NgeeAnn Revisited

Met up with Kaiyang, Stella & Lijia to complete the Blazing Sun Skit Script at NgeeAnn Poly after Stella ended her revision lessons at the nearby SIM. It is the first time that I made a return to NP since the graduation ceremony. We chose a spot at Blk 56 and spent the entire evening completing everything, while my 5 yr old laptop just can't detect the wireless network! After spending some good hours doing a wonderful script, joking & talking around and also fooling Benjamin on MSN, we left the school at 11pm++. I have broken the record of leaving NP at the latest time as a NP Alumni since I had never left the campus soo late before even in the times of rushing projects as a NP student.

Anyway, 大家辛苦了... just less than a week left and there may be things that still need to be touch up and each of everyone's struggles, I believe we can put on a good show and overall the institution meeting...

Speaking of NP...Let me share something. Last Friday I went to Zouk and spotted someone who looked soo familiar. Unable to confirm whether I recognised the right person, I just couldn't even give a wink or a smile, while she did stare at me also. Eventually, she was a classmate in my first year of NP, whom I did... have a crush on. Well, 5 years ago, things just turned sour between me and her and it's just barely the first few months into the start of my polylife... I don't wish to say what happen. What I can say is back then, I was just a attention-seeking, somehow irritating, trying-to-be-funny-but-not-funny person. To say it in a bad term... a Big Loser.

However, back then she was one of the reasons why I took up faith in Nichiren Buddhism and joined SSA. 5 years on... How much things have changed, I continued my human revolutions and received lots of good fortunes and personal breakthroughs, despite there were also times of low-tides in my life. Eventually I realised that she indeed not the one for me(Same went to her of course!) in this typical one-sided relationship of mine, even before she left NP at the end of year 1 to transfer to another institution. Meanwhile, I can't deny that I did lack the good fortune to find the right person in the name of love... (4 years later which was last year, I would suffer yet another heartbreak...another one-sided relationship...错爱... can I use this word?)

Perhaps these bad histories will make me a good boyfriend in the future when I finally meet the right person...

At this point once again, despite such a huge love karma happened in my life, I am not going to let all these bad histories haunt me.(Though all these bad memories do led me to self-low esteem and lack of confidence.) While I continue to rejuvenate my life and set a different and better me from the past, I believe there will be a right and special one standing in front of me through my efforts in polishing my life.

By the way, no more 错爱... no more 心碎重播 in the future... =o