Last Day Of January...

And 9 more days to my 22nd birthday.

While February set to be yet another anticipating & challenging month. Why do I say soo ???

My birthday... Another Year Older... Seems like I am ageing, yet there's soo much yet to be achieved in this life.

Chinese New Year Celebrations... Another Occasion to me to celebrate with friends and relatives. Though this year the festive spirits may be waning abit partly no thanks to the recent inflations in Singapore, Still I am looking forward meeting friends and relatives and thus, building friendships and kinships.

Promotion as Corporal... Up one rank means bigger responsibility and better standard work

Exam Results Come Out... I am worrying haha.

First 4D meeting for Sengkang South Chapter District 2..... the first for the new district.

Meanwhile, the following are my birthday resolutions... though it is very similar to my daily prayers or I should say... my new year resolutions.

- My parents to be healthy and happy. Especially my mum...
- Revamp my image both internally (Character wise) and externally (Looks, Body & Fitness Building).... Overall I should say... Human Revolution
- Continue to exert myself in Soka Activities, especially in my district & ITACSD.
- Building strongest bonds with all my friends and adding new friends in this social circle
- Be a sincere and good listener to everyone when they have problems and try my utmost best to help them
- Do well in my ACCA part-time studies... despite it's being a tough course.
- Save more money
- Have the good fortune to meet the right & special one whom I will feel comfortable, blissful and interested with, and she must feel the same way too.
- Complete my driving license by this year
- Further improving my interest in singing and football

Quite A lot Right ?...... Guess I must work really hard to achieve everything...

For Sengkang South Chapter Youths

http://www.sengkang-south-chapter.blogspot.com/

Just created it. =)

Night Orderly

Doing Night Orderly last night at the HQ guardhouse. What I did there was just taking charge of the key presses which kept the keys of various departments and rooms. Meanwhile, Fey was also there, doing his routine guard duty.

Looking quite bored though as there was no PSP or portable DVD player to keep me company. However, I took out notes of Corporate Law to kill some time away, and ordered Mac for supper.

I couldn't sleep at the guard room bunk though. There were some itchness and I found myself scratching away at sleep, since I was not sleeping directly to the fans. There used to have air-cons though. Glad that I made the decision to take a whole day off instead of half day today.

Therefore, after the duty, I just simply put myself to sleep the whole morning.

Shape Of My Heart

hmm, yeah, yeah
baby,please try to forgive me
stay here don't put out the glow
hold me now don't bother
if every minute it makes me weaker
you can save me from the man that i've become
oh yeah
lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part, kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart
sadness is beautiful
loneliness is tragical
so help me i can't win this war
oh no
touch me now don't bother
if every second it makes me weaker
you can save me from the man i've become
lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part, kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart
i'm here with my confession
got nothing to hide no more
i don't know where to start
but to show you the shape of my heart
i'm lookin' back on things i've done
i never wanna play the same old part
i'll keep you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart
lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part, kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart
lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part, kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart
show you the shape of my heart

Still listening to this old school song... brings me back those Secondary School memories. This's one of my favourite of Backstreet Boys', alongside "I'll never break your heart", "I want it that way" and "Show me the meaning of being lonely".

Remember this Ad by Ryan Giggs ???

This was quite long time ago... Giggs was just still a young chap then...

And this... I found this making of M & D Festival too.

Went to buy clothes after RT yesterday and bought the sweater from Espirit which I had noticed after Raymond's farewell dinner the day before. With that sweater, I could match it with long sleeve shirt and hopefully I really look good with that. =)

Went for M & D Post Celebration BBQ after that and was the first time that I met up with most of the lads since the actual show. It was an indeed memorable performance which kicked off 2008, while the food at the BBQ was great !!! Meanwhile, we were given our various performance pictures and the DVD. While there were the "awards" for the casts.

Went for Gajokai duty this morning at Senja Soka Centre alongside with Jiayang and Jeron and it was kinda crowded at the centre since there were morning gongyo and the Gohonzon confernment. It was my first duty of the year and next month I would be doing another Sunday morning slot for next month... kinda challenging to wake up early on Sunday mornings.

Time Count

Today is 26 January 2008 and it shall be...

