路太弯

我在这里计算终点的距离
下一站有没有更期待的结局
眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见
原来那个你和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见原来那个你和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是就换的回希望
呼吸太乱 世界太宽 缘分毕竟太短

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞却找不回拥抱的形状

我一路上跌跌撞撞却找不回拥抱的形状

Lists of changes throughout these past 10 years (Part 2)

1998: Mr Goh Chok Tong was the Prime Minister of Singapore. The late Ong Teng Cheong was the President of Singapore. Mr Lee Kuan Yew was the Senior Minister
2008: Mr Lee Hsien Loong, the Primer Minister. SR Nathan, the President. Goh Chok Tong, the Senior Minister and Lee Kuan Yew, the Minister Mentor.

1998: Toa Payoh Bus Interchange was located at where the HDB Hub is now, before relocating to the temporary site at the Toa Payoh Gardens. Popular was at 3rd level of Blk 190 and there were only 3 fast food chains... McDonald's and KFC plus Long John Silvers at the then-refurbished Toa Payoh Entertainment Centre. And one more thing... there's a departmental store by the name of Oriental.
2008: Toa Payoh Bus Interchange is part of the HDB Hub, an air-conditioned one. Popular is at the 2nd level of the interchange and there are more than 3 fast food chains...Subway, Mac, KFC, Burger King, Mos Burger, Pizza Hut and Long John's. Sizzler even opened one outlet above KFC... where the vegetarian restaurant used to operate... Oriental's no longer there.

1998: Pei Chun Public School consisted of 3 blocks... A, B and C. The front gate was along Toa Payoh Lor 6. Poi Ching School was our neighbouring school.
2008: PCPS moved to a new campus in 2001, where the old East Payoh Sec stood. A and B's no longer in use... seemed they have been refurbished and used for other purposes. C is part of the new campus and since underwent a massive renovation. The front gate is along Toa Payoh Lor 7. The original one near the Lor 6 bus stop is the back gate instead. Poi Ching School moved to Tampines in the 2000s, their old campus is now occupied by a Islamic school ?

1998: I never really involved in SSA activities, let alone starting to take up faith in Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism. But my uncle took me to attend their PD activities after completing my primary school education (known as Boys and Girls then that year...)
2008: I started chanting in 2003, received Gohonzon in 2004, and taking up leadership in end 2005. I involved in their Student Division activities from 2004 - 2006 with NPSD, and then once again end 2007 onwards with ITACSD. I took part in 3 NDPs (2004,2006,2008) since taking up faith, as well as 2005's YCF.

1998: My elder female cousins, Sheena and Melissa, were still schooling as Sec Sch student and Tertiary student respectively. The younger ones, such as Gerald and the younger Chias are still in Kindergarden. Yansen took PSLE with me in the same year.
2008: Sheena and Melissa are now married with kids. Gerald and the younger Chias are now in Secondary School. Yansen went through JC, NS earlier than me and now in NUS.

Remember Yakult's Tour...

Where am I? Just make a guess...

The date is 1997, Valentine's Day lolx! It's been a facebook craze of sharing memories with pri sch mates... These old photos are posted on facebook, thanks to Mingfen and Weimei (This pic is contributed by her.), while I have created a group page dedicated to the class 6F of 1998. So far 25 of them are added.

10 years is such a long time... many things happened throughout these years ever since we have graduated from Pei Chun Public School. The world has been ever changing, while we may have grown and switched our favourite things.

Here's some of the lists of changes throughout these past 10 years:

1998 - Backstreet Boys and Spice Girls used to rule the music scene, while mandarin songs were still ruled by those four heavenly kings, Jolin Tsai and Jay Chou were not even in the scene yet.
2008 - Jolin Tsai is my favourite female artist aka "Dreamgirl", while I roam the KTV with songs from Jay Chou, Alan Luo Zhi Xiang and Nicholas Teo. Emo boyband songs no longer rule the English music scene, and I hardly listen to English Songs...except for Avril Lavigne and Linkin Park perhaps?

