我爱的人...不是我的爱人

She's there.... she's destined to be mine...... but she wants diamonds... but I always can't afford to have diamonds... something I always fail to achieve...

I am not talking about yet another love tale of my life.(Of course, I won't like someone who is THAT materialistic. And well in real life, if only there's a right person who is really there for me rather than "我爱的人不是我的爱人, 她心里每一寸都属于另一个人" or those one-sided, broken relationships or whatsoever relationship karma...) That "she" refers to the Sergeant rank that I am wanting for... come this August. Though it's gonna be bigger responsibilities in NS, it also means pay raise!!! But too bad... I have to overcome the "Pull-Up" karma. Those "diamonds" that I am saying refers to passing IPPT.

Last Tuesday was such a disappointing day. I could only do 3 times... rather than the passing standard of 6. No point of doing other stations when I got to achieve 15 points in other IPPT stations before I can retake just pull-up in the retest, since my scores in other stations are just average, I chose to leave before the 2.4 km run. There's 18 days left for me to pass the entire IPPT and qualified for that SGT course.

After some other disappointing moments which happened in my life recently, it seems that passing IPPT and going for the SGT course is the only thing that I can realistically achieve at this stage.

It's all or nothing.

Well... I missed my NDP training today. Not feeling well today... feeling emo perhaps. Nowadays I been also involving in the preparations the 90 sec presentation for ITAC as well as catching some EURO 2008 matches after the exams... while sacrificing some sleep for all these, I spent lunch hours going gym, training for my IPPT rather than taking some power nap. Meanwhile, something happened to my cousin. I don't wish to blog what really happen to him... for now.

I just don't wanna get tired... I just wanna play my part in the preparations for the 90 sec presentations alongside my fellow ITAC mates and other gakkai activities and encourage everyone around me. I don't wish to fall by all these mixed feelings and bitter disappointments...(Oh... are they really bitter ???)

Finally, to end this post, I shall post this video which has a part of its lyrics as the title of this blog.



我爱的人 by 林宥嘉... he's done better than the original singer, Jordan Chan... Though Jordan's version also not bad and his expressions in his MV is more EMO... it's such a sad song afterall when it relates about you like someone, but she is attached with someone else, and it seems that you do not have a chance afterall... that kind of sh*tty feelings...

Ha... call me king of 苦情歌(Bitter love songs) if you like...