洋葱

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒专属的剧情

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意(X2)

你会鼻酸 你会流泪 只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

Respect

So what if I have a rank call Corporal ??? I am just being soft at the juniors... I am no good in the talking... and I am afraid those juniors will just climb over my head... oh have they done that ? And speaking of THAT video which I have mentioned soo furiously in the previous posts, I was DISGUSTED when a girlfriend of one colleague (No names...) also watched it... that's humiliating and embarrassing... seriously it's not funny.

Max is right... In an environment in the name of National Service, even in such a less-regimental place calls Office, one shall gain the RESPECT from the peers rather than friendships. Perhaps sometimes the use of RANK is necessary... especially at this current state of my NS life.

And well, I need to be MEAN. And perhaps, I am prepared to get condemned.

Personal DNA Test

Learn about this online test via Darran's blog... and it states quite true about me.

My Report - Know More About Me.

My personalDNA Report

Meanwhile, you can try out this test and know more about yourself via this site.

http://www.personaldna.com/

自恋

This is my Ezlink Card during Bendemeer Days... A skinny nerdy one.

That's another. for NgeeAnn Polytechnic. Taking here with a centre-parting, convict look.

Here's more later... dated 09/01/2007... my enlistment date. My NSIC aka 11B, while my pinky IC is somewhere soo close yet soo far.

Well, I guess the below's more better.

NgeeAnn Revisited

Met up with Kaiyang, Stella & Lijia to complete the Blazing Sun Skit Script at NgeeAnn Poly after Stella ended her revision lessons at the nearby SIM. It is the first time that I made a return to NP since the graduation ceremony. We chose a spot at Blk 56 and spent the entire evening completing everything, while my 5 yr old laptop just can't detect the wireless network! After spending some good hours doing a wonderful script, joking & talking around and also fooling Benjamin on MSN, we left the school at 11pm++. I have broken the record of leaving NP at the latest time as a NP Alumni since I had never left the campus soo late before even in the times of rushing projects as a NP student.

Anyway, 大家辛苦了... just less than a week left and there may be things that still need to be touch up and each of everyone's struggles, I believe we can put on a good show and overall the institution meeting...

Speaking of NP...Let me share something. Last Friday I went to Zouk and spotted someone who looked soo familiar. Unable to confirm whether I recognised the right person, I just couldn't even give a wink or a smile, while she did stare at me also. Eventually, she was a classmate in my first year of NP, whom I did... have a crush on. Well, 5 years ago, things just turned sour between me and her and it's just barely the first few months into the start of my polylife... I don't wish to say what happen. What I can say is back then, I was just a attention-seeking, somehow irritating, trying-to-be-funny-but-not-funny person. To say it in a bad term... a Big Loser.

However, back then she was one of the reasons why I took up faith in Nichiren Buddhism and joined SSA. 5 years on... How much things have changed, I continued my human revolutions and received lots of good fortunes and personal breakthroughs, despite there were also times of low-tides in my life. Eventually I realised that she indeed not the one for me(Same went to her of course!) in this typical one-sided relationship of mine, even before she left NP at the end of year 1 to transfer to another institution. Meanwhile, I can't deny that I did lack the good fortune to find the right person in the name of love... (4 years later which was last year, I would suffer yet another heartbreak...another one-sided relationship...错爱... can I use this word?)

Perhaps these bad histories will make me a good boyfriend in the future when I finally meet the right person...

At this point once again, despite such a huge love karma happened in my life, I am not going to let all these bad histories haunt me.(Though all these bad memories do led me to self-low esteem and lack of confidence.) While I continue to rejuvenate my life and set a different and better me from the past, I believe there will be a right and special one standing in front of me through my efforts in polishing my life.

By the way, no more 错爱... no more 心碎重播 in the future... =o

I miss a CLASSIC

The final @ Istanbul, 2005 will always be one of my unforgettable football match, but I miss yet another triumphant comeback by Liverpool, when they overcame those away goals by Arsenal to finish them 4-2 at Anfield. Somehow I should have sacrifice some sleep to watch this classic of the season, despite my busy schedule.

Anyway, I will not have a chance to watch Champions League football for some period in the future. Since Singtel MioTv has bought the broadcasting rights of the Champions League from next season (Or the 2009/10 season ???), sometimes competition is bad, especially between cable TV companies, it makes football fans to suffer.

Next Liverpool will face Chelsea, fiercy arch-rival minus Jose, and whom they meet for the 3rd time in the Semi-Finals. And in the previous meetings they beat and advanced to the finale, especially the memorable 2005 win. Perhaps everything happens for a reason. I hope Reds will beat them again and met hopefully, Man U, in the final. An All English Final Between The Traditional Rivals in the Making ??? The Battle Of England Derby ???

