2010

I normally will write the review of the year at the very last day of the year, but that's no point in writing that way. Especially when your year had promised so much, yet ended up nothing.

I could vividly remember how much resolutions and hopes I had put on for this year at the very end of 2009.

I could vividly remember how much I had prayed for and fought for throughout the year.

In the end, it doesn't even matter.

December 2010 just simply made December 2009 look more sweeter.

Certainly, there were some good times in the year... Such as involving in SYM and YOG, spending the best last part of working life before going back to school and rebuilding friendships that are lost in 2009.

I am grateful with all these... But they are never enough. No matter how much human revolution I had put in, bigger resolutions just failed to achieve at the very end.

Especially came after the fact that I lost my mum on 10/10/2010, I thought I can redeem something, be it studies, relationships or whatever for her. It's not just for her, it's also for myself, for everyone. Everyone, be it my father, my relatives, my friends, has been watching my growth, has been looking forward to see me scoring bigger victories in the year.

And considering the fact that I failed to score colourful results in my studies, failed to breakthrough in my relationships during her lifetime...

All I want to is to end the year on a positive note, after losing someone so close in your life. It's just so simple.

After a positive-looking and much happier November, the last month of 2010 was simply a joke, a cruel and awful joke. When everyone was celebrating their victories, in their faith and their personal lives, I have to face my own unhappiness and disappointments once again. And this despite the fact that I had put in abundant of prayers to make things right, and the right actions that I have done, making breakthroughs to get involve in things.

But they are never be enough, not always be enough.

Exam results did not reach my expectations when they were released at the beginning of December.

Looking back how I recover from the loss of a close kin which just took place just exactly 2 weeks before the exams...

Looking back how intensive the revisions were made alongside with fellow Uni friends in the libraries and Starbucks, and alone late in the night...

Looking back how much confidence I had attempted in the exam scripts even in the killer Marketing Principles...

Looking back how satisfied I am when I scored a Distinction in the Marketing project, Something I never really expected...

How I thought I can score to show the greatest actual proof in life so far, but they were just simply short of my expectations.

What I just wanna do is to show actual proof to my dad, who had been supporting me soo much for my education.

What I just wanna do is to show actual proofs to my cousin who took his O Levels this year, who is lacking in faith.

What I just wanna do is to show actual proofs to everyone around me... some might think I am underachieving. I am indeed underachieving.

Relationships wise, the vicious cycle of karma just came around and bite on me once more at this period of my life. You will never know how deep your karma is. I can't blame no one. I can only blame myself, for not having the destiny come right on my way and not accumulating those required good fortune in finding the right person. I thought she's the right person, someone who seems to click so well with you and seems suitable for you... But it's just merely a case of "so near yet so far". Once again, it's never meant to be.

She just simply got someone in mind right at the start. Everything seemed to be properly arranged in her life before I could do anything. Fate arranges for her to enter my new chapter of life, creates opportunities for me to know her with a better understanding, but there's not enough good fortune to be with her at the very end. I thought I can do something to give myself a chance, in the end things just never meant to be. I just hope she will be absolutely happy with the right person. I can only blame myself for not having the right destiny to know her even better and be with her.

All the unhappiness just came at the very last month of the year. Life can be such a joke. It can make you build hopes at the beginning of the year, enjoying some best days throughout and not bringing you to your resolutions and fulfill your hopes at the very end. As time goes by but you seem to be not achieving anything great and you are going to reach a quarter of the century, you can always say you have enough of all these shits, like you always do. And it's not that I have never try this time round.

But what's the point ?

England and Liverpool can have their worst year in memory, but that doesn't mean their supporter have to suffer the same way too.

Fuck 2010. I will definitely move on. It will take some times. Perhaps, I should not expect too much for 2011. The more we expect, the more we get disheartened and disappointed when things don't come in our way.

But how are we suppose to fight and breakthrough if we don't have expectations ?

Reunion

I am grateful at how things have eventually made a turnaround after more than one year.

It's really grateful and appreciated to see how old friendships can be rebuilt gradually.

Yet, at this very moment, I am met with yet another challenge in life. It's one biggest challenge since I entered University.

I can't elaborate much. I just hope things can turn out well... Even if premonitions may not be going my way right now.

Read again

I read this blog again and realise how stagnant my life is.

