How are you now ?

I wish you are happy... Indeed, without asking, I know you lead a happy and fulfilling life.

I still wanna sms(or even call) you as an approach but don't know what to start. No point of sending messages like "How are you doing ?"... You may not replying me back anyway.

These past weeks, are you seeing someone new ? I know I don't HAVE the rights to ask you around... But if you do, I hope he treats you well.

This weekend's been Jay Chou's concert, I would have like to ask you whether you wanna go and watch ??? Since you are his fan... But I don't know how to start, or where to start, especially when this friendship doesn't even look good afterall. Last August I could have asked you to watch "Secret", but that period was the start of your poor response.

I am still sorry for that Birthday Incident. I am just a fool without wisdoms to make decisions, never taking any serious thoughts whether it's a prank or not. But I am sorry if my appearance somehow spoils your celebration that night, even though I was the one who was scammed. Afterall, this simple friendship already doesn't seem to look good before it happened.

Perhaps you don't wanna give me a chance afterall... even as good friends... Just that you just don't want to be soo direct to me, or you are afraid that I can't take this blow... even when I ask you online whether you found anything uncomfortable about me ???

I am just a noob who don't even know what a serious relationship's like... Don't know what to start, where to start, how to start. I am just lacked of wisdom. It is just one of the karmas in my life.

I still chanting for the hopes that we can at least back to talking terms, in the meantime I am progressing, working harder than before, be it my studies, my NS, my Soka Activities, my social life, my family life, my image, my human revolution...etc etc. There are cold shoulders, jeers, criticism along the way but I just wanna make 2008 a tremendous success.

Don't be pissed if you ever come across this blog one day. These are some of my thoughts, though it may cause any constroversies. But if you do, I will remove this straight away...

Or perhaps, I should do of the following...

"冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管...只要你能愉快"

End of this post... and STOP EMOING... Chia Yiheng Kieran