348 Days to ORD...

340 Days to End Of 2008...

14 Days and 6 months to NDP 2008... I am lazy to count the exact number of days at this hour while I hope I will be there at Marina Bay Floating Platform Stand that day...

19 Days to Valentine Day (For this... I put a "=) or =(" and a heart shape on my calendar...

14 Days to My 22th Birthday... Which is the 3rd day of Chinese New Year...and that will likely be a CNY celebration with ITAC SD at Roy's house and my mum's extended family at Aunt Mary's house...

12 Days to Chinese New Year...

7 Days to My Early Birthday Dinner with 2e1 Peeps...

6 Days to My Promotion to Corporal...

19 Hours to M & D Fest Post Celebration BBQ...

12 Hours to Another CNY Shopping Spree with Perry, Nic and Zhenbang (Possible...)

7 Hours and 30 minutes to Another RT Training...

Ok... That's it.

For the best to happen...

Went for Sunday Odyssey and learnt about the hard efforts and struggles which the pioneer leaders been through during the early days of SSA. I felt the younger generations, including myself, are just being pampered... it seems that everything has always prepared for us, and somehow we may take things for granted. Without all the struggles and tears our pioneer leaders been through, SSA will not be what it is today, and I may not be practising this buddhism today.

The new replacement for my maid still yet to come. The agency looks c*ck up... And my maid seems reluctant to stay a little days longer. Can understand why... My mum is someone hard to get along with, especially when facing her all day long. But what to do ??? She's a sick patient with a low life condition, with 0 belief in any religion. It's her karma... or I should say, it's my family karma.

What I worry most is not whether the new replacement can do a good job like the current one does, is whether she can get along with my mum. Hopefully there should be no language barrier between my family and the replacement...

What I want is the good fortune for the best to happen in my family, especially my mum's daily livings... and everything to go smoothly.

Meanwhile, let's keep a strong mindset going !!! There's many things for me to plan and do for the year...

Good fortunes will come.

How are you now ?

I wish you are happy... Indeed, without asking, I know you lead a happy and fulfilling life.

I still wanna sms(or even call) you as an approach but don't know what to start. No point of sending messages like "How are you doing ?"... You may not replying me back anyway.

These past weeks, are you seeing someone new ? I know I don't HAVE the rights to ask you around... But if you do, I hope he treats you well.

This weekend's been Jay Chou's concert, I would have like to ask you whether you wanna go and watch ??? Since you are his fan... But I don't know how to start, or where to start, especially when this friendship doesn't even look good afterall. Last August I could have asked you to watch "Secret", but that period was the start of your poor response.

I am still sorry for that Birthday Incident. I am just a fool without wisdoms to make decisions, never taking any serious thoughts whether it's a prank or not. But I am sorry if my appearance somehow spoils your celebration that night, even though I was the one who was scammed. Afterall, this simple friendship already doesn't seem to look good before it happened.

Perhaps you don't wanna give me a chance afterall... even as good friends... Just that you just don't want to be soo direct to me, or you are afraid that I can't take this blow... even when I ask you online whether you found anything uncomfortable about me ???

I am just a noob who don't even know what a serious relationship's like... Don't know what to start, where to start, how to start. I am just lacked of wisdom. It is just one of the karmas in my life.

I still chanting for the hopes that we can at least back to talking terms, in the meantime I am progressing, working harder than before, be it my studies, my NS, my Soka Activities, my social life, my family life, my image, my human revolution...etc etc. There are cold shoulders, jeers, criticism along the way but I just wanna make 2008 a tremendous success.

Don't be pissed if you ever come across this blog one day. These are some of my thoughts, though it may cause any constroversies. But if you do, I will remove this straight away...

Or perhaps, I should do of the following...

"冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管...只要你能愉快"

End of this post... and STOP EMOING... Chia Yiheng Kieran

沉默玩具

變成了一個影
隱藏了自己
愛情困難呼吸
我是沉默玩具
執著對你無限期
模糊我自己
不愿升上白旗
輸了你的遊戲
你和他
對街擁抱
我看到

為什麼愛上你的人 是我 ?
為什麼一廂情願的人 會難過 ?
為什麼對你捨不得的人 總是我 ?
愛上你 需要那真情意
鎖在日記裡

寂寞點點不休息
而讓甜蜜卻也忘記
幸福不再美麗
可是我會在意
執著對你無限期
我模糊我自己
不願意升上白旗
輸了你的遊戲
你和他
對街擁抱
我看到

為什麼愛上你的人 是我 ?
為什麼一廂情願的人 會難過 ?
為什麼對你捨不得的人 總是我 ?
愛上你 需要那真情意
鎖在日記裡

為什麼對你捨不得 總是我 ?
愛上你 需要那真情意

真愛你的人會難過
為什麼對你捨不得 總是我 ?
愛上你 需要那真情意
鎖在日記裡...