It seems that things are always the same, year after year.

It's not that I had never try hard.

The fact is, I had done whatever I can.

Perhaps, it's not always being the right time.

Perhaps, it's always the case of lacking the act of good fortune.

Second half of the year had seen more disappointments and unhappiness than joy.

The very last month.

I still gonna fight on despite having the slimmest of chances.

I just can't let happiness slipped away... This time round.

After some 4 months in exile

I can't believe I am writing my thoughts during these office hours... Perhaps time really passes soo slowly now.

It's been 4 months since I started writing again.

One semester of my new school life's gone just like that. At least it's looked better than before though... But I felt I could have done more.

Mum passed away on 10102010, just 2 weeks before the exams. We had been mentally prepared somehow, but it's been a sudden happening. I wish I can mention more about her some day.

Now I am back at PGP again during the holidays. Money is running out... And perhaps, time is running out. Speaking of it... Once again, we are staring at the end of the year, yet I am asking myself once again... How much resolutions set at the beginning of January 2010 have I actually achieved ? I can't hide the fact that I am somehow disappointed in my debut semester results, despite the fact that I had my most intensive revision in my life. Many things in life look soo stagnant and perhaps, bleak though.

Christmas is coming soon. Christmas is about hopes. But can hopes turn into reality eventually ?

National Day

I missed performing in National Day Parade with fellow SSA youths...

And for this year's one-in-a-lifetime Youth Olympics Games, I chose to do volunteering as an NOC assistant rather than performing in the opening ceremony. Well, it will be a wonderful experience playing my part as a volunteer in this global event. And yes, fresh struggles are there as I gotta juggle between studies and volunteering. 加油！

I sincerely hope next year's NDP item by Singapore Soka Association will be put up by the Youth Division. The biggest wish for me is to have the good fortune to invite new friends (non members) to participate together with me.

Not just one... But many.

Farewell.

Farewell to my first full-time job since ORDed...

Farewell to the long journey bus 151 ride... Though I gonna take the same bus service on a shorter route...

I definitely hate bidding farewell to a environment that's been there for long... Not long yet not short though... for a 16 months. I definitely hate saying goodbyes to those who are there working along, encouraging me along, and training me along for my human revolution for all these months. I always sincerely wish all these friendships that are forged since ORDed are always there, intact... even if they are no longer in the same environment as mine. And yes, I will definitely wanna make time for future catch-ups. (Despite the fact that I will be heading for a new challenge back as a full-time undergraduate, a challenge of redemption to achieve absolute victories in studies and meeting new good people.)

And I will always remember all the things that had happened for the past 16 months... Those highs and lows in my life. They had made me grow.

Good bye PGPR, but friendships never end...

While a fresh new chapter of life awaits...

A share of mixed feelings

It's already mid-July and World Cup had just completed exactly a week ago.

England may have disappointed me once again. Just a bunch of overrated, over-confident, half-hearted lads who could have chosen a easier route by not conceding a freak goal against the Americans, playing whole-heartedly as a team and beat Algeria and scored more than just a goal against Slovenia... and avoided a youthful Germany who played with soo much unity.

However, Spain had shown me that underachievers will eventually shine and make their breakthrough one day. Of course, I definitely wanna emulate Spain's winning ways, making breakthrough after breakthrough in life, and break all those vicious karmas that had plagued me for long.

Meanwhile, my days at PGPR are numbered as World Cup came to an end. The truth is, I really can't bear to leave my colleagues after more than 1 year of working life. This era of working life had seen my ups and downs... Those days of self-realisations and regrets of my education path, those disappointments of a 10 year friendship that was lost (It was exactly one year ago...), those highs of SYM involvement... They all happened during my working life at PGPR.

But it's time to move on... Afterall, I have planned my renewal of my study path some time ago.

Yet, I will always remember those friendships that are forged at this workplace and hope all these will continue to prolong.

How are you, my (lost, old) friends ?

I wish you all's been doing well.

I guess you all are really doing well.

I guess I am doing fine, as long as I am able to face the challenges ahead with these new-found optimism. Afterall, we are born to enjoy lives.

It's been almost a year now. I guess soo much things had changed. But perhaps, everything happens for a reason.

If only lost friendships can be resolved through dialogues and taking initiatives. If only ice can be broken some day, some how.

