usual kakis in the night...)

Dinner to celebrate Perry's (belated) birthday... Zhenbang, Eboone, Me, LX, Perry, Joonkiat, Ashwin and Nic...
My catch of the night!
ITAC's O&G just yesterday...

路太弯

2008-09-28T00:50:00.001+08:00

我在这里计算终点的距离
下一站有没有更期待的结局
眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见
原来那个你和幸福的关系

路太弯梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见原来那个你和幸福的关系

路太弯梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是就换的回希望
呼吸太乱世界太宽缘分毕竟太短

路太弯梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞却找不回拥抱的形状

我一路上跌跌撞撞却找不回拥抱的形状

Lists of changes throughout these past 10 years (Part 2)

2008-09-25T15:41:00.002+08:00

1998: Mr Goh Chok Tong was the Prime Minister of Singapore. The late Ong Teng Cheong was the President of Singapore. Mr Lee Kuan Yew was the Senior Minister
2008: Mr Lee Hsien Loong, the Primer Minister. SR Nathan, the President. Goh Chok Tong, the Senior Minister and Lee Kuan Yew, the Minister Mentor.

1998: Toa Payoh Bus Interchange was located at where the HDB Hub is now, before relocating to the temporary site at the Toa Payoh Gardens. Popular was at 3rd level of Blk 190 and there were only 3 fast food chains... McDonald's and KFC plus Long John Silvers at the then-refurbished Toa Payoh Entertainment Centre. And one more thing... there's a departmental store by the name of Oriental.
2008: Toa Payoh Bus Interchange is part of the HDB Hub, an air-conditioned one. Popular is at the 2nd level of the interchange and there are more than 3 fast food chains...Subway, Mac, KFC, Burger King, Mos Burger, Pizza Hut and Long John's. Sizzler even opened one outlet above KFC... where the vegetarian restaurant used to operate... Oriental's no longer there.

1998: Pei Chun Public School consisted of 3 blocks... A, B and C. The front gate was along Toa Payoh Lor 6. Poi Ching School was our neighbouring school.
2008: PCPS moved to a new campus in 2001, where the old East Payoh Sec stood. A and B's no longer in use... seemed they have been refurbished and used for other purposes. C is part of the new campus and since underwent a massive renovation. The front gate is along Toa Payoh Lor 7. The original one near the Lor 6 bus stop is the back gate instead. Poi Ching School moved to Tampines in the 2000s, their old campus is now occupied by a Islamic school ?

1998: I never really involved in SSA activities, let alone starting to take up faith in Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism. But my uncle took me to attend their PD activities after completing my primary school education (known as Boys and Girls then that year...)
2008: I started chanting in 2003, received Gohonzon in 2004, and taking up leadership in end 2005. I involved in their Student Division activities from 2004 - 2006 with NPSD, and then once again end 2007 onwards with ITACSD. I took part in 3 NDPs (2004,2006,2008) since taking up faith, as well as 2005's YCF.

1998: My elder female cousins, Sheena and Melissa, were still schooling as Sec Sch student and Tertiary student respectively. The younger ones, such as Gerald and the younger Chias are still in Kindergarden. Yansen took PSLE with me in the same year.
2008: Sheena and Melissa are now married with kids. Gerald and the younger Chias are now in Secondary School. Yansen went through JC, NS earlier than me and now in NUS.

Remember Yakult's Tour...

2008-09-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

Where am I? Just make a guess...

The date is 1997, Valentine's Day lolx! It's been a facebook craze of sharing memories with pri sch mates... These old photos are posted on facebook, thanks to Mingfen and Weimei (This pic is contributed by her.), while I have created a group page dedicated to the class 6F of 1998. So far 25 of them are added.

10 years is such a long time... many things happened throughout these years ever since we have graduated from Pei Chun Public School. The world has been ever changing, while we may have grown and switched our favourite things.

Here's some of the lists of changes throughout these past 10 years:

1998 - Backstreet Boys and Spice Girls used to rule the music scene, while mandarin songs were still ruled by those four heavenly kings, Jolin Tsai and Jay Chou were not even in the scene yet.
2008 - Jolin Tsai is my favourite female artist aka "Dreamgirl", while I roam the KTV with songs from Jay Chou, Alan Luo Zhi Xiang and Nicholas Teo. Emo boyband songs no longer rule the English music scene, and I hardly listen to English Songs...except for Avril Lavigne and Linkin Park perhaps?