1998 - There's a longest running TV comedy show by the name of "Comedy Night", while its main presenter Jack Neo and his sidekicks produced their record-breaking first ever movie by the name of "Money No Enough"... its quality not-so-good though.
2008 - "Comedy Night" no longer airs on Channel 8... but Jack Neo continues to make movies after movies, including 2008's Money No Enough 2... its quality is much much better.

1998 - Titanic hit the World's box office records and Leonardo Dicaprio became every girl's favourite boy. The year also saw another great Disaster movie in Armageddon starring Bruce Willis, Ben Affleck and Liv Tyler.
2008 - No movie overwrites Titanic's records but there were quite a number of great movies over these 10 years... Lord of the Rings, King Kong, Batman: The Dark Knight, Transformers, Harry Potter series, and of course, Spiderman series. Meanwhile, Leonardo Dicaprio had grown mature and became a better actor. Scarlett Johansson, Lindsay Lohan, Kirsten Durst... some of the Hollywood's hottest stars to name a few.

1998 - France won the World Cup at their home soil. Zinedine Zidane was the best footballer. Ronaldo was everyone's superstar. David Beckham got a red by giving a kick on Diego Simeone and became England's public enemy no.1, but he was ladies' favourite.
2008 - Spain won Euro 2008 in Austria. Zidane retired 2 years ago, after giving some head butt on Materazzi in the last World Cup Final, and this time, France lost the game... yet he was a legend of an era. Ronaldo became a World Cup winner and Golden Boot winner in 2002's finals, but soon his career faded once more...Overweight, Long-term injury again and went to look for some (AGUA) hookers. David Beckham married Posh Spice, won 'Treble' with Man U in 1999 and became England captain throughout these past 10 years... then joined Real Madrid and then LA Galaxy... his no.7 shirt at Man U was taken over by yet another ladies' favourite... Cristiano Ronaldo.

1998 - Liverpool was co-managed by Gerard Houllier and Roy Evans. Evans left halfway through the season though. Michael Owen was the GOLDEN boy, and he scored a legendary goal against Argentina in the World Cup.
2008 - Liverpool is co-owned by George Gillett and Tom Hicks. There's Rafa Benitez who replaced Houllier, and he led them to 2005's Champions League victory. Owen is at Newcastle United now instead(In between, he went to Real Madrid), while Fernando Torres is the golden boy in scoring and Steven Gerrard is the one who replaced Owen in every Reds fan's heart.

1998 - Team Singapore won just 3 golds at the Asian Games in Bangkok. The national football team won its first ever international trophy in Tiger Cup.
2008 - Team Singapore won a sliver in the Beijing Olympics,ending some 48-years of wait...while the national football team became the Champions of Southeast Asia in 2004/5 and 2007, and posed a tougher challenge to the rest of Asian powerhouses in football. Even though these teams consist of foreign talents... Meanwhile more recently, Singapore won a historical gold in Paralympics... this time by a swimmer who happened to be a student of Bendemeer Secondary School... Yip Pin Xiu.

1998 - F1 racing... a championship chase between Ferrari and McClaren... Michael Schumacher and Mika Hakkinen... Hakkinen and McClaren eventually won the season... and no one ever thinks Singapore will host a leg of the championship in the future...
2008 - Yet another two horse race between Ferrari and McClaren... Filippe Massa and Lewis Hamilton... while Hamilton is in the lead and Ferrari in the lead for constructors... and Singapore is going to host the first ever F1 night race... a street circuit... this coming Sunday night.

(More of the list to come through my brain-storming...)

Sengkang South Chapter Friendship Gathering

The entire Youth Dance group...

The entire performers for the day !!!

After involving in not only just SKS CFG, but also the other two CFGs from the Sengkang Zone, it is overall a success for these CFGs for SK Zone despite not being able to hit the target attendance. The attendances have been reasonable though... not too bad for a zone which is just formed at the end of last year.

Meanwhile, I feel that I have known my members such as my cousin, Yixiong, as well as Kelvin more throughout these dance practices leading up to CFGs. Yixiong is able to turn up for dance practices and performances despite having his schedules packed due to tuitions and studies at the beginning, and I believe he has a potential in dancing, since he joins the dance group in school.