England

I may express my support to this underachieving team, but my life must definitely not emulate their results in football.

What's the point of watching English Premier League and seeing the likes of Rooney, Lampard and Gerrard dazzling around when they don't even play wholeheartedly at a bigger stage of football call the World Cup? Just because your clubs pay you all big bucks, that's why you are able to dazzle and score goals after goals in your own domestic league? The Algerians played with their hearts out despite being a group of unknowns.

Just one sentence for you my Three Lions to round up this short post:

Half-heartedness led to underachievements.

You can't blame your underachievements in football at the end of the day. At the first place, you don't even fight for the ball with hunger and desire.

Finally !

It's been amazing that the very last post of this blog was dated at the very last day of March. That was at the very end of SYM... How time flies.

It's been more than 2 months now. Life's more or less the same... Challenging while I eager to create something in each and every day of my life, and that's despite the current obsession of FIFA World Cup at the very current moment. Somehow I feel that I am willing to miss alot of English Premier League games, but not even most of the group stage matches of the World Cup.

I may enjoy the coziness of staying at home and watch many of the games... But I really love the company of friends watching football together, be it Soka comrades, poly friends, secondary school friends or colleagues. It's the time where friendships can continue to bond and grow at the same time.

Once again, my favourite team is England, though there are few other favourites such as Spain, South Korea and Argentina. Yet, my no.1 beloved team in the World Cup is still England. Perhaps, I love supporting underachievers, since I am also an underachiever especially in studies and relationships. I don't have too much expectations for the Three Lions though, just like how I expect them to be winners in the last World Cup 4 years ago. This time round, at least they should qualify for the semi-finals, just like how they did exactly 20 years ago.

Speaking of studies, I really need to look forward and prepare well for my new chapter of my school life starting in August. Afterall, it's been something which I have been soul-searching, thinking, looking forward and must really breakthrough in the following few years to come. The fact is... I am seeking the last redemption in seeking positive results and absolute victories in my studies.

For now, I must really enjoy and create each and every value in my working life while watching the World Cup as an working adult.

三月

我有准准一个月的时间没有写部落格了。这个月来，我为SYM的演出而忙碌，但这些辛苦是特别值得的。

回想起当初去SYC参加音乐剧的试镜，那时是大概7月到8月之间。当时的我，经历一段人生的低潮期。我不想多说当时所发生的一切，我想我已经在这部落格上分享过。当时的我，处在人生的地狱界，沉溺在痛苦之中。然而，这一切都在这段数个月的排练期间渐渐地转变。

这数个月以来，面对的挑战与难关可不少，面对的失落也不少，但比起当初的我，我的生命境涯在这段期间渐渐地提高起来。我想，我更有决心，勇气以及较客观的态度去面对这些问题，更有决意去改变我的生命，去追逐我的理想。

这数个月以来，面对不如意的事不少，但经过愉快的事也挺多。这些在SYM排练的期间的最辛福的事，我将永远记得。

如今，面对生活的挑战与难题都还在，但我真的决意要在剩余的2010年取得人生一次又一次的突破，一次又一次的胜利。

特别感谢观看我演出的朋友，谢谢你们抽空老远来淡滨尼看这场音乐剧。我也很有福运的认识这群与我一起奋战演出的会友，希望这些友谊能继续维持下去。

这场音乐剧，是我参加SSA创价学会的活动以来毕生最难忘的。这场音乐剧不是个结束，而是个我人生新的一页的开始。大家一起加油吧！一起取得一次又一次的胜利！

End of black (Fe)berry

It could have been a joyous and festive month for some obvious reasons. Afterall, it was the month when I was another year older and a month of catching up with many distant relatives and collecting additional income in red packets and social gambling. Yet, some negative surprises just simply evolve out and trying to stop me not just from being in a positive mood; But rather, trying to demoralize me from striving for the future and progressing forward.

I don't wish to elaborate soo much. I guess I have said too much. I just wanna throw away all these thoughts of disappointments and staying more focus to progress forward.

I finally kicked a ball yesterday. It's been almost a year since I played football. Well, I finally saw few of these Secondary School friends since last December. We did not talk much though. Overall, I had quite a fine game. I just hope to play more football this year, even if I may not play a game for the upcoming March, since I will be burning my weekends for Soka Youth Musical.

