Never-ending

If my life is like a football club, it's gotta be Newcastle United rather than my beloved Liverpool.

Just like that team fighting for relegation from the EPL at this moment, I just feel soo underachieving and the stupidity in me had won over me. How many wrong decisions do I have to make before I can see tremendous actual proofs in my life ???

I am just being foolish, making too much, way too much poor decisions in terms of my studies since 'O' Levels. And it's not just studies after all... Soo many decisions, whether big or small, most of them have been the wrong choices. Right now, I am just being frustrated, disappointed and underachieving. 7 fucking years of youth is seemed to be wasted...Nothing has changed...Nothing.

Soo what if it seems life has been happier than before ? Too many wrong decisions had brought nothing... not a single significant victory. I really had enough. And I don't think I had even done any single human revolution..... Up to this point, I don't think I am able to forge close bonds with most of the people around me.

It just seems that I was born to this world as a clown, as an invisible man.

To let people laugh. To let people ignore. That's all.

And to end this low-life condition post...

18 years of family karma...
11 years of relationship aka love karma...
7 years of study karma...

Anything else ?

Call me Karma King if you want.