Nevertheless, this is just a beginning for Sengkang South Chapter and the rest of SK Zone. Let's make bigger victories and great growth in the years to come... XD

Some thoughts...

Say I am emo-raged... and I should really do my human revolution in controlling my anger. Or I just can't have the wisdom to find the right words to say, something which had long contributed to my shitty and disappointing love life.

But those newbie privates are really intolerable and they don't deserve to be in my dept afterall. Fancy 3 months ++ left to ORD and post these shits here to give extra challenges to me as a SGT?

Yeah...call them shits. Shits who have lower education, showing bad attitudes and don't give themselves a bright future in their lives along. Perhaps the society needs them around, to let them do what capable and bright people will not choose to do. Apologies if I have made such sterotyping and insulting remarks, and I have sounded arrogant... I am just being in some state of anger.

1 of the shits got a pretty-looking girlfriend, while I never have the good fortune to have even an average-looking one. Alrite, I should not be jealous over such a shit. Perhaps I must agree what many of my friends said, "butterflies attract butterflies, shits attract shits.", "Polish up your life and the right person may appear."

This NS stint has been a roller-coaster and challenging one for me... meeting different types of people throughout these 2 years, perhaps it is preparing me for the working life ahead ? Of course it is! I shall really learnt alot and applies alot, and do my human revolution. For those shits, if they choose not to listen and don't give themselves a chance to contribute to the society in the future, let them be.

There's other challenges and human revolution for me to take actions ahead, and I must really show actual proof at the end of this year to make a year of victorious one. These past two months I have seen disappointments and being frustrated and less-happier than the first half of the year before. I am looking more emo...emo-raged. Sounds like Enough Is Enough...

I just wanna bucked up.

我们小时候...1998

Mingfen tagged me this on facebook. I looked soo... surprised ??? 1998... That was the year when Titanic ruled the box-office, a young David Beckham got sent off in the World Cup and then Zinedine Zidane came to world-footballing fame with his two headers against Brazil in the final, and the economy was not soo good at that point of time... Economic Cycle perhaps ???

This pic is damn small... and don't think anyone can spot me. But anyway 10 years later... we did have a gathering in the middle of this year and perhaps let's have one more again. Well, I wish to meet up more old classmates of mine. Everyone may have their own activities, busy with their own work or studies but let's make it one day to do some catching-ups.

Chapter Friendship Gathering: Part 1

I guess this CFG there will be 3 parters. Part 1 was last night, it was Sengkang East CFG. Part 2 and 3 -- SK Central and My SK South will be in 2 weeks time.

Last night was a tremendous success for the first chapter of the SK family to hold its CFG. I was particularly involved in the youth dance, a joint group by SKE and SKS. Well, I never practise much leading up to this CFG, but I manage to play my best for this performance. Meanwhile, last nite's CFG also invited Jiu Jian, a fellow member of SSA and of course, one of the judges of the ongoing Superband competition. He shared a testimonial to the audience involved.

In 2 weeks time, SK Central and SK South will be holding their CFGs at the same venue, Tampines Soka Centre. Most Notably, the one on 21 Sep, 3.30pm as it is my chapter, Sengkang South, to hold its first ever CFG in history. I will be there once again, performing out the youth dance. Not sure whether the group will be involved in the CFG of SK Central though, but nevertheless at least I will be there giving them a help as logistics perhaps, if the group is not performing the youth dance.

This September, let's build victories and let our lives shine with absolute happiness !

TOP 10: Songs that sang on KTV (Love Song Category)

Sounds more like Bitter Love Song Category (苦情歌) perhaps...

Anyway, at times I shall list out some top 5, top 10 of my favourites... starting with songs that sang on KTV. (Ranking not in Particular Order)

1) 小丑鱼(Little Clown Fish) by 罗志祥(Alan Luo)

"lady lady one more try,再试着了解我的爱,发不出声音的感慨,选择作朋友的无奈..."