Speaking of SYM, it's been a good past few months going for trainings and practising my role in the musical, even if it is just a simple role as a Sedan chair carrier for Toda Sensei. At the beginning, I thought I was just there to carry the sedan chair and that's all. In the end, I did more than just that. I will be part of the singing crew in the scene of Toda's passing as well as performing fan dance in the final scenes of the musical. It's been quite a good fortune getting these opportunities to perform in the musical. Meanwhile, I get to know more people through this musical and I will really like to work together well with them to give the best out of every chinese version of the musical.

Afterall, my weekends for the entire March will be burned for a much greater cause and a greater value.

This March must record my first breakthroughs and victories for this year.

祝福

For all these unnamed people as mentioned previously in this blog:

2007/08:
http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2008/01/how-are-you-now.html

2009:
http://i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com/2009/12/review-2009-part-i.html


















































































































































































































I wish them absolute happiness.

Not being emo, but I really had enough.

I can't put myself to sleep before 12am once again... Perhaps all these recent outcomes had really been trying to demoralising me. One by one, one by one, one by one...

Those who I used to have those affections on, those who had hurt me soo much after such one-sided relationships turned sour...... had gone attached one by one, at the very same period of time. Well, I should be happy for them, while my confidence in pursuing of love had looked lost.

Dear friends, I am not trying to be emo. I am not being desperate. But how does it feel if you are single all along, not having a serious relationship soo far in your lifetime yet getting hurt soo much in all those several one-sided relationships, and then see some of them you used to have affections for getting attached, one by one in the same period of time? I simply had enough of all these vicious (one-sided) relationships cycles happening in my life for all these years. Just when these ex-crushes found their right ones, I am here, still single without an actual relationship at 24, still underachieving, still here, typing all these fucking same old frustrations again.

I am not being desperate, and I should not be angered or frustrated when they did not even give me a chance to progress even in friendships in the past. But think about it... All these hurtful experiences had me losing in my confidence... Confidence in terms of pursuing of love.

I wish I could swap all these hurtful one-sided experiences for better results in my studies, a place in NUS/NTU perhaps. I really wished I could have divert more attentions in my studies rather than those (early) one-sided relationships... Perhaps I wont feel soo much level of hurt, I wont lose soo much self-confidence, and I could have met better people in a school life that I really desired right now.

All the recent outcomes (Good news, new found happiness for them perhaps) seem like devilish functions that are trying to hinder me from progressing forward, stopping me from doing things that I really need to do. But I don't wish to be defeated once again. I am really sick of it. I really need to do my human revolution to really press on. There's many other things that I can look forward to, to strive on besides love.

Meanwhile, I really dont wanna see myself in the sufferings of one-sided relationships again and again.

"我在等一个人, 在等我的永恒, 告诉我爱不单行别害怕..."

A Special Million Thanks to......

Calvin, Miss Chua, Raymond aka my football kaki in Woodlands, Yao Min, Raymond aka my pri sch and NSPD mate, Aidan, Joshua, Jinwen, Candice, Kerwin, Janice, Jack, Joon Kiat, Queenie, Kah How, Meiying, Peijie, Victor, Sylvester, Zhenghsin, Qiaolin, Jocelyn, Sodohoya, Yvonne, Carista, Shi Ying, Gary, Mei Kuen, Alan, Hock Seng, Jiyang, Joan, Edlyn, Shiya, Jaymie, Stella, Miss Pei, Evangeline, Yeevoon, Dejun, Weiming, Wei Yong, Benjamin, Qijie, Eng Peng, Francis, Uncle, Beron, Winnie, Aaron, Charles, Michell, Yiting, Vijay, Yixiong, Sharon, Darrell, Sikang, Emmanuel, Samantha, Gabriel, Angela, Perry, Jiazhao, Catherine, Mei Wan, Kai Yang, Kevin, Elleen, Kai Jie, Phyuthinn, Darran, Shawn and Zhi Jie.

Thanks for all your birthday wishes......

Plus a new friend by the name of Optimus Prime...

I definitely wanna further polish up myself and do my human revolution, and to create breakthroughs of victories at a soon-to-be-mid-20s-age of 24, especially in my studies in the later half of the year.

There's many other things that are also needed to make them RIGHT though.

Yet another full year of my life is about to pass...

