Upset

I don't mean to write my complaint of my life...

And I don't wish to write such unhappiness at the beginning of the year.

But at the end of the day, I do feel sour and feeling left out when my family's not being invited to one of my cousin's birthday celebrations. That honestly speaks of my family ties with my extended family.

Back to the days from toddler to pre-school, I enjoyed my best early childhood with these maternal cousins. But that slowly went downhill, especially after my dear mum got seriously sick when I was at a preschool age of 5ive. I am not here to blame my mum, but it's a fact. Family relationships just dwindle and we only met once a year..............................during Chinese New Year.

Yes, I don't have the best of my family life where the rest of my peers have after the age of 5, while I suffer numerous setbacks from my studies to my love life. And seriously as I grow up, I envy the family bond as shown in Moonlight Resonance. (家好月圆)

Now, I have another reason why I definitely must show actual proofs by achieving my desired resolutions in 2010.