I been working on the skit based on Blazing Sun Chapter of Human Revolution for next ITACSD's institution meeting on 19th April alongside Lijia, Stella and Kaiyang and time is just a little more than a week away while everyone also struggle with our own schedules. Guess I shall work on my part of the script right away and may the institution meeting be a success next Saturday.

Pissed Off And May Karma Strikes On Whoever...

I get a rude shock when I was back home after last night's orderly and found this shocking comment in the previous post, which I had hid it.

Anonymous said...
Sgt Yi Heng V********, please check out my video @ http://www.youtube.com/**************

The video was a embarrassing one(Not Edison's type) taken last year and obviously the culprit who posted this and that video on Youtube is someone from my dept.

What's the gain trying to humiliate me ? For your own amusement? For your own pleasure? For my embarrassment? I can't believe such people exists on this earth. And I bet you are more fortunate than me currently.

SO's WHAT THE POINT TRYING TO HUMILIATE ME ??? Excuse me for being pissed off at the moment. I am disappointed with whowhatsoever trying to make a fool out of me. I am more disappointed and double pissed off if that you are the same fella who always put on those fake smiles on me and inflicted that birthday incident which made me looked like a fool and prolonged my long-term relationship karma, and insisted that you are NOT the mastermind, and repeated to claim yourself as my good friend despite after that saga. And if you are that fella, what for doing all those sh*t when you are already attached while I am just a silly poor guy not to be loved ?

And may Karma strikes on who what so ever who built his pleasure and happiness on others' pains. Justice must be done.

First NDP Training

40th post and I shall talk about the NDP training happened just hours ago...

Met up with Perry, Peter & Glenn for the first training and met more friends along the way... from fellow crew of M&D fest to ITACSD mates... it is a marvellous time building bonds and catching up with each and every one of them and made new friends throughout the next 4 months... I shall make it happen.

Dinner session before and Supper session after, anyone ?

Meanwhile, dance steps using flags can train my arms muscles, apart from those twice-a-week gym session at HQ on weekdays. Next 4 months will be very challenging, with my ACCA exams coming up also in June and my quest to pass my IPPT, and of course, that's a lot of gakkai activities for me to plan, to work on, to breakthrough, to create values, to accumulate good fortune.

Youth is the time to strive.

Testing

Trying to play song on this blog to bring some entertainment out here... will expand it into a playlist sooner... =)

寂寞那么多

天色开始朦胧 呼吸慢慢沉重
曾经深情的承诺 像吹过的风 说什么天长地久
只是敷衍带过 心中的痛 眼泪融入 漆黑的夜雨中

分开 我们都选择了不回头
而从今以后
冰冷的手再也尝不到你的温柔

为什么寂寞总是那么多 总习惯独自温习你遗留的伤痛
我不想再观赏心碎重播 彼此都隔着一层膜 静静的擦肩而过

(X2)

空旷房间里头 只残留着合照里的虚伪温柔
放开所有 拥抱着自由 让一切重头

为什么寂寞总是那么多 在孤单夜里包扎你留下的伤口
我不想再观赏心碎重播 心里那失落的梦 静静的随风飘落(静静的擦肩而过)

I learn this new song today, which is english is called "Too much of loneliness"... yet another emo sad love song by 张栋梁 aka Nicholas Teo. Perhaps it is the most emo of all after 寂寞边界(Lonely Borders), 痛彻心扉(The Pain Of My Heart), 错了再错(Mistakes after Mistakes)... etc. Well, I love singing his songs whenever going for any KTV session. Perhaps these songs speak of those heart-broken stories of my past. This new hit best speaks what of I have been going through in this lifetime till now.

Like what one phrase in the chorus which reads, "我不想再观赏心碎重播" (I don't wish to see heartbreak repeats again..."). Long-term loneliness is tragical, while no one wants to be heart-broken (over and over again). Especially Me.

Enough of Emoing, I am back to strong life-force, strong challenges and continue my "August Quadruple" resolutions, after some past week of low-life condition (Some NS struggles, sickness...etc). Hah. I will do everything to overcome all these struggles, accumulate good fortunes, for my growth and not to let 心碎重播... Everything must not be repeated again. I told myself.

Now is Saturday, the day of NDP training later on at 6.30 pm. My third one with SSA after previous even years in 2004 and 2006. Let's make the next 4 months a very very different and great one from the previous experiences.