Today is my last day as a 23 year old. I am about to be in mid-twenties real real soon...

But well, after such a eventful and self-realising age of 23, there are lots of things to have them done, and there are lots of things to make them RIGHT. Afterall, I felt I had somehow wasted my early youth away, most notably in my studies, and of course, many other stuffs.

At the age of 24 and in the year 2010, I really wanna change all these things around and create a real revolution in my life this time round.

The journey back home

It's been donkey months since I last took a bus ride of service 151 from the Hougang Central direction back home to Toa Payoh. At last, I managed to take this ride after attending a district planning meeting at Lawrence's house tonight. Well for your information, I had always been a commuter of this particular bus service from my poly days, via NS, even until now since I started my work at NUS Prince George's Park. Perhaps, I might continue to take the very same ride home if I eventually go to SIM to pursue my degree in the very very near future.

Through this particular journey back home, those recent years memories just came to my mind. As the bus drove past SCDF HQ, I remembered those scenes of my NS days. Those days as doing overnight duty as ADO, those memorable rides of taking 151 with fellow NSPD mates, those lunch napping sessions in the Microfilm room and those la-kopi sessions at teabreaks.

The surroundings around the HQ had somehow changed a little. The other fact was, there were many changes in my life too since ORD.

Change in terms of my daily routine...
Change in terms of my direction...
Change in terms of my future plans...
Change in terms of my self-realisation...
Change in terms of my circle of friends... New friends might have have entered my life after NS, yet some friends have somehow disappeared from my life in the meantime.

I should have made my future plans well during NS. I failed to do soo. I could have made my self-realisation earlier rather than slightly later.

But I hope it's not too late now though.

Singapore, 1st World Country; 3rd World in terms of Sports Telecast ???

I was only about 4 months old when the 1986 World Cup was held in Mexico. Back then, the very-then SBC (Now Mediacorp) showed almost all the matches I guessed, including the one featuring the "hands of god" and "the best goal in history" by Diego Maradona.

When I was only 4 and started my first pre-school year, 1990 World Cup was held in Italy when the whole world saw Paul Gascoigne in tears during the classic semi-final rivalry between England and West Germany. I believed my father did catch some matches on Free-to-air SBC.

When I was only primary 2, I remembered I was awaken up by my father as he was catching the final between Brazil and Italy in the morning on the very same free-to-air channel. Unfortunately, one of my favourite hero cum fellow SGI member, Roberto Baggio, missed the spot-kick which gave the Brazilians their 4th trophy despite being the best player in the tournament.

When I was primary 6 and it was PSLE year, it was the last time the World Cup was shown exclusively on the very same free-to-air channel. It was one of the best world cup which featured 32 teams for the first time, as well as Beckham's sending off and Zidane's double headers in the final.

When I was in Sec 4 and preparing for my O-Levels, it was the first time I was unable to watch all the matches on TV as I did not subscribe to Cable TV yet. However, I did manage to catch quite a couple of them on the neighbouring free-to-air channel as well as Channel 5's offering all matches from the Quarter finals round onwards.

When I was in Poly year 3 and doing my attachment at Micron, it was the first time I subscribed the World Cup TV coverage on the then one and only Starhub Cable TV. I did manage to wake up in the early hours and caught the matches. I remembered once I hardly got some sleep as my poly lads came to my house and stayed overnight to watch all the actions on TV while I had to report to work attachment the very next day. I was able to stay awake during my working hours though.

Now... 2010 World Cup is fast approaching in South Africa and yet me and fellow die-hard football fans in Singapore are wondering whether are we able to watch all these once-every-4-years action or not. Many of our neighbouring countries like Thailand, Indonesia, Vietnam and China will be going to screen all these matches to their citizens LIVE on their free-to-air TV stations.

How about us ??? Worrying about not able to watch football this June just because our very two dearest telco cum pay TV companies are unable to meet the telecast pricing demands requested by FIFA ??? No thanks to the unhealthy "bidding wars" between these two companies for the EPL rights from next season onwards, making others think that, "You are able to fork out such amount for English football, therefore you can also fork out that amount for this biggest football event in the world."

And yes, this season's English Premier League might be the last season I will be watching on TV.

One simple wish of mine is to be able to watch FIFA World Cup comfortably at home this coming June and early July before I officially start my full-time studies.