Just learn about this song though it is considered a old song from Gary 曹格's debut album about 2 years ago...in english translation, it is "Silent Toy". It is such a emo song, somehow it reads about my feelings, my lovelife...

Went bowling again... Been into bowling this week. I been playing many games just to improve my bowling... at least I can hit the pins, unlike those days where my ball gets into the drains for don't know how many frustrating moments. What a surprising score to me given that I am not been playing bowling for almost 2 years...

However, that's alot for me to learn and improve.

The last time Liverpool won the league...... in 1990

Bayclays English Premier League was STILL the Football League First Division, under the same sponsorship of Bayclays Bank.

UEFA Champions League was still named the European Cup officially... with AC Milan the winners.

My mum was a very healthy mother who was still working as a civilian officer at ICA.

I was studying nursery at YWCA Kindergarden and lived at my babysitter's place at Chin Swee Estate, only back home at Toa Payoh on weekends.

Singapore National Team was still playing "Domestic" football in Malaysia with the likes of Fandi and Sundramoothy playing club football for state teams instead.

There was no S-League of course. But there was already a semi-pro league in the nation.

Diego Maradona was the best footballer in the world.

Mr Goh Chok Tong succeeded Mr Lee Kuan Yew as the Prime Minister later in that year.

Beyond and Anita Mui ruled the Chinese/Canto Pop Scene, with the rise of 4 Heavenly Kings.

Toa Payoh Bus Interchange was still located at the current HDB Hub location. No Air-Con... A Large one.

There were only 2 Fast Food outlets at the heartlands of Toa Payoh... McDonald's & KFC(They were still Kentucky Fried Chicken)

There were only 3 Soka Centres in Singapore...SYC(STILL Pasir Panjang), Geylang & Telok Blangah

Of Course... I was not practising Nichiren Buddhism, or perhaps I was not even introduced to.

The hottest cartoons on earth were Ninja Turtles & Transformers.

Steven Gerrard & Jamie Carragher were still in primary school. Fernando Torres ? still in pre-school perhaps.

Gary Lineker was the chief striker for England, Bryan Robson was the England captain, and the rise of Paul "Gazza" Gascoigne.

Bobby Robson was still the England manager.

Germany won the World Cup later in June that year... and Gazza's tears in the Semi Finals.

Mediacorp was still SBC. There was no SCV... Football Coverages were all in Channel 12. Occassionally English League matches, Singapore's fortunes in Malaysia football & the World Cup.

TV shows only started in the afternoons on weekdays.

There were only 3 polytechnics in Singapore. SP and NP... while TP just formed.

Lastly, I did not know any of my friends yet !!!

That's all I can think of when Liverpool last won the league in 1990.

Feeling Emo.

Apologies if I am still feeling EMO... especially online. Perhaps my desire to overcome all these karma in my life grows year after year. Well, I am fine, and all these underachieving problems somehow motivates me by leading me to actions, changing myself around, regardless of image or inner-character building. And I want all these human revolution to continue for the rest of the year... and after.

Dedicate this song to all my beloved friends... it's my latest favourable EMO Song. AND I am looking forward to sing this in future KTV sessions...

