I am not a good son

After some almost 5 years since I started taking up faith, it seems that I failed to show any great actual proof to my parents. Or I been improving myself, yet they just fail to see, or just don't bother to think of it ?

Well, now it looks more like I fail to do my human revolution at home.

That's why I say I am not a good son.

Sad to say... there's a communication gap between me and parents. Lack of understanding perhaps... while my father is one who just wanna keeps his problems to himself. I got nothing to say...

I am just being a "perennial underachiever".... a "perennial underachiever" in studies, in love, in sports, in family, or perhaps... in life. But I have been trying hard to shed off this tag in recent times, just like how Spain did in football. Perhaps, the word which I type -- "trying hard" doesn't mean I have tried a lot. Not a lot.

I have a positive first 6 months in 2008. Now it seems like devilish functions are coming over and running over me again... just like how they did in the past.

I never want to see disappointments in the end (again).

Never......