That's so simple.

Upset

I don't mean to write my complaint of my life...

And I don't wish to write such unhappiness at the beginning of the year.

But at the end of the day, I do feel sour and feeling left out when my family's not being invited to one of my cousin's birthday celebrations. That honestly speaks of my family ties with my extended family.

Back to the days from toddler to pre-school, I enjoyed my best early childhood with these maternal cousins. But that slowly went downhill, especially after my dear mum got seriously sick when I was at a preschool age of 5ive. I am not here to blame my mum, but it's a fact. Family relationships just dwindle and we only met once a year..............................during Chinese New Year.

Yes, I don't have the best of my family life where the rest of my peers have after the age of 5, while I suffer numerous setbacks from my studies to my love life. And seriously as I grow up, I envy the family bond as shown in Moonlight Resonance. (家好月圆)

Now, I have another reason why I definitely must show actual proofs by achieving my desired resolutions in 2010.

爱不单行

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人懂怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定在一起的那个人
很多人都像我一个人过生活

爱 只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂 恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人 也(没)被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱 是不可输的吗?
为何我还相信 它不是独行侠
我在等一个人 在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到 爱情那个枷锁

爱 只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂 恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人 也(没)被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱 是不可输的吗?
为何我还相信 它不是独行侠
我在等一个人 在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人 在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信它

Year of Tiger for Tigers (Not the one with the word 'Woods' behind.)

Extracted from the email sent by WK...Year of Tiger for the tigers !

The Tiger Magnetic, passionate and grand! When the Tiger does anything, it's noticed! Indecisiveness and stubbornness can mar the sparkle of the Tiger personality. On the one hand generous, on the other hand a little mean, it's sometimes hard to know where one stands with the Tiger. Flexible, honest and truly entertaining, one has a friend for life with a Tiger.

Forecast for 2010:

Being the Tiger's own year, 2010 holds great promise for those born under this sign, with exciting developments happening for them both personally and professionally. Some Tigers may be feeling disappointed and disheartened after 2009 and it will be important to leave the past behind and concentrate on the future, which is looking so bright! Financially, everything improves this year for those born under this sign and money-making thoughts and ideas should be fully explored and investigated. With the fast pace of this year for all signs, the Tiger needs to take extra care in planning and thinking all projects through - no rushing headlong into schemes during 2010! Tigers looking for romance will possibly see a friendship suddenly develop into something more personal with exciting consequences. August, December and January will see a very active and entertaining social calendar, but all of 2010 will see fun activities for the Tiger. The Spring months, March to May, will bring encouraging and interesting job opportunities, but the Tiger will still have to make sure he puts himself forward and gets noticed at work.

Interesting Tiger Facts

Zodiac Stone: Sapphire
Special Flower: Violet
Best Hours: 3-5 am
Season: Winter
Horoscope
Colors: Green, Blue, Yellow

The very first post of the new decade

Hello 2010!

Happy birthday to this blog ! You are a 2 year old kid now...

It's been a good start to the new year after going for New Year Prayer meeting at Senja Soka Centre this morning. Like what I have mentioned previously, I am out to create victories in my life and create happiness in the new decade to come. Of course, words are easier to say than done and I must really create absolute positive results and making wonders in my life.

There's many more resolutions to come for this year than before. However I shall mention some of them now, while few of them I shall keep them undisclosed.

- Study hard and create excellent results in my studies (Be it whether my ground will be at NIE or SIM-RMIT)

Yesh... These shall be my no.1 priority of the year. The past decade had seen myself underachieving soo much that I only realise how much time I have wasted and how many possibilities of "What-if" could have been. This time round, I must redeem myself and be the best student in my next level of higher education learning.

- Continue to contribute in Soka activities, get more members to go for activities and perform well in SYM and play my volunteering part well in YOG.

- Get a driving license in 2010

- Gain my weight to 75kg

- Improve my vocal in singing

- Improve my skin-complexion, improve my hair growth

- More personal self-grooming

- More character-building, do my human revolution

- Create more values in my working life (Before I start school) and garner more working experiences and have good working relationships with colleagues

- To prolong current friendships that I have and creating more closer and understanding friendships

- To create a better family life

- To make more good friends in 2010 !

Yes, the quest of creating absolute victories in 2010 has started...