歌曲：我不会唱歌

歌手：罗志祥

这首为你点播的歌
如果我先哭了
怎么唱到最后
是的 感情不是k歌
音阶一字不漏
不见得感动
我也懂 拿麦的手 不能颤抖
曾握着 就能感受你比我难过
谁写的 歌词那么适合放手
我怎能舍不得

我努力唱完主歌 我忘了走音没有
我到底哭什么 哭什么 明明搞笑的
我努力唱好朋友 我忘了是谁哭了
就算你不记得 这首歌唱完的是我

这首为你点播的歌
如果我先哭了
怎么唱到最后
是的 感情不是k歌
音阶一字不漏 不见得感动
我也懂 拿麦的手不能颤抖
曾握着 就能感受你比我难过
谁写的 歌词那么适合放手
我怎能舍不得

我努力唱完主歌 我忘了走音没有
我到底哭什么 哭什么 明明搞笑的
我努力唱好朋友 我忘了是谁哭了
就算你不记得 这首歌唱完的是我

我努力唱完这歌 我忘了破音没有
你心里触动的 下一首已经不是我
我努力唱到嘶吼 我不怕剩我一个
只要你能记得 这首歌给我最爱的

It's Weekend !!!

Around 8 hrs later...

I will be going for my RT !

And then...

Going Lawrence's Wedding via Samm's car ???

After which...

Meeting Perry & also my member Glenn for NDP Audition...

After that...

The Chapter Youth BBQ @ East Coast Park...

That's sums up my Saturday.

Meanwhile, Sunday will be the RHQ2 leaders conference for that whole afternoon. I could be seeing her again... But will I say a simple "Hi" ??? I been seeing her for a few occasions since THAT incident and we look more like strangers. Looks disappointing but what can I do ? The only next thing that I can do besides chanting to overcome all these is to say a friendly "hi" or just a smile when I really see her again. That's what I can say... no need to elaborate more.

Going for my evening prayers now. And the weather must be good...

1 year ago...

As promised, I shall write a post which commemorates my first year of NS.

1 year ago, on this day, I spent my first night at the 3rd level dorm of BRTC, starting the first of 7 weeks at Basic Rescue Training and National Service. Well, I should say I receive a great good fortune from the day I start my NS.

If I never went to CMPB to request for an early enlistment during late Nov 2006, I would not have enlisted at the very start of 2007. If anyone else here asked me why I chose to enlist early instead, I could say that I graduated from NP in August 2006 and did not wish to wait soo long, as most of my peers were already enlisted in the year of 2006. Upon I made that request, I was told by CMPB that there was no space for the Jan'07 intake, and I was given a letter stated I was scheduled for the Mar/Apr one instead.

However, miracles did happen... thanks to the power of daimoku.

Boxing Day 2006. 2 years anniversary of that Tsunami Disaster. I opened my letterbox and I was delighted to see my Enlistment letter and the letters from SCDF !!! Well, I wished I could have went to the Police Force instead but SCDF's not really a bad place to go. Meanwhile, I had only 2 weeks to prepare for the start of NS life.

January 09 2007 passed on and then there went those 7 weeks of staying in BRTC, where Friday evenings were the best and Sundays were very dreadful and low-life condition when I went back to Jalan Bahar, meanwhile making friends like Samm, Caleb, Jeremy, Andrew, Solikin, Ahmad, Lawrence, Jimson, Neo... the list goes on, while most of us went through Clerk Course and then, the posting to Ubi HQ.

After everything, I was posted to National Service Personnel Dept aka NSPD and I was there since. Raymond is there, my pri sch friend who stays around the same neighbourhood and he's leaving for Australia soon... I was located at the Computer Room (Some says the CONDEMN Room... No Thanks to My Senior whom I was replacing and I don't wish to say Names...), doing all those disruptions/Exit Permits stuffs for NSMen. Caleb is also there, posted to the Compactor Room which looks like a better place ??? While I also met nice friends like Gabriel, Gary(HiaDi), Xinyao, Jiazhao, Yaomin, Jeremy, Fabian, Marcellus......

There were struggles on and off NSPD, well I don't wish to further explain all these stuffs at this hour or else it would look more like a review of 2007 and being EMO. However, I was also given an opportunity to study ACCA part-time, all Thanks to my Office-hour schedule. There were also happier times, such as the Cruise trip.

I remembered what Chang Quan encouraged me before enlistment -- Set resolutions, what I want to achieve before I ROD. There are lots of things for me to undergo human revolution, to achieve, to fight for in 2008, like I mentioned before.

Well, may the Year 2 of NS be a joyous, wonderful and achieving one in terms of all my personal life.