2) 转机(Turnaround) by 潘玮柏(Wilbur Pan)

"我放不过我自己,转一圈回到了原地,眼泪是一种提醒,我很爱你,让一切归零.我放不过我自己,仍相信爱会有奇迹..."

3) 我爱的人(The person I love) by 陈小春(Jordan Chan)

"我爱的人不是我的爱人,她心里每一寸都属于另一个人,她真幸福幸福得真残忍,让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深..."

4) 背叛(Betrayal) by 曹格(Gary Chaw)

"把手放开不问一句say goodbye,当作最后一次对你的溺爱,冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管,只要你能愉快..."

5) 洋葱(Onion) by 杨宗纬(Aska Yang)

"我就样一颗洋葱,永远是配角戏,多希望能与你有一秒专属的剧情..."
(By the way, this is not the chorus...)

6) 好朋友(Good friends) by Alan Luo

"像两首节拍不同的歌,却又同时被爱情合奏,旋律勉强着..."
(This are the beginning words of the song...)

7) 错了再错(Mistakes after Mistakes) by 张栋梁(Nicholas Teo)

Although this song I have never played for long, it is one of my all-time favourites.

"我可以痛了再痛,你可以错了再错,不甘心,不闪躲,只为那失真的承诺..."

8) 残废(Crippled) by 吴克群(Kenji Wu)

"在爱里残废,非弄得伤痕累累,累到我无力再追..."

9) 我不配(I'm not fit!) by 周杰伦(Jay Chou)

"这感觉已经不对,我努力在挽回..."

10) 别太温柔(Don't be too gentle) by Kenji Wu

"是谁说过爱过才懂,有些事不必说伤不必痛,不过害怕寂寞...爱过才懂不必再说,我会一个人走带走寂寞,希望你好好过,温柔太多也许只是种折磨..."

Reblog, Repost: 爱不在

坐在这角落 心里很多话想说
我和你的错 就是舍不得放手
深爱你的我 早就应该让你自由
知道我以后 需要一直往前走

也许是越在乎 越会彼此的伤害
这样的爱情 又算是什么

爱不在 应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在 我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候 对爱有太深太多依赖
好像你失去在这世界 还能够
孤单的自由

是曾经有的梦 现在只剩一场空
心里好多疑问 你忘了你的承诺
笑我自己没有用 眼泪无言的流下来
知道还是要面对 这段感情的伤痛

是因为越在乎 给彼此伤害更多
有了距离以后 看到不同的你和我

爱不在 慢慢让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在 我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候 对你还是会有关怀
可是心里已经太明白 不是爱...不是爱

爱不在 应该让自己从回忆中离开
爱不在 我们都已不存在彼此未来
有时候 不管对爱有多少的依赖
就算再不愿意再伤心 我明白
我们只能放手

爱不在...

On this day 1 year ago...

I guess I have written about this before in my blog... I don't wish to retell what's exactly happened 1 year ago...despite my frustrations and disappointments on how things are 1 year later...

Alright, there's still injustice in things around and I felt all these sense of injustices, especially when there's no absolute turnarounds and breakthroughs. I am not saying that there's no breakthroughs and victories at all for the past one year, there are do accomplishments in my growth, as well as passing IPPT and promoting as SGT...etc, just that in this aspect of my life, things are still looking stagnant.

Alright...I am not going to say "Love Hurts", "Love Disappoints" or cursing or swearing myself of being "F**king single with only one-sided relationships" or whatever. This is my heavy karma but I am NOT admit to defeat. I really need a lot, a lot, a lot of good fortune and confidence in not just this damned love life of mine, but also other aspects of my life.

Today may be a time to remember those unwanted false-dawn disappointing memories of last year, but it is also a time to renew my determination to achieve those resolutions which I fail to achieve in 2008.

While this September is the month of Chapter Friendship Gathering(CFG), what a time to take actions to achieve my breakthroughs in life and contribute to the CFG for Sengkang South Chapter to make it a victorious one for this new chapter.

There's 4 months to go for 2008...and by that time I am going to ORD, I really need to win, to breakthrough, to grow.

And let happiness finally steps in my door.