1998 - There's a longest running TV comedy show by the name of "Comedy Night", while its main presenter Jack Neo and his sidekicks produced their record-breaking first ever movie by the name of "Money No Enough"... its quality not-so-good though.
2008 - "Comedy Night" no longer airs on Channel 8... but Jack Neo continues to make movies after movies, including 2008's Money No Enough 2... its quality is much much better.

1998 - Titanic hit the World's box office records and Leonardo Dicaprio became every girl's favourite boy. The year also saw another great Disaster movie in Armageddon starring Bruce Willis, Ben Affleck and Liv Tyler.
2008 - No movie overwrites Titanic's records but there were quite a number of great movies over these 10 years... Lord of the Rings, King Kong, Batman: The Dark Knight, Transformers, Harry Potter series, and of course, Spiderman series. Meanwhile, Leonardo Dicaprio had grown mature and became a better actor. Scarlett Johansson, Lindsay Lohan, Kirsten Durst... some of the Hollywood's hottest stars to name a few.

1998 - France won the World Cup at their home soil. Zinedine Zidane was the best footballer. Ronaldo was everyone's superstar. David Beckham got a red by giving a kick on Diego Simeone and became England's public enemy no.1, but he was ladies' favourite.
2008 - Spain won Euro 2008 in Austria. Zidane retired 2 years ago, after giving some head butt on Materazzi in the last World Cup Final, and this time, France lost the game... yet he was a legend of an era. Ronaldo became a World Cup winner and Golden Boot winner in 2002's finals, but soon his career faded once more...Overweight, Long-term injury again and went to look for some (AGUA) hookers. David Beckham married Posh Spice, won 'Treble' with Man U in 1999 and became England captain throughout these past 10 years... then joined Real Madrid and then LA Galaxy... his no.7 shirt at Man U was taken over by yet another ladies' favourite... Cristiano Ronaldo.

1998 - Liverpool was co-managed by Gerard Houllier and Roy Evans. Evans left halfway through the season though. Michael Owen was the GOLDEN boy, and he scored a legendary goal against Argentina in the World Cup.
2008 - Liverpool is co-owned by George Gillett and Tom Hicks. There's Rafa Benitez who replaced Houllier, and he led them to 2005's Champions League victory. Owen is at Newcastle United now instead(In between, he went to Real Madrid), while Fernando Torres is the golden boy in scoring and Steven Gerrard is the one who replaced Owen in every Reds fan's heart.

1998 - Team Singapore won just 3 golds at the Asian Games in Bangkok. The national football team won its first ever international trophy in Tiger Cup.
2008 - Team Singapore won a sliver in the Beijing Olympics,ending some 48-years of wait...while the national football team became the Champions of Southeast Asia in 2004/5 and 2007, and posed a tougher challenge to the rest of Asian powerhouses in football. Even though these teams consist of foreign talents... Meanwhile more recently, Singapore won a historical gold in Paralympics... this time by a swimmer who happened to be a student of Bendemeer Secondary School... Yip Pin Xiu.

1998 - F1 racing... a championship chase between Ferrari and McClaren... Michael Schumacher and Mika Hakkinen... Hakkinen and McClaren eventually won the season... and no one ever thinks Singapore will host a leg of the championship in the future...
2008 - Yet another two horse race between Ferrari and McClaren... Filippe Massa and Lewis Hamilton... while Hamilton is in the lead and Ferrari in the lead for constructors... and Singapore is going to host the first ever F1 night race... a street circuit... this coming Sunday night.

(More of the list to come through my brain-storming...)

Sengkang South Chapter Friendship Gathering

2008-09-23T21:10:00.003+08:00

The entire Youth Dance group...

The entire performers for the day !!!

After involving in not only just SKS CFG, but also the other two CFGs from the Sengkang Zone, it is overall a success for these CFGs for SK Zone despite not being able to hit the target attendance. The attendances have been reasonable though... not too bad for a zone which is just formed at the end of last year.

Meanwhile, I feel that I have known my members such as my cousin, Yixiong, as well as Kelvin more throughout these dance practices leading up to CFGs. Yixiong is able to turn up for dance practices and performances despite having his schedules packed due to tuitions and studies at the beginning, and I believe he has a potential in dancing, since he joins the dance group in school.

Nevertheless, this is just a beginning for Sengkang South Chapter and the rest of SK Zone. Let's make bigger victories and great growth in the years to come... XD