This Week

Time's been slow since the start of the year, it's only Tuesday yet it looks more like a Wednesday, even my internet access's been lagging these days, now the typing speed of the com which I am doing now for this post is like a snail...zzz

Anyway, today's my first day of school and I am taking Corporate & Business Law. Seeing some familiar faces, while there are quite a lot of new classmates. Meanwhile, the lecturer is quite interesting, talking about his experience as a policeman/lawyer in the past, and sharing how young-looking his wife is... he's like another Mr Nageb, the only difference is he gives 2 breaks and release us earlier !

Yesterday went for the planning meeting at Ann Nee's house for this coming Saturday's Chapter BBQ and I took up the role for the logistics side. It's looked kinda challenging and I usually either involved in buying of food or just being a guest that being "spoon-fed" in the past BBQs. There's a lot of preparations for me to plan and to be done in order for the event to be a great success. I won't list out the things that I gonna do as anyone who read it may feel sleepy and those who planned BBQs will knew what's all about, just that there are more things for me to do.
Actually, I am not been a good organiser and it's about time for me to make a breakthrough and for the growth of capability. Like what I say before... No Actions, Nothing happens, No chance of success. It should be a platform that enables me to do a good job, a good planner.

Meanwhile, this coming Saturday will be another packed one.

Remedial Training... NDP Audition... BBQ

While I try to squeeze some time in to attend one of my ex platoon-mate, Lawrence's wedding at noontime.

2008 is all about taking actions and creating victories, especially I had one year left in NS. If I got time tomorrow, I may write a post which commemorates 1 year of NS. Meanwhile, today is also the enlistment day of the new intake, which means 2 of my ex BSS schoolmates, Hisyam and Shabir, went in today... to SCDF !!! (From what I heard)

There is a high possibility that they may posted to Ubi HQ after they POP. Both are in PES C intake and they stay near Ubi. Well, it's been quite a few years since I last talked to Hisyam. I was quite pissed off with him, no thanks to his over sarcasm and mockings on and off the football field. But I don't know how is him now. I hope he changes to a more mature and nicer person (From what I heard from the rest, he's a changed guy.)... and I hope to see these 2 soon.

Perhaps at HQ SCDF.

M & D Festival

It's been a long time since I last acted in a skit, and this was a major one. For M &D Festival, I started involved around late November 2007 and after going through numerous rehearsals, and at the same time getting to know more new friends in this play, the fifth day of 2008 was the actual day. Meanwhile, I was playing a villainous role for the first time -- A prosecutor who interrogated Sensei over and over again in the Osaka incident. I was being soo evil, giving that kind of villainous look, that evil smile, that barking voice......



That's the poster of the much anticipated show and we will send it together with the video of our performance to Japan as a birthday gifts for Ikeda Sensei !!!

From the start of the year, it's been a start of a new battle (Or I should say, a renewed battle when some resolutions of the past years failed to be achieved over and over again, something that I had enough of ???) in my life. This show was a tremendous success and served as a positive start for 2008.

While I want greater things to come in the year, through my actions. This year I will also be taking part in NDP, and Perry may be joining me as a non-member(aka "New Friend"). Anyone else interested in joining NDP ? Be quick cos this year SSA only needs 400 females and 200 males and the audition is on 12th and 20th of January !

Meanwhile, I must strive to cope alongside with my studies and NS if I "qualify" for NDP...

First Day Of 2008, First Post

This shall be the 3rd blog that I will ever create in my life, and it's some time since I last blogged, in late 2006.

Currently I am into the 2nd year of my NS life, doing part-time studies in ACCA Accounting Degree, and continue to be active in Soka activites. Into 2008, I must be ready to face any challenges and create greater victories in this year to come, after a somehow fulfilling yet eventful 2007, where some resolutions set for the past year were done, met with some good fortunes, while some just continued to be disappointing as before.

My resolutions for the new year are long, what I can say is in every areas in my life, be it my studies, my lovelife, my sociallife, my family, my roles in SSA and my remaining NS life, there must be a breakthrough. Breakthroughs that led me to victories and happiness. Meanwhile, I want to clinch my driving license by this new year ends, as well as improving my fitness and sports, plus my singing.

Tomorrow's back to NS again. A somehow different start as I will be doing the monthly report in a different format. A format that looks challenging. Meanwhile, this Saturday will be a packed one, with RT(Remedial Training for IPPT) and Mentor & Disciple Festival Drama Concert's coming up.

That's it for now.