2009...A hardest lesson learnt.

I should have been mentally prepared that they will lambast back on me the moment I broke my personal feelings out to them.

I should have been mentally prepared that they will definitely ostracized me the moment I broke my personal feelings out to them.

At the start, it was all my fault... for not controlling my emotions and for being over-sensitive once again.

And now... 6 months had gone and when there's not enough understandings between me and them, it's time to move on.

Moving on is something which is easier said than done. Furthermore, the more these people are closer to me, the harder the process of moving on will take. But up to this point, I am desperate, desperate need to.

2009 is not really a bad year though, yet there's a hardest lesson learnt. I have enough of myself commiting mistakes in friendships over and over again. Right now, I need a completely new life, something that I must work on. I will like to establish close and strong friendships with other present friends and any other new friends which I may meet in the next phase of my life, and I must NEVER commit the same mistakes again.

Kieran Chia Yiheng, you must overcome all these karma ONCE and for all, please do your human revolution each day, push harder to achieve your goals (especially your studies) and show ACTUAL PROOF to those who have doubted and misunderstand you !!!

There's no point for me to